posted January 19, 2015 08:58 PM            

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Originally posted by MorningDew79:
Here's the composite chart. I am still so new with looking at the charts so any help is really appreciated......

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Well, I am new too, but you can check how it interpret on by clicking "Free Horoscopes", then "Interactive Pportrays", and then "AstroClick Partner" on astro.com, you can get very idea how it means. I have found many are quite accurate by testing a few composites.

posted January 19, 2015 09:06 PM            

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Originally posted by mollywu:
Well, I am new too, but you can check how it interpret on by clicking "Free Horoscopes", then "Interactive Pportrays", and then "AstroClick Partner" on astro.com, you can get very idea how it means. I have found many are quite accurate by testing a few composites.

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posted January 19, 2015 09:20 PM            

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Originally posted by MorningDew79:
Really appreciate it MollyWu, I'm there now reading. It sounds like my relationship with him.

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posted January 19, 2015 09:26 PM            

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Originally posted by mollywu:
That is very good. So you know how to deal with your problems by its interpretation and advices, maybe you can tell him about this too if he doesn't dislike astrology.

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Yes, thank you dear. He is open to astrology but have been a bit disappointed because he had a reading a year ago about his career and about our relationship and it was great on the readings. It says we will have a solid strong relationship. So I guess he's becoming a little unsure about astrology after that.

posted January 19, 2015 09:33 PM            

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Originally posted by MorningDew79:
Yes, thank you dear. He is open to astrology but have been a bit disappointed because he had a reading a year ago about his career and about our relationship and it was great on the readings. It says we will have a solid strong relationship. So I guess he's becoming a little unsure about astrology after that.

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posted January 20, 2015 01:07 AM            

All you have been through needs healing first. You can never have a happy relationship. Always start with relationship with self! The best thing in the world!!
Yes Morningdew, if you can find a very good, good therapist (not a psychologist) it would be the best! I am almost one myself and going through these years of becoming a therapist I know how healing it is. Of course it all starts with your own intention. Do you really want to be healed? What is it that you still hang onto. Old beliefs? What will you loose when you step onto the path of healing because your whole system has been trying to protect you by making you belief stuff that might be outdated or not true. "I am not good enough" is a thought once created. It served a purpose but does it still serve a purpose now?

One thing is important. You have been so considered but consider yourself!! Sure he deserves better but what about you!! Focus on you because once you are focussing on him you might shove your anger and very valid emotions under the table. Thinking again you're not good enough or feeling quilty. Feel the anger. Don't reason it, just feel it just because it's there! You can examine later. People who are abused in any kind of way are usually so sweet and considered. Because people made them feel useless. Feeling the anger could trigger so much for healing. It's so good you came here Morningdew!! And I am so glad you cried! Don't hold it, just let it. You are not spoiled! Be who you feel you are right now!

You are like a star, like the sun, the moon. So precious like we all are!! You ARE good enough!! You have been born into this world so you have a right to be here. That's everyone's birth right! You are HERE so you count! Worthy of everything and more!! Stop believing ******** some people tell you. Start believing how precious you are!

I could go on telling you how amazing you are! You have a choice, always! Choose SELF LOVE! When down really only surround yourself with uplifting stuff, inspirational video's etc..

Thank you for being here! It also helps me! <3

posted January 20, 2015 07:49 AM            

I decided not to reply to his email...it was just too raw. So he emailed me asking if I am angry at him so I message him and said no, I need time to digest everything.

We got into a discussion and I told him being 'away' from him for 2 weeks without constant support from him (before we used to Skype for hours every day because he's not working) made me realized how much I have been 'using' him in a way as a crutch to feel loved. And that is so wrong. I want him to find a career again to be successful and he can't do that while he have to 'cater' to my needs for validations, for love. It is so not healthy and just not right. He said me realizing that is a great discovery, life changing. And I need to do what I can to love me...to nurture my soul.

He really is a great guy...just not very lucky career wise. He said he will always be there to support me no matter what I decide. He wants me to be the person I want to be. How can I not love this man?

I will try to find a therapist here that I can afford this 'demons' feels too big for me to handled myself. I did a hypnotherapy when I first found out about my abuse and it helps me as I stop having nightmares so maybe that will help too.

You are so spot on about me being very considerate. My ex husband cheated on me God knows so many times and twisted it so bad I thought I deserved being cheated because I was never good enough.

Again, thank you so very much Sylven.

posted January 21, 2015 01:15 AM            

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Sylven, bless your kind words. I am in tears as I am typing this reply. So grateful that the universe passed me a loving message through you today.

I decided not to reply to his email...it was just too raw. So he emailed me asking if I am angry at him so I message him and said no, I need time to digest everything.

We got into a discussion and I told him being 'away' from him for 2 weeks without constant support from him (before we used to Skype for hours every day because he's not working) made me realized how much I have been 'using' him in a way as a crutch to feel loved. And that is so wrong. I want him to find a career again to be successful and he can't do that while he have to 'cater' to my needs for validations, for love. It is so not healthy and just not right. He said me realizing that is a great discovery, life changing. And I need to do what I can to love me...to nurture my soul.

He really is a great guy...just not very lucky career wise. He said he will always be there to support me no matter what I decide. He wants me to be the person I want to be. How can I not love this man?

I will try to find a therapist here that I can afford this 'demons' feels too big for me to handled myself. I did a hypnotherapy when I first found out about my abuse and it helps me as I stop having nightmares so maybe that will help too.

You are so spot on about me being very considerate. My ex husband cheated on me God knows so many times and twisted it so bad I thought I deserved being cheated because I was never good enough.

Again, thank you so very much Sylven.

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Aaaw! And thank you for reading and thank you for making me live my purpose and making me stronger in believing in me! It's really that simple, a transaction is always happening between people and I clearly see and feel it!

And good for you you are realising stuff during the new Moon!

Of course you may love this man!!! Love is the reason always! Love without expectations not from a place of need.
And of course you are attracting men who are either unavailable, long distance, cheating etc.. because you set that aura around yourself for them to come in. You can work on your boundaries. That's an important one! But first heal, feel and work through all that you been through. It first must be felt and dealt with. And it really doesn't have to be a long road. It's all about choice. Are you willing, do you want to be honest etc..

You crying means something deep inside is touched and your soul is so happy! Don't loose it, NOW Is the time to step up and work through it.

And DO find a therapist! The word 'try' is of the old and implicates it is out of your hands. When you set the intention of I AM going to find the perfect therapist because I AM worth it will make it so that you set up the perfect energy for that to come into your life.

I will talk to you later! Be well!