posted April 01, 2018 10:49 AM
Asc is "on the minute" responses. It is that part of our personality that is the most spontaneous and is instinctive in expression.It is not like the Moon. As the Moon is often "reactive" i.e it bases its actions on how "safe" it feels and its past experiences.
But the signs in each also matters a great deal because Asc in Caps instinctive reaction to things is to be cautious, prudent and realistic.
If the Moon is in Aries, there is often a clash between the two within the individual because Aries(as akin to the 1st house) is more instinctive and impulsive. A baby bird that risks death by attempting to fly out of the nest for instance.
The baby bird does not "see" death as a possibility until it falls to it. The Asc in Cap sees limitation, restrictions and probabilities in all things.
So your Asc is in Aries- ,"Let me hug you because I feel that I really like you":
This Asc has a baby-like interaction with people most times.
However your Moon in Cap reserves this instinctive urge and maybe even curtails it with thoughts of "but how will it look to others if I hug you?" Or " What if you pull away?"and "What will people think if I am publicly rejected?" Etc.
So what happens often is that you silence these urges to respond instinctively. Its not always a success however,as the natural square sign aspect between Aries and Cap suggests that neither is silenced consistently.
So there is a tug of war and people close to you and even yourself, can't be sure how each situation will be like I.e will you be Aries or Cap?
So you might be called "moody" or "unpredictable" from one interaction to the next as you are NOT consistently your Cap Moon. Nor are you consistently your Asc in Aries when in external expression.
Your trine Asc in Aries with his Leo planets suggests that it is easier to revert to the Aries instinctive expression than careful Cap Moon.
So yes your Cap Moon can have the need to organize his life. Cap Moon tries to organize the people they love and "improve" them in some way(similarly to Virgo Moon).
But when Asc in Aries is interacting with his Leo planets,you could find yourself being more impromptu with him. More adhoc and instinctive.
So when you are with him you could find that your Moon in Cap may not show up much many times. And you see a lot more of your spontaneous, child-like "unrehearsed" self come out.
And this is your 5th house in Leo- where all his Leo planets are placed. Its the feeling of falling inlove because it requires careless abandon and "falling" for the process to retain its spark(Leo rules that).
However, this can feel terrifying to your Cap Moon. Kinda like a roller coaster ride that is both terrifying. But admittedly has its thrilling moments.
So you want to stop and get back to earth. But then you really don't. Want to put on the breaks, but really don't. Want to tell him to keep his distance, but really don't etc.
This interaction can bring out the natural inconjunct expression of Moon in Cap(your inner vulnerability)& natal 5th house Leo(your inner child)
I understand your push/pull dynamic. I have Moon in emotional and danger averse Cancer with 5th house cusp in Leo too.
When I interact with someone who has Leo placements in my 5th, sparks fly and I feel my inner self(Moon) exposed