posted June 13, 2015 07:58 AM
Hello librasun,I have Mars in the 12th, conjunct Saturn and PLuto, so, I know how you feel about "unlucky" aspects. It bites the big one! I feel like that scene from the 1st Austin Powers movie where he's just been unfrozen, and he's going through the assemble line "thing" then he starts screaming about how he can't control "THE VOLUME OF HIS VOICE!!".
When I lose my temper... Forget volume control - I turn into a lighthouse bullhorn, lol. It's so crazy and scary because you feel wreckless and out of control. Although it takes alot to get me at that moment - I put up with a lot of junk before it lets lose, to the point where keeping it in - is making me sick internally. So I feel ya!
You said that you have Neptune in the 7th - Although I don't have that, a close friend of mine does and she hates it. I have Chiron in the 7th, so closey-get-to-know relationships bug me out!
She's told me before that she doesn't understand why she feels the need to "save" the guys she dates or atleast tolerate way more. She deserves everything - because she'll give everything she has to help anyone. She did say that she bounces back and fourth about who ineviteably plays the "neptune' part.
Sometimes she feels like it's her fooling herself. She's said before, in regards to some guys; that theres no way that she could ever have a serious and long term thing with this person, but can't seem to stop engaging - so she goes along with it, while being secretly mad because she thinks that she can't find better. Which is not true! I don't know how it works for you, but she's frustrated by her 7th.