posted March 19, 2018 09:40 AM            

Me thinks that you are terrified of feeling anything "irrational"-so u may be too accustomed to detach from feelings and these feelings are definitely intense for you. And they won't let go- making u feel out of control.

Your Draco Ven conj his natal Mars. His natal Uranus conjunct your natal 5th house cusp. Your Uranus square his natal Moon. Your Moon conjunct his natal North node and opp his Sun(very strong attraction here)

It could be strong attraction that you are trying to fight off. Because at the end you talked of how useless it all is to feel so intensely for someone who may not feel the same.

Jupiter in Scorpio transit is currently square your Moon. Jupiter in Scorpio may be heightening the feeling aspect of your personality.

Add Uranus trans hitting your Mars by opp. Lots of angry feelings that come out of " nowhere".

posted March 19, 2018 10:30 AM            

Moon almost exactly conj NN and opposite the Sun. There's that magnetic, "can't get you out of my head" factor. Feeling like there's so much chemistry between you even though, for whatever reason, you can rationally see that incompatibilities exist.

Pisces Moon square Sagittarius Venus - the Pisces Moon is absorbing all of the lusty and electric energy. They're being a psychic sponge for the carnal desire between the two.

Then you have Mercury/Uranus and Sun/Neptune to add to the spacey, psychic factor between the both of you. It's all in the synastry.

Does it feel better knowing that all of this can be articulate and this isn't just a figment of your imagination? lol

posted March 19, 2018 11:23 AM            

There's also a chance that he has feelings for you and he believes there's no point in telling you about them. This logic would make sense considering you're going out of your way to avoid him and leave any area at which he's present. He might be aware of you doing this thus his assumption that you don't feel anything for him at all.

Some of your friends are also friends with him, right? You mentioned one of your friends dreamed about the two of you together too. You never said anything, but this doesn't necessarily mean he hasn't said a word himself. Besides, even if you don't talk to him about this, perhaps you could talk to a mutual friend about your situation and hear what they suggest.

Hearing his side of things may benefit you though. These feelings don't appear to make sense, but without his input, it's not necessarily logical to claim that things wouldn't work out between the two of you.

Additionally, as I've already stated, if he has no feelings for you, this isn't necessarily something that's set in stone. He could end up developing feelings for you if you give him some time.

posted March 19, 2018 06:15 PM            

I have had similar with a karmic soulmate. He was forced on me, by our lives suddenly becoming meshed together (in a not dissimilar way to your experience). He's going to be feeling something too i think.... It's difficult to see soulmates/karma in a chart. It's the actual relationship you have in this life which shows up.

The feelings will probably remain intense until you spend some time with him but I agree, the synastry at a glance looks nice. I get a vibe that he's probably a kind person and will be quite unthreatening and gentle if you sit down and chat with him once.

Maybe meditate on past lives. Also, if you could fathom what it is that the fear is telling you, that could help. When I was scared with a karmic soulmate it was because I felt he'd reject me and he did, a lot of times (in between practically stalking me haha) it's usually not one sided with these things but obviously 'Jack' will just believe you dislike him..

posted March 21, 2018 04:29 PM            

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Originally posted by Lalafortunaea:
Neat! Which houses?

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posted March 22, 2018 11:59 AM            

Now if it’s not this and this man poses no *actual* danger (it’s very important to rule this out first) then I would try to really sit with the feelings he brings up. Meditate on them. If it’s past life stuff and it’s come up you will feel 10x better in general if you can work through the energy/pain/grief/trauma or whatever it is.

It’s very important that you’re sure that you’re not psychically picking up on stuff this man has done, or is capable of doing but if we can be sure that he’s harmless then the energy you are experiencing is already within you. He is merely the catalyst to you feeling it.

You see, if you look at it this way you can be empowered also….it’s your stuff to clear, change and modify.

In my karmic experience the guy has no effect on me at all anymore. I worked through the karma without him and doing past life meditations and then as he insinuated his way back into my life I worked through the last bits with him. My view was that he deserved to be free of the karma too, I’m not so sure of that now, as he didn’t really put the work in haha but truth is doing it in person was integral for me. There was still this residual guilt and attraction until I actually told him pretty much everything…

It doesn’t really matter what they think of you. That was what I struggled with the most, how much I was giving my power away, how it looked to others etc. etc. When I realised none of that mattered, I could just say/do whatever I needed to do to clear it all out…

posted April 01, 2018 05:08 PM            

I had a brujo/witch help me with cutting an etheric cord to someone I knew for years who was draining me. I would have endless dreams/invasive thoughts about this person also pornographic in nature like you described. Weren't my own thoughts, that's for sure.

The first two rows are examples of spells he works with, they might suit your needs: https://www.instagram.com/oldeways/

posted April 01, 2018 11:44 PM            

The RAHU-MOON is interesting; that’s a current contract. But there’s a lot more here that’s got to be explored.