posted July 28, 2014 11:03 PM            

EDIT: Wow, this is a lot longer than I expected it would be. I don't know why I had an urge to share this story, share yours if you want, I will gladly read them! Life is so strange sometimes... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knIkq2jktDs here's a beautiful song I've been listening too that for me sums up the twin flame pain of being torn apart, that bittersweetness of fate.

This morning I felt a strong pull to share my story. I am not sure why, but I have a feeling there is some divine intervention in place and that perhaps sharing this can help someone...

It all started on a sunny May morning, May 11th 2012 to be precise. I had just graduated with a Bachelor of Education, was young (still am!) in my early twenties, full of hope for the future but with a missing spark. See, I had never truly envisioned myself as a teacher; it was the wise thing to do, the decision to please my parents, the world, and an exboyfriend's family when I was applying for college years earlier, but deep down I wasn't happy.

I had gotten back from a life-altering trip to Australia, where for the first time in my life I was surrounded by artists and realized that I wanted to be one too; that I was one. I wanted to be amongst those like me, but I didn't know how. Deep down I knew teaching was just not the right thing to do. It was the safe option. Anyway, back to the story. I was back home in Canada, the semester had ended and I was completely lost in life.

Though I had been working as a waitress at local Italian restaurant, the mafioso owners went bankrupt from their nasty gambling habit and the restaurant had closed. So here I was, 22 almost twenty three, with all my teeth (French idiom, not sure it translates...haha means I was a grown up) living at home with the pressure to find a "real job" while I worked as a substitute teacher occasionally.

That morning for the first time in a while I blew dried my auburn hair into straight locks, put on the nicest royal blue satin shirt I owned with a pencil skirt and drove across the suburbs to a lovely part of town for a job interview. It was in the kind of place you feel safe walking around at night, the part of town newspapers forget about because it is so wholesome and beautiful and boring. The interview was for a teaching position in an upscale private elementary school, which entailed a great deal of babysitting and extracurriculars, as the children of the wealthy are quite often seen as burdens to their hardworking parents. Though the interview went well, as I walked out through the waiting room, I met a beautiful young woman wearing a beige ensemble waiting to be interviewed. She was a few years older and right then I just knew I didn't get the job, but it didn't matter, and I didn't care.

posted July 28, 2014 11:30 PM            

I got ready for that night, two of my best friends happen to be born on May 16th, we share the fateful number 16 in our birthdates and sometimes I think that perhaps struggles related with that birthday are what brought us together in the first place. We were going to celebrate at my friends tiny but tall house that looks like something out of a film, filled with beautiful antiques and bizarre foot and legs sculptures her dad makes. Instead of the typical barbecue, my friends decided to have paella (inspired by a recent trip to Spain) and a great deal of wine, and invited an outrageous amount of people for the size of the house. Another one of our best friends had a friend she went to school with, who happened to be a passionate cook who loved cooking at parties for free, as long as there was wine and new people to meet.

posted July 29, 2014 12:03 AM            

When I saw him standing in front of me, in the depth of his charcoal eyes I saw surprise, and attraction. I didn't understand and thought I was crazy for a second. We spoke very little with words in the beginning, just with our eyes. He spoke a great deal; he is the kind of person who lights up a room when they come in, fierce and warm and funny. The world stops and starts gravitating around them wherever they go. He was a nomad, told us of his travels to Morocco with his best friend, his passion for food, for wine, for life. He had just signed a lease for his first apartment in life and was ecstatic.

I went upstairs to get changed with another girl who knew him quite well, as we were choosing from my friends dresses, she asked me what kind of boys I liked. Were they tall, and slim, and elf-like and strong and dark eyed? Though I didn't understand this sense of recognition I felt, she saw through us. She knew like we knew that nothing would be the same. She later admitted he kept on asking her all sorts of questions about me when I was not around that first night.

As the night progressed, we kept on talking to everyone but each other, glancing at each other through the house. He approached me and admitted with his rusty, deep voice that he could not remember my name, and asked for a reinaction of the first time we met. We turned around, shook hands and reintroduced ourselves with a laugh.

The rest of the evening was a blur, alcohol and other substances were passed along and I just remember us running away from the home in empty streets, falling on someones front lawn and kissing as the sprinklers went off to chase us. After making our way to the home, in my inebriated state of mind, I decided to tell him I was tired and I should get some sleep, alone. I always believed the rule that if you sleep with a boy on the first night, you will blow all chances of a relationship; I'm old fashioned like that. He said he was tired as well, but he wanted to spend time with me and talk with me until I fell asleep. We made our way to my friends (travelling) brother's room separetly, as to not raise suspicion from my friends, my shiny goody-two-shoes reputation at stake. He went in first and as I walked into the bedroom, he pounced on me and we started laughing. I told him I wasn't tired much more, and we had the most intense lovemaking session I've ever experienced, it was like he could read my mind.

The next morning I awoke with a knot in my stomach; I was scared I screwed up by sleeping with him. He was still snoring, and coming from a pretty conservative background I was hoping my friends parents wouldn't walk in on us naked in bed. I started anxiously finding excuses, perhaps even introducing him as a boyfriend when he woke up. His smile dissipated my worries in an instant. He had that rock star quality, the bad boy with a heart of gold aura that felt authentic. I started feeling safe as he started asking me all sorts of questions. The interview I had just lived paled in comparison to the thorough questions he was bombarding me with.
He told me he wanted to know everything about me, and spend the day laying out in the sun just talking. From my favourite music, to what I did for fun, to my family, to where I grew up...We ended up talking for six hours straight. When he noticed I started being uncomfortable, listening for the sounds coming from the rest of the house. I told him about my worries regarding to my friends parents and my plans to introduce him as a foreign cousin or serious boyfriend.

He told me if we were to lie, we had to make up a plausible lie; we found a common ground in hating ice skating, and he said perhaps we should say we went on a blind date at a skating rink but since we both hated it we never actually skated and went and got ice cream instead and we had been dating for 2 years already...His imagination just ran wild, never in my life had I met someone I could talk to in this way. It was as if time had stopped, nothing else mattered. It was like we knew each other, the familiarity, his name, his family. The odd part was that all those years he had been a friend of one of my best friends, but whenever she had a birthday or party that he was at, I wasn't there and vice versa.

Ensued the most beautiful days of my life, we ended up dating, breaking up as things got too intense, back together, got pregnant, miscarried and broke up again...

He just got back in my life, but I am not sure he is mature enough or that I am where I need to be. I got a teaching job last year, hated it, ended up following my passion as he does with his and going back to school to study creative writing.

posted July 29, 2014 11:09 PM            

But I'll certainly keep an open mind.

posted July 30, 2014 01:10 AM            

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Originally posted by IndigoDirae:
Let's have a look at the astrology before applying the rubber-stamp. You seem very young, and it follows more of a Soulmate script.

But I'll certainly keep an open mind.

I am sorry to hear of your miscarriage. :: hugs ::

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Thank you..as terrible as it sounds, we weren't ready and I am glad I didn't have to face the decision of perhaps having to have an abortion, it would've killed me.

Hmmm interesting...so perhaps there is a chance I can meet my twin flame if he was just a soulmate??!!!

Here is our synastry+composite (composite looks so pretty..no idea what it means though haha), am very new to astrology so to me this is a bunch of lines with a few shapes I am starting to recognize..

posted July 30, 2014 01:17 AM            

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Originally posted by sc0rpioRising:
Oh my gosh... sounds increeeedible and transforming at the same time... and sorry to hear about your miscarriage.. i really really hope ur story has a happy ending!

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Thank you for the kind words!
It all turned out for the best, we were way too young and immature and not ready..
One day I really do hope to have babies with him, and a dog and be happy.

posted July 30, 2014 04:04 AM            

ALMA (390)
KARMA (3811)
DESTINN (6583)
ISIS (42)
OSIRIS (1923)
PSYCHE (16)
EROS (433)
VALENTINE (447)

Finding linkages there should give greater definition. Also, that cMOON-PLUTO-BML packs a punch. You've GOT to have a lot of emotional maturity to weather it. That just takes time.

The MOON-NNODE exact synastric conjunction is also VERY telling; am I correct to assume there is a SNODE-MOON conjunction as well?

Emotions and children are involved in regards to debts from the past. It's possible this Soulmate is here to very well be a very significant relationship.

posted July 30, 2014 09:23 AM            

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Originally posted by IndigoDirae:
At first brush, it strikes me as a definite Soulmate relationship. I'd like to see a few more things?

ALMA (390)
KARMA (3811)
DESTINN (6583)
ISIS (42)
OSIRIS (1923)
PSYCHE (16)
EROS (433)
VALENTINE (447)

Finding linkages there should give greater definition. Also, that cMOON-PLUTO-BML packs a punch. You've GOT to have a lot of emotional maturity to weather it. That just takes time.

The MOON-NNODE exact synastric conjunction is also VERY telling; am I correct to assume there is a SNODE-MOON conjunction as well?

Emotions and children are involved in regards to debts from the past. It's possible this Soulmate is here to very well be a very significant relationship.

Also, never day 'just' a Soulmate. While I have one Twin and several Soulmates, they're never anything short of precious and essential to the development of my destiny.

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Alright, a few silly questions:
What's cMOON-PLUTO-BML... the BML part?
Also, I know where to enter asteroid numbers when checking charts on astro.com but how do I get them to show up on the chart? With lines and all?

Also, maybe not which is better, but do people have more chances of being in relationships/getting married with soulamtes or twin flames? I seem to have trouble to distinguish the two, need to read up on that?

Anyway, thank you for the input! I feel less crazy for feeling this connection, even though he's left me a few times because things got too intense and he got afraid (I did the same...am currently feeling such mixed feelings about him I renamed him "Don't answer it's Satan" in my phone, because of the strong perhaps unhealthy pull I feel towards him hahah)

posted July 30, 2014 09:29 AM            

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Originally posted by IndigoDirae:
At first brush, it strikes me as a definite Soulmate relationship. I'd like to see a few more things?

ALMA (390)
KARMA (3811)
DESTINN (6583)
ISIS (42)
OSIRIS (1923)
PSYCHE (16)
EROS (433)
VALENTINE (447)

Finding linkages there should give greater definition. Also, that cMOON-PLUTO-BML packs a punch. You've GOT to have a lot of emotional maturity to weather it. That just takes time.

The MOON-NNODE exact synastric conjunction is also VERY telling; am I correct to assume there is a SNODE-MOON conjunction as well?

Emotions and children are involved in regards to debts from the past. It's possible this Soulmate is here to very well be a very significant relationship.

Also, never day 'just' a Soulmate. While I have one Twin and several Soulmates, they're never anything short of precious and essential to the development of my destiny.

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posted July 31, 2014 01:13 AM            

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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
Nice opposition, great Venus/Mars DW and Mercury contacts and Mercury/Venus and good overlays.

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thanks!

posted August 01, 2014 02:05 PM            

IndigoDirae, I would love to hear your input on our chart, you sound very knowledgeable and wise on the topic from others posts of yours I`ve read..

Do you see Twin Flame elements to it?

posted September 07, 2014 09:40 PM            

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Originally posted by melodiemelodie:
Alright, a few silly questions:
What's cMOON-PLUTO-BML... the BML part?
Also, I know where to enter asteroid numbers when checking charts on astro.com but how do I get them to show up on the chart? With lines and all?

Also, maybe not which is better, but do people have more chances of being in relationships/getting married with soulamtes or twin flames? I seem to have trouble to distinguish the two, need to read up on that?

Anyway, thank you for the input! I feel less crazy for feeling this connection, even though he's left me a few times because things got too intense and he got afraid (I did the same...am currently feeling such mixed feelings about him I renamed him "Don't answer it's Satan" in my phone, because of the strong perhaps unhealthy pull I feel towards him hahah)

Merci again, you're a doll xxxx

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Sorry, I just saw this.

Honestly, it depends upon the level of maturity of both involved. Some Twins can hack it. Most cannot. Soulmates predominate our dating and romantic life and history, so, statistically speaking, we're more likely to select a Soulmate with whom to settle down.

posted September 07, 2014 09:43 PM            

I'm seeing markers here which are indicating a definite Soulmate relationship with some heavy karma to clear. Definitely a soul-based (karmic) romantic history. Past lovers with some betrayal to clear.

posted September 10, 2014 09:12 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Wow, SUN conjunct SUN, 2°. I see this a LOT in charts where someone feels they've met their Twin Flame. Odd. Sometimes, they have. Often, they haven't.

I'm seeing markers here which are indicating a definite Soulmate relationship with some heavy karma to clear. Definitely a soul-based (karmic) romantic history. Past lovers with some betrayal to clear.

I'll be back with greater info, now that I've got the charts. Thanks!

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Oh wow, thank you!!! Am waiting to hear from your input! It is so reassuring when others acknoledge that there is something pretty heavy and pretty karmic going on, I feel like it validates all those crazy feelings I have had in regards to him!

posted September 10, 2014 09:13 PM            

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Originally posted by ReeseC:
This is a beautiful story.

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