posted December 10, 2015 06:02 PM            

i ' am so sorry about what your going through. that really indeed sucks. its good that now you know that things werent right. i can see the pain through your words and im sure there's more to your synastry, progressed synastry, and composite/davison and transits to the event relating to this huge transofrmation that you are going through of him. Wanted to just wish you the best !

posted December 10, 2015 09:50 PM            

It was an incredibly intense connection - I've honestly never felt anything like it. Extremely emotional, I feel we have so much karma to work through together, neither of us could handle the power of our connection. I'm still not sure what I was supposed to have learned from the interaction, he brought me so much pain and now I don't trust men at all. I still love him though, and always will. I believe he is a/my soulmate but we won't be together again.

posted December 11, 2015 06:38 AM            

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Originally posted by angel4845:
@ sis

i ' am so sorry about what your going through. that really indeed sucks. its good that now you know that things werent right. i can see the pain through your words and im sure there's more to your synastry, progressed synastry, and composite/davison and transits to the event relating to this huge transofrmation that you are going through of him. Wanted to just wish you the best !

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thank you dear <3 ưn the progressed charts we have a newly seperating sun square venus. in the transit composite saturn has started to make conjunctions to our stellium - mercury ,neptune and will make nn, sun & venus..

in the distant future we will have; his pr.venus will conjuct my pr.mars and his pr.venus will conjuct my natal venus...

posted December 11, 2015 06:44 AM            

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I have this aspect with the one man who was able to not only break my heart, but completely crush it.

It was an incredibly intense connection - I've honestly never felt anything like it. Extremely emotional, I feel we have so much karma to work through together, neither of us could handle the power of our connection. I'm still not sure what I was supposed to have learned from the interaction, he brought me so much pain and now I don't trust men at all. I still love him though, and always will. I believe he is a/my soulmate but we won't be together again.

He never told me he had a girlfriend (who he was living with who happened to be overseas at the time) and one day disappeared and never spoke to me again. It was months later that I found out why. I had known him since we were in high school... we were together then but hadn't seen each other for 10 years before this occurred last year.

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posted December 11, 2015 11:06 AM            

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Originally posted by sis:
I still love mine too. but why ? why do we keep on loving these bxstards ? it's stupid..

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I read your long post ~ and I could have written most of that when I was younger. My ex wasn't abusive but...how do I say this....inconsiderate and selfish at times. Expecting too much of me.

Here's a reading from cafeastrology:

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When your Moon conjuncts your partner's South Node, the attraction is instant. You immediately feel safe, secure, and comfortable in each other's presence. Intuitively, you sense similarity in each other's emotional reactions to the world, and in your mutual needs for security. At some point in time, the South Node person may get a sense that the Moon person is holding him or her back in some way. There is much safety and comfort in the relationship, and the emotional bond is tremendous, but the bond doesn't carry with it a sense of moving forward. In fact, you may tend to cocoon yourselves and fall back on familiar routines rather than take on new adventures together. You may have such an effect on each other as to exaggerate each other's mood swings and desire for safety. If anyone of the two "outgrows" the relationship, it will more than likely be the South Node person. However, the attachment is great and there will be a feeling of emotional indebtedness to each other, particularly on the part of the South Node person. There is a great deal of sympathy between the two of you, and these feelings come naturally.

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posted January 03, 2018 10:03 PM            

Both of these were deeply caring and spiritual relationships with tons of soul growth but also difficult at times due to the lack of boundaries around emotional self-sufficiency.

In one case, my older friend was very much my spiritual advisor and like the Mother figure I never had. Sometimes, I would mother her as well. We were friends for 16 years before she passed away and she was one of my closest confidantes/advisors and directly responsible for my hugest soul growth in this life. A few years before her death of cancer, we began to shift away from each other which was sad for both of us but it had become too co-dependent on both ends. I needed to grow up and she needed all her energy to tie up her own loose ends in life. The last time we spoke on the phone (I was unaware she was dying) she gave me some very true life advice that resonated like never before and hit me hard. I didn't realize it then but she was saying goodbye and it was one of the saddest moments of my life that I did not clue in what was happening with her. By the time I realized what was going on, she was days from death, her brain was riddled with cancer and she couldn't talk or communicate - I was devastated! Her biological daughter was the most important person in her life - they adored each other and were best friends. Several years back, my friend made me promise to look out for her and occasionally I do from afar. So yes...a very interesting mother/daughter theme on many levels. ;}

In the other case, I have a longtime friend who has been going through a transition in her life (following a divorce three or so years ago at which point it has felt very one-sided around the comfort or emotional propping up she seems to expect without realizing that I'm a person in my own right. (Although, the support has definitely gone both ways in past.) Having seen this dynamic before, I tried to give space but the distance was kind of deafening. As the moon I began to feel incredibly drained but when I tried to tell her - it seemed she couldn't really hear me until I couldn't stuff it anymore. Since then, our relationship has never been the same. She doesn't have the perspective that I have when something upsets her, but I know that she doesn't need me as much as she thinks she does - although...she deeply resented being "pushed out of the nest" so to speak. We do have a deeply spiritual and respectful relationship but again, the desire to comfort was so strong, it seemed to lack boundaries.

Throughout my 20s, I had a very good female friend had her Moon in Cancer conjunction MY Saturn/South Node. Ultimately, it was a very heavy connection for her - one she eventually decided to break. It was hard to understand or accept at the time but...I was emotionally immature and way overly dependent on her to comfort me for every little thing that came up - she was such a panacea for me - I just had no boundaries when I got her on the phone.

At the time, and even for many years after, I couldn't totally grasp her feelings until I experienced it in reverse (as mentioned above) and then I understood just how draining it could be. Some of the biggest growth in my life occurred right after she cut me loose and I came to see it was all in divine order. Although we don't physically hang out or talk anymore, I do still feel connected in spirit, proud of who we were to each other as friends and certain that we completed our work together this time around.