posted February 07, 2015 04:22 PM            

He's actually moving across the country in a few days. And it's put us in a very strange position. We haven't confessed anything to one another yet though. I feel too chicken. And I think e doesn't want to hurt me by going there.
I've been really depressed about it because I got so attached to him in such a short amount of time after meeting him, and now he's going away.

I can never bring myself to cut contact with him at all, no matter what. Weather it's consciously or unconsciously.
Whenever we don't communicate for a few days or get busy with our individual lives, something will happen to bring us back in touch and we'll chat intensely back and forth.
Maybe that could contribute to our tight DW of Mars-Mercury conjunction. Or our Moon-Mercury and ASC-Mercury.

He's been wanting to visit me again but I don't know if I'm strong enough to face him. He'll be gone in 5 days.

I've been contemplating on weather I should see him again one last time or not.
Because I have developed feelings for him, it'll be very tough.
If I don't see him and slowly distance myself, it'll be easier for me to move on and I can save myself from the unnecessary pain of saying goodbye to him. It's stupid I know, but I have a fear of being so vulnerable I think.

posted February 08, 2015 12:23 AM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Is this your Cancerian?

Also, NNODE conjunct JUNO seems really self-explanatory to me.

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Yes, it's him.
What do you think the Juno-NN could mean for us? I'm his destined wife?

posted February 08, 2015 02:21 AM            

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Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan:
Yes, it's him.
What do you think the Juno-NN could mean for us? I'm his destined wife?

We also have my NN trine his Venus 2'
Funny that I have this with Virgo guy too at 1°, but he's NN and I'm Venus.

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Yeah, there are definite connexions between them on a soul level. Hence some of the unusual flip-flopped aspects and such.

posted February 08, 2015 05:46 AM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Yeah, there are definite connexions between them on a soul level. Hence some of the unusual flip-flopped aspects and such.

I've never experienced someone's NNODE conjunct my JUNO, but it seems a classic partnership vibe to me. Romantic commitment. Definitely marriage-oriented.

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That's crazy.
I felt that way about him the moment I met him. As crazy as it may sound, I saw my future with him and I thought he'd be my perfect life companion.
Let's just hope that's not my natal Venus-Neptune square and Moon/Mars in 12th blowing things out of proportion lol.

posted February 08, 2015 06:57 AM            

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Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan:
That's crazy.
I felt that way about him the moment I met him. As crazy as it may sound, I saw my future with him and I thought he'd be my perfect life companion.
Let's just hope that's not my natal Venus-Neptune square and Moon/Mars in 12th blowing things out of proportion lol.

Do you have this aspect with your husband, Auby?

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No, but I thought for a second if I had something like it with the man I instantly felt SO bonded to, I said 'I think I want to marry this man.'

His VENUS/SNODE is exactly conjunct my JUNO/ALMA. Well, that'll do it! To this day, I love that man. Guess some things are just always there. Even if I did come to realise it's a that-was-then-this-is-now thing.

Weird thing is, I liked that guy since you met him! I don't even know him, and I had a VERY clear sense. That's stayed with me. I feel the 'trials of true love' may be setting upon you. Because this really does seem to be.

My husband's JUNO is trine my NNODE, within 2°, if I'm recalling correctly. My JUNO is square his NODES. So, yeah, skipped step much?

What's interesting is that my boyfriend's JUNO and ALMA are both out of orb of my NNODE, but the midpoint is bang on, within minutes. That makes a lot of sense to me. I've known no other Leo JUNO or ALMA individuals, and the conjunction within orb would have to be a month or so before he was born -- maybe a little more. And I can't foresee anyone else in '67 ever figuring so prominently in my life, so he's obviously it!

Maybe when the conjunction is exact, it's really driving of behaviour?

posted February 08, 2015 07:09 AM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:

Weird thing is, I liked that guy since you met him! I don't even know him, and I had a VERY clear sense.

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Same here.

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I suppose skipped steps can really pull people together. They have a job to do after all.

In mr Sag`s and my case it seems to be Amor. His Amor squares my Nodes by 1 degree, my Amor squares his Nodes by 1 degree, resulting in Amor being precisely on the NN in the composite. It could have ended up on the SN, too, but the fact that it did end up on the NN, along with the SN-ruler Mars being losely conjunct (3 degrees), oh well, I guess part of our job is to learn to love unconditionally (it gets complicated though as Cupido is exact conjunct that Amor and NN as well - maybe we need to learn both. lol)

Anyway back to Lavender,
I do think quindeciles work with the nodal axis as well, If we we consider quindeciles being strong aspects, they might be valid.

Unless of course the REAL strength from nodal aspects comes from the midpoints that a square would represent, the point where you can integrate South and North. if that is the real way how it works, then other aspects might not be all that strong with the axis of calculated points.

posted February 08, 2015 02:52 PM            

I could've sworn that AMOR was involved, but that might've been before I tightened orbs. (These are 0º-2º).

posted February 08, 2015 05:54 PM            

I just looked at his Facebook profile.
Turns out he's been in a relationship with a girl since January 29th.
And he asked me to meet up this weekend but I told him I was busy. But he brought his gf here and they spent the night in a hotel. WTF!

posted February 08, 2015 06:30 PM            

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Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan:
I spoke too soon.

I just looked at his Facebook profile.
Turns out he's been in a relationship with a girl since January 29th.
And he asked me to meet up this weekend but I told him I was busy. But he brought his gf here and they spent the night in a hotel. WTF!

I don't even know what to feel now. I can't even cry.
Why would he do this?
He knew clearly I liked him a lot. And he did too. Then why?!

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posted February 09, 2015 02:20 AM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:

... Okay. Clearly, I need details here. How long has it been since he knew he was moving? And how the hell long has he known Stranger McGirlfriendface? WTH.

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He told me last year but I didn't know when exactly he would be moving. I found out just recently 2 months ago through a friend of mine.
She's so crazy, she messaged him in November telling him I liked him and asked if he even felt the same.
He said he found me enchanting and had the intention of coming up to see me again. But was unsure weather to have something more with me.
He's been hot and cold with me since then.

He wanted to meet me this weekend but I told him I was busy.
And now I find out he's started a relationship with another girl. And they drove up here in Canada and spent the night here. He didn't even tell me.
So I texted him as soon as I found out telling him I was free today and tomorrow if he wanted to meet up.
He said he didn't have time and wanted to spend the remaining days with his family.

Well long story short, I confessed to him my feelings, and he did too. He said he cared very deeply about me but he also understood that our cultural differences would never make a relationship possible.
I had told him about my strict upbring and background.
But wtf though. That's no reason to be so sneaky and start a relationship with someone else?!

My friends think he might have a racist family history or maybe he's in a cult or something lol.
I don't know.
But I just felt numb. I didn't even cry. I really saw my future with him. But he had to throw it all away.

I'm contemplating now weather to block/delete him from all social media profiles or just wait.
Maybe now that he's heard from me how much i really love him, he'll come back.

posted February 09, 2015 02:22 AM            

And his replies were short and very cold.

How could a triple Cancer even do this?!
Maybe he kept leading me on cause it gave his Aries Moon an ego boost.
Sneaky sneaky...

Even you all said you like this guy and had a good feeling about him.

posted February 09, 2015 03:00 AM            

I still do. But hey, I guess it's like my husband says about my Twin. 'He's not dead.' I speak of everything with such finality these days. Ironically, he has to be the one to remind me that a lot can change over the course of a lifetime.

And I DO still feel good about him. Lunar Aries can certainly be brazen in their youth, though. Hell, even in their middle age, it can take A LOT for them to finally break down and admit to wanting another person. But don't believe it. Cancerians are softies deep down.

I think that this is the first big indicator that your background is going to really complicate your romantic future in terms of ever making a solid commitment. He's got growing to do, and you've got some thinking to do as well. Consideration, contemplation, and reflection.

Ohhhh, the hot-and-cold. They grow out of that. They do. Don't second-guess what you've had. THAT's real. Nothing -- and no one -- can take that from you.

But now it's time to think, and meditate, and introspect.

posted February 09, 2015 04:50 AM            

I told him it was nice knowing him and thanked him for everything.
He said to me "thank you my life won't be the same for knowing you."

After that he went onto to talk about the cultural differences and I told him I wasn't like the rest of my culture. I had let go of religion/dogma and I was open.
Lol and he repeated my first line and said "because I'm not like the rest of my culture and I would have been more shocking the more you found out about me."

Whatever though. I cut off all communication with him. I blocked/deleted him from all social media websites and he won't ever be able to contact me in the future again. That'll show him.

But I guess this experience was necessary in making me realize what I DO want.
I want a man who is mature and isn't scared of his feelings. So what if there are cultural differences, it doesn't mean anything. Not for me. I am my own person and not held back by the religion I was raised in. I have let go of all that.
And he knew that. I still don't get why he did this to me.

posted February 09, 2015 08:52 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
I am so sorry, Lavender.

But what you wrote clearly shows yet once again what a strong and mature woman you are!

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