posted July 14, 2015 05:25 AM            

Some feedback on he and I. We met over 11 yrs ago on my job. Though I wasn't supposed to "engage" with parents of the children I was caring for, I was instantly attracted to just what I saw. It was powerful! Luckily after about 2 months of seeing this man drop off/pick up his children HE approached me. I promise you I had NO idea that he paid attention to me in that manner. Naturally once we began dating I left that job. 2 months of dating he asked me to move in; I knew I was wet behind the ears but in our world that suggestion wasn't hasty. But yes, once I moved in everything went to hell fast. That Mars/Saturn resonated for me like a sonic boom! With his Sun nestled into his 4th house, I couldn't take his martial law kind of parenting <-- Ok maybe that's extreme. Many "little" annoyances drove us both crazy. One day I was beyond over it after only 3 months living together and I decided to move out (my intuition screamed he was cheating) and we had a more serious, deeper issue occur that cemented the severance. He thought the long talk we had and "make up stuff" would change my mind. Much to his shock, the next day I moved out anyway once he left for work.

This man proved to be very hot and cold, over all of these years; mind you I've only in the past 2-3yrs, truly began to study astrology to account for all of that...had me thrown when I was living it out with him with no astrological references back then. So much BS happened in that span of time that a more sane individual would've ran from and never looked back. Things that drove me to develop a hate for him. But there was that ONE damn element I couldn't shake. Intimacy was bewitching. I finally focused in on my Pluto bringing quakes to his North Node. Read what Ami Anne shared via her personal page about this aspect and of course it finally made sense. The passion is beyond us both. I mean, I think about all that crap he put me through in the past and the hate starts to bubble - very Moon opp. Pluto for sure. But, the pull with is placement is extremely intense and binding. We feel so connected in that department and he's been by far the best partner I've had because of how insane this connection is. I can confirm this is not an aspect to take lightly. We've been holding on to one another for dear life with this bad boy here. Speaking for myself with 100% honesty, I've been the one cutting off contact and then hunting him down over and over again. He always says, he never feels confident enough to track me down, and I didn't believe him at first. But in studying his chart, fear of rejection makes sense. We obviously have a few other binding aspects but to this very day the main thing I'm concerned with is this crazy primal addiction. For me, the general compatibility is jaded. I've tried to figure out if the "loving" aspects and overall maturity might help us to try something maybe in the coming years but that's hard to imagine.

Recently, he's been pulling me in for some odd reason. Stated he wants to "date" me. The kicker here is, I'm involved and found it very odd that he formulated those words considering I'm not single. It's shocking because he's so hesitant to be forward yet he really wants to date me. As you all see, that Venus/Saturn opp. along with a few others tell-tale aspects shines the flashlight on why he even went there. He's perfectly fine (for now) with being involved with an unavailable woman. I don't know what's up his sleeves....

Again, I felt so inclined to share what this aspects feels like. It's STILL playing out. We don't want to dismantle the passion. VERY HARD TO DO! If you want me to elaborate on anything, just let me know.