posted February 20, 2015 04:11 AM
Hello. My name is Aubyanne, and I'm a disenfranchised Twin Flame. ( ... Sort of.)A few years past, I launched an inspired research initiative here on LL into the astrology of Twin Flames. It would become wildly popular, and we'd discover much in a relatively short time, building upon the studies of iQ, most namely. I also learnt about my own role as a Twin Flame, as well as the identity of my own Twin. 2012 would prove a momentous close to an enlightening, powerful decade, but give birth to a year of confusion, some regret, and terrible emotional pain. I felt that I was stuck with a man unable to love, and his attempts to do so were both misguided and abusive.
I relinquished the dream. I was becoming a more powerful psychic and spiritual guide than I'd ever been before. I chose to live the 'Twin Flame life' in spite of my sad, broken Twin giving in to the fear of change, rather than embracing a new beginning. I felt horrible, and fell into that long, dark night of the soul. I knew I didn't deserve his abuse, but I couldn't help but feel that I was abandoning a sacred relationship. I was miserable. I began devoting even more time to others; learning about this mysterious relationship and the role it's supposed to play, delving more deeply into karma, finally studying a long-held fascination (quantum physics) and returning to a lifelong love: multidimensionality. In the midst of it all, I was married to a companion Soulmate, whose deep-seated negativity caused me to retreat further into my spirituality for a sense of sanctuary, and I began to meditate. Frequently.
And, a few years before that, I'd find myself in a perplexing position, experiencing what I can only describe as 'the most overwhelming feeling of unconditional love' for a man that I barely knew; most troubling, I felt that I did know him. Somehow. As if his doppelgänger had begun coming to me, whispering in my ear and invigorating my dreams, fifteen years ago. But it was incredible; that just doesn't happen. Someone like that can only exist within my imagination.
Right?
Early 2013, after letting go of the dream of having a Twin Flame relationship, I returned my attention to the man who patiently stayed within my orbit throughout it. With whom, I had thought, I was now enjoying the serene platonic love that follows a romantic dalliance. More than once, several individuals had questioned whether we couldn't just be wrong -- and this was really my Twin Flame. Instead, I held firm and remained resolute. No, my Twin was an unevolved man who chose to run from evolving, and to hurt me to protect himself. I simply drew the short straw from the Twin Flame jar, and I had come to accept it.
We have a beautiful, and quite powerful synastry, with a strong and loving composite. But, I wasn't going to suddenly go into denial and claim he's my Twin. I could simply choose to have a Twin Flame relationship with him regardless. Yet 'Soulmate', in all of its glory, just didn't carry the proper depth. I've been blessed with many Soulmate relationships -- nearly all of them, to be honest -- starting in my teens (as I had much ground to cover!)
No, he's more than a Soulmate. He's ... he's ... 'He's your Guardian,' came a sudden insight from deep within my soul. And I immediately challenged myself. That isn't a thing. You've got various types and forms of Soulmates, and one Twin Flame. 'Guardian' is not one of the options available for selection. I rolled the term 'Near Twin' inside my head a few times as well; a high-tier Soulmate who was conceived at the same time you were, and so shares your frequency, but is not your Twin Flame. (Don't ask me. We're all always trying to figure it all out.)
After the term began to see independent confirmation, I realised there was some credence to this, and I explored further. iQ would soon after say that particular patterns in our composite were befitting of, and depicted this burgeoning 'Guardian' relationship. But I remained uncertain of the purpose of a Guardian. What makes it so special, and unique from a Soulmate. Why a Twin Flame might need one in such a specific role, and what it might be.
Until, it would seem, today.
I'm beginning to feel that the Guardian is one who has entered into an exclusive contract with a Twin Flame. Call it an insurance policy. I believe the Guardian can act by proxy for a Twin Flame, ensuring that this special mission is accomplished. You can imagine then, the sorts of qualifications a Guardian would need. In some ways, I feel they are even older than the Twins are, and it's probably not their first rodeo, either.
God, as they say, works in mysterious and magnificent ways. We're locking ourselves into third-dimensional thinking by presuming that the failure to physically unite with one's Twin is the failure of the Twin Flame relationship.
Let's reiterate that one, as it's vital to understanding the potential mechanics here:
The failure to physically unite with the incarnated Twin does not guarantee failure of the Twin Flame relationship, as it is not bound by third-dimensional rules.
Follow me?
Demanding a multidimensional relationship (or connexion) adhere to certain proscriptions of a bond on the earthly plane is akin to expecting a cat to solve Schrödinger's Equation. They're absolutely lovely companions, but they can't do complex mathematics. So banning a relationship from taking place simply because one of its members is unavailable is doing a tremendous disservice to the power of the Twin Flame relationship and the unfathomable abilities of All That Is.
Right?
So why do we do it? Well, we're human. Now, I, with my background in these higher level physics and the understanding of hyperdimensionality really shouldn't make such a basic mistake. But it's a lot for which to suspend one's disbelief.
Instead, let's consider the facts, in a fair and just manner.
FACT: Since I chose to live 'a Twin Flame life' and make my relationships 'Twin Flame relationships', I've experienced more love and positivity than I ever have before.
FACT: My dreams, paranormal experiences, trance states, meditations, karmic recollections, and tantric sexual explorations have all resulted in baffling and inexplicable knowledge, regularly defying natural laws -- like time, space, or the inability to perceive more than a single eigenstate.
FACT: Though I have maintained a distant-but-active relationship with my Twin, and we have physically interacted more this year than we ever have, something has fundamentally changed in the nature of our connexion.
I have figured it's simply my having moved on, removing any expectation of a Reunion here in our present lifetime, but the realisation that one can so completely 'disentangle' from one to whom they are so intrinsically bound -- is deeply tragic to me.
Wouldn't it be to you?
Further, I had to accept one of two possibilities: that my Twin was merely here to teach me, by cruel example, how to love myself so totally against even the greatest opposition. To be able to say with conviction, and prove by action:
I would prefer, and chose to share my life with, exceptional, and loving Soulmates, than a spiritually stunted and emotionally abusive Twin Flame.
And then I did it.
I strengthened my marriage, by delving deeply with my husband into all of our outstanding issues surrounding trust, honesty, devotion, compassion, and the existence and practise of unconditional love. It was painful. It was enriching. It was life-changing. We fought hard, but loved harder.
I allowed myself to be vulnerable to a man whose self-possession and ingrained sufficiency and asceticism terrified me. I learnt to take him at his word, and to trust in the moments when I felt most afraid, that his love remains solid and true. I deliberately chose such a relationship because of how thoroughly it would test my resolve, and force me to trust. Either I would grow, or I would lose everything. Completely.
I grew. I evolved. I changed.
Over a year later, I hardly recognise the three of us now; we've become a real family. My husband learnt to share his wife in an effort to understand how love is not, nor should it ever be, ownership. My boyfriend learnt how societal dictates don't equal happiness by default; he also discovered a depth of honesty he was afraid to express, encouraged by my husband who presented him with so much acceptance, he finally felt safe enough to be able to. And, in the midst of the two of them, I slowly found myself. I've become a formidable force of a woman, with a strength of compassion equal to the depth of her convictions and personal truth.
We've all found so much love; so much incredible, wonderful, true love.
How?
Perhaps my decision to simply be a Twin Flame in spite of my 'disenfranchisement' led to a lovely cascade of raised vibrations, heart chakra openings, and karmic reward blessings. Maybe.
So what would be the legitimate role designed for a Guardian Soul?
None other than another opportunity for a Twin Flame to bond and enjoy a sacred union. I know, I know: how's that possible, if you already know the identity of your Twin Flame? How could someone else 'be' your Twin Flame? Some call this the 'walk-in theory', where a living individual here on the physical plane provides a corporeal embodiment to an astral entity.
I knew the Guardian was somehow specially tasked with ensuring the Twin Flame is reunited, but the logistics were puzzling, and largely unknown. The how, or why, or by which means remained a mystery. But it's possible, that via a unique relationship between the three souls, and a contractual 'obligation', that in case one of the Twins is unable to complete the terms of their mission, the soul given the role of the Guardian will be able to step in and, essentially, take over.
Frankly, I can't imagine an energy more perfectly suited to this. Everything about him speaks of being honourable and duty-bound; to devoting himself -- and his life -- to others, and continually sacrificing his own happiness to ensure theirs. It's those very reasons I became so dedicated to love him, to give to him the chance to know such happiness, and to be so truly loved.
The more I contemplate this strange, phenomenal, yet potentially possible theory, I can even say when this 'changing of the guard' occurred -- or, more truthfully, this changeover. It's teaching me to remember to have faith, and never to feel abandoned, or excluded, or as if something's gone so irrevocably wrong, and we must simply deal with such a powerful, overwhelmingly tragic failure.
God comes through. The Universe provides. We are all in wonderful, loving hands, so long as we let ourselves be.
Last night, as I tried to sleep, I said a little prayer; I wanted to awake in the timeline in which he really was, somehow, inexplicably, my Twin; that, elsewhere, it turned out differently. The stars aligned in another pattern. The cards fell in an alternate way. That I wouldn't be bound in such a profound way any longer to a man who can never love me -- or with the depth and unconditionality with which he not only can, but does. I wanted, as if by magic, to find myself existing in the observed eigenstate in which I am married to a wonderful husband who's evolving a little bit more each day, and, though he doesn't share my spiritual understanding or metaphysical goals, wants to act beneficially in the world and bring joy to others in the ways he can. And, loved by an incredible boyfriend who's gone to sensational lengths to be able to, who's eager to create and share powerful art with an aching humanity whom he deeply hopes to teach, enrich, and ultimately heal.
And then I asked myself a question.
Then, upon having no reasonable answer, I asked iQ -- as he's single-handedly provided more guidance than I've had in this area, ever, and it's invaluable. Why would a Twin Flame serve the role more often handled by a Soulmate? If Twins are merely here to provide each other with painful and difficult lessons -- is that not an unconscionable waste of a phenomenal connexion, with the potential of being an incredible, profoundly powerful relationship?
We have so many Soulmates of varying degree; anyone, really, closest to us in our soul-family, at the top rung of the Oversoul, could inspire a deep psychic connexion and incite powerful change. In other words, those Soulmates would have proximal advantage.
Why a Twin? Do some of us just really and truly end up with such unfulfilling, ultimately disappointing and destructive Twin Flame relationships?
The answer is a resounding NO.
Twin Flames are arguably the most awesome force in the multiverse; armed with unconditional love, the ability to understand multidimensionality, and the desire to raise the awareness and vibration of humanity, so that we may all Ascend and return to Oneness in time ... That would, according to some ostensibly more fanciful theory, make us prime targets for those desiring we all stay 'asleep' and stuck in the third-dimension. What my mother calls 'the invisible side of the coin'. Forces at work which serve to harm, hinder, do great damage to our faith, our trust, and most of all, our ability to love. The fastest way to disarm a Twin Flame (or any highly evolved soul) is to remove his or her ability to love. That can be done a variety of ways; the most insidious, we could all agree, I think, is by causing such unspeakable heartbreak, that the other Twin loses faith, heart, joy, and the ability to give love.
This is where we get out of Twin Flames 101 and enter the realm of Advanced Theory.
'The False Twin' phenomenon is a theory seeking to explain the bizarre sudden reversal, or 'failure to launch' in some confirmed Twin Flame relationships. In short, it can be anything from a 'walk-in' of a lower vibration entity, or the intentional lowering of the Twin's vibration -- thereby making it impossible for the Twin to operate in alignment with the individual soul.
Imagine that we're all piloting our bodies, and Twin Flames have a secret copilot who doesn't announce their presence until the pilot is ready. Then the two fly in tandem, with the Twin acting as the other's wingman. You fly together in formation with a common objective. If something has damaged, say, one vehicle's control panel, or wrecked the navigation system, it's an unacceptable environment. Regardless of how it was sabotaged, they can't stay. It'll never fly the course that's intended, and they're wasting valuable time in a vehicle they can't pilot. The Guardian is then an emergency addition, launching from base and joining formation, soon flying in tandem with the original Twin -- so long as they remain undamaged and able to maintain course. You can imagine then that, despite the powerful existent contract, a Guardian has to be cautious. They can't enter the fray if the original Twin is able to regain control of their vehicle and reroute. There's no need to abandon that vehicle in favour of a new position.
But what if there is? What if they can't regain control? What if they are on a crash course?
A Twin Flame won't operate in mediocrity. They won't merely punch the clock and log hours of life. They have greater goals and bigger dreams, and they're insistent upon seeking to fulfill them constantly. Even in a period of 'downtime', they keep the faith and continue planning, preparing, to regroup and try again. I'm beginning to believe that my Twin's original 'vehicle' is unrecoverable, but, as planned, has executed the ultimate contingency plan.
The Guardian.
By swiftly acting to occupy another 'vehicle', after lengthy and thorough precautionary scouting, my Twin was able to begin copiloting with the soul that is my Guardian -- which is the very thing which makes him my Guardian.
Now, I think I know.
Now, I think I understand.
Now, I think it all makes sense.
And, in a strange way, I'm no longer a disenfranchised Twin Flame. Now I'm simply a Twin Flame enjoying a Twin Flame relationship. And a very special, incredible second chance.
So!
Who wants to talk Guardian astrology?
Any questions? 
Lindaland
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posted February 20, 2015 04:11 AM
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