posted February 21, 2015 05:22 AM            

Me:

Him:

posted February 21, 2015 02:21 PM            

There could be some tough lessons here regarding trust; I say could be. His NEP tightly on your NNODE deeply colours your relationship, which makes NEP issues front-and-centre. 'Magical' indeed.

SUN/MARS and MARS opposite MARS creates an underlying tension with a potent magnetism. This could be very driving, or present an undercurrent of agitation. This is going to feed into the sexual dynamics which have you in the Martian driver's seat, conjunct his VENUS, widely. It's not always easy, being female MARS.

So what's up with his NEP? A few things.

He's deeply insecure, which was hardly created in this lifeline. Many opportunities here will present themselves for him to confront these issues and turn them into ultimate strengths (CHIRON/NNODE in 1H). He also assumes they're visible to everyone, and feels doubly exposed.

Through no fault of your own, those waters do become stirred (MOON conjunct PLUTO quincunx CHIRON (2º). But more than anything, the insecurity is what drives him to keep mum.

You're both locked into a relationship by the NEP/NNODE quindecile your SUN. It's so crucial to your growth, and to him resolving his issues, you both remain inside this holding pattern.

Long and short of it is, like anything, he's got to step up emotionally, and you have to stay with it.

That NEP/NNODE could be beautiful indeed, but with CHIRON banging away in that quincunx, forcing your MOON and his PLUTO to change -- something's gotta give. He's here for healing, and could prove a wonderful source of it.

posted February 25, 2015 07:56 AM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Hi there, zirr1.

There could be some tough lessons here regarding trust; I say could be. His NEP tightly on your NNODE deeply colours your relationship, which makes NEP issues front-and-centre. 'Magical' indeed.

SUN/MARS and MARS opposite MARS creates an underlying tension with a potent magnetism. This could be very driving, or present an undercurrent of agitation. This is going to feed into the sexual dynamics which have you in the Martian driver's seat, conjunct his VENUS, widely. It's not always easy, being female MARS.

So what's up with his NEP? A few things.

He's deeply insecure, which was hardly created in this lifeline. Many opportunities here will present themselves for him to confront these issues and turn them into ultimate strengths (CHIRON/NNODE in 1H). He also assumes they're visible to everyone, and feels doubly exposed.

Through no fault of your own, those waters do become stirred (MOON conjunct PLUTO quincunx CHIRON (2º). But more than anything, the insecurity is what drives him to keep mum.

You're both locked into a relationship by the NEP/NNODE quindecile your SUN. It's so crucial to your growth, and to him resolving his issues, you both remain inside this holding pattern.

Long and short of it is, like anything, he's got to step up emotionally, and you have to stay with it.

That NEP/NNODE could be beautiful indeed, but with CHIRON banging away in that quincunx, forcing your MOON and his PLUTO to change -- something's gotta give. He's here for healing, and could prove a wonderful source of it.

Change is hard, but some relationships demand it of us.

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Thanks for your reply

What are NEP issues? Are you using 'Magical' sarcastically or do you believe it was magical? It is frustrating for me as there is a large amount of barriers and awkwardness between us now when I thought I had met my soul mate. I have a feeling we have a connection that lasts many lives but we just aren't ready yet in this one..

Could his insecurities give him the need to hold on to all his past relationships? I feel as though he needs confirmation his ex's still love him.. Like they are still his, in a way.

Yes I seem to be the one who takes the lead sexually. I don't really want to be the one but it has ended up like that.

"But more than anything, the insecurity is what drives him to keep mum. " What does to keep mum mean?

Interesting that we are locked in a holding pattern to keep us together. I feel almost like we are trapped together. Both of us are the type of people to stay with people even if it's not working and it seems to be the case with us for a while now..

Do you think he is here to heal me? I have experienced a lot of healing from him.. I think to his dismay though as he didn't realize at the beginning my issues that have come up to the surface somehow with him which is odd as they've always been tightly controlled.

posted February 26, 2015 01:21 AM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Define 'met your soulmate' ?

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I just wrote out a reply and it deleted itself!

I'm not exactly sure what I mean by soul mate but what I was trying to describe was someone I recognise from another life. I couldn't talk to him at first because I sensed his 'wave length' was the same as me. He said he noticed that about me too, we have the same perception in a way. We now realise that perception is blocked by things, me with my emotions and him with his fear of money and whatever else is going on inside him.

I get the feeling we're going to meet many times again in other lives and he could possibly be my soulmate but we don't recognise each other as it now. He has a mental block with these things even though he is also a spiritual person. I have blocks I don't really understand, it would be considered anxiety but i'm in the process of healing myself.

Another problem we have had is him staying at my house a lot as he currently doesn't have one since he's in the middle of building it so he is always in my space. For me this is very hard to deal with as I go through many emotions each day and need a lot of time alone to deal with my own intensity so that I can be around others. So that has created, at first a dramatic emotional journey, and now a blocked awkward experience where neither of us can open up to each other, at all.

I don't know what I can do about this. I don't know if we will be able to overcome the blockages. Is it necessary for us to overcome these? I'm lost on what to do...