posted July 04, 2019 07:35 PM            

Todd, hoping for your keen insight... Uranus in Taurus is pushing me toward "fight or flight" - honestly, I want to stay (evolve), but changes are needed

The balance of power is completely off the rails... He has complete control. It's been incredibly difficult for me. I feel I sacrifice more and do more to keep harmony - but he recently pushed me over the edge. I don't feel appreciated. And I'm worried he's deceiving me

It's very confusing (Neptune square Mercury *eyeroll*)

I've decided to take a break and emotionally disengage....

Davison:

Him (Natal):

Synastry:

posted July 05, 2019 10:57 AM            

Feel free to offer your two cents non-biased insight is much appreciated

posted July 06, 2019 05:52 PM            

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Originally posted by Hetshepsit:
Also ------ I am open to interpretations from everyone

Feel free to offer your two cents non-biased insight is much appreciated

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posted July 07, 2019 12:27 AM            

I'm not too trustful of our composite (some themes don't seem to connect to what I'm experiencing) -- your insight is helpful regardless:

posted July 07, 2019 11:18 AM            

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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
Hey, how have you been?? Is this still the same guy?
I remember the last you said you were pregnant. Seems like you guys patched back since that incident?

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Yes, same guy. It's been incredible, but rocky (transit Saturn, Pluto, south node, and Jupiter in retrograde have been doing the moooooost)

How are you????!!! How are things with your guy?

It was a false positive!!!! The emotional chaos of it all pushed us both to commit (at least I thought that was what we agreed on). I was expecting a break up (thought he didn't see me as a serious partner) - I just knew one of our birth times was wrong.

He's born at night not in the morning.

Puts my Jupiter, north node, and Sun in his 7th.

Pluto in the 1st conjunct our Composite/Davison. Saturn in the 1st. His natal Pluto and Saturn are opposite my natal Sun in synastry. Once we agreed to be together.... he's been projecting both. It's been hard. It's also been increasingly confusing (pesky Neptune square Moon and Mercury).

Do you see anything positive that jumps out at you? He feels like the one. I see it. But free will isn't a joke. The push and pull / on-off energy is consistent

I still hear him in my head.... he's been wondering where I am (but he's not alarmed just yet) which is exactly why I'm choosing "no contact" over trying to have a conversation.

He needs to stop treating me like an object / a possession

To be annoying.... I track my Lunar Returns / Lunar Opposition Return charts. This is the calm before the storm apparently.

posted July 07, 2019 04:40 PM            

the juno/Jupiter conjunction opposed to moon/mars on the MC/IC axis shows strong feeling of commitment to a serious relationship. I would have thought you might have talked about marriage or thought about an engagement.

the venus/mars midpoint is opposed to Saturn. this can show a devotion but it can also show difficulties with sharing one's inner feelings.

pluto on the ascendant is symbolic of his control issues. a song pluto in a composite is often trouble because it shows the individuals will have a difficult ie compromising and hence a serious relationship is very difficult.

a interesting aspect is the vertex conjunct to the node. this doesn't always make the relationship more stable but it does show that in the beginning you felt a other worldly feeling from him. this can give a very strong psychic connection but often confusing feelings and experiences cloud the meaning of the "psychic" connection.

initially this can make you feel he is a soul mate because you both have had such strange realities come around you.
this can be distracting after time because the intimacy that a soul mate feeling engenders, usually, does not add to the strength of the relationship.

the moon/Saturn midpoint is opposed to mercury and square to Neptune, so this pattern would show the uncertainty about his words and action.it show can deception and insincerity.

except for the initial other worldly feelings and the very strong commitment/marriage vibration, the chart as a whole is a bit scattered

there is a finger of god with moon inconjunct to venus and venus. this can show a very sensitive and affectionate ambience, but the finger of god is noted fro unexpected changes. Here I would think that after feeling strongly attracted in the beginning, now he has betrayed your emotional trust and might have become very critical all the time.

todd

posted July 07, 2019 06:14 PM            

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Originally posted by todd:
hi Hetshepsit

the juno/Jupiter conjunction opposed to moon/mars on the MC/IC axis shows strong feeling of commitment to a serious relationship. I would have thought you might have talked about marriage or thought about an engagement.

the venus/mars midpoint is opposed to Saturn. this can show a devotion but it can also show difficulties with sharing one's inner feelings.

pluto on the ascendant is symbolic of his control issues. a song pluto in a composite is often trouble because it shows the individuals will have a difficult ie compromising and hence a serious relationship is very difficult.

a interesting aspect is the vertex conjunct to the node. this doesn't always make the relationship more stable but it does show that in the beginning you felt a other worldly feeling from him. this can give a very strong psychic connection but often confusing feelings and experiences cloud the meaning of the "psychic" connection.

initially this can make you feel he is a soul mate because you both have had such strange realities come around you.
this can be distracting after time because the intimacy that a soul mate feeling engenders, usually, does not add to the strength of the relationship.

the moon/Saturn midpoint is opposed to mercury and square to Neptune, so this pattern would show the uncertainty about his words and action.it show can deception and insincerity.

except for the initial other worldly feelings and the very strong commitment/marriage vibration, the chart as a whole is a bit scattered

there is a finger of god with moon inconjunct to venus and venus. this can show a very sensitive and affectionate ambience, but the finger of god is noted fro unexpected changes. Here I would think that after feeling strongly attracted in the beginning, now he has betrayed your emotional trust and might have become very critical all the time.

todd

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Thank you, Todd --

The interesting thing is nature vs nurture.

He is terrified of marriage! He's the youngest of five - his mother and father divorced when he was four. Tore the family a part. He was raised by his mother - he was forced to grow up quickly... so NOW he's a bit of a Peter Pan.

He's rebellious yet stable. And a "controlled" Neptunian.

You are absolutely right about him being critical - it's not often, but it has happened. He's passive aggressive about it (Libra Mars). But lately he's become more elusive / distant and he white-lies about plans to reschedule plans with me.... it's not fair. Makes me assume = he doesn't care about me.

So, I'm stepping away. Neptune has clouded my judgement - and I failed to discuss clear boundaries with him early on (I'm too nice.... to Librian with him). I didn't think I needed to say anything.

He has deceived me emotionally. He's repeatedly asked me to be open and never close myself off to him emotionally... yet he creates emotional distance with me. It's mean and confusing.

If anything, I think I challenge his ideas of commitment/ marriage. It scares him. I make him feel (he claims he's a robot - Gemini Moon / Pisces Venus). Which kicks his "Airy" tendencies into overdrive as a defense mechanism.... the power plays are the result of his internal battle.

His Moon opposes Uranus. He loves to miss me / earn my attention. When I give him too much attention, he becomes listless. My moon squares Uranus. When I sense he's resisting - I drop it and walk away.

The cycle then re-starts.

On/Off. See-Saw. He likes the chaos. He controls the chaos.

I have no clue if we'll get through this rough patch - but we are desperate for a compromise if we want to "grow" as a couple.

I do think it's possible to compromise.... It's simple. Do we want each other? Do we want to be committed and date?

All or nothing.

Just in FYI - transit North Node crossed over my natal Cancer Vertex in 8th. My progressed Moon is now in Sagittarius (it was a godsend, until Jupiter went into Retrograde... now it feels like a curse) but the vibe has been incredibly Scorpionic since the Nodes activated my vertex. Been feeling exactly like I did when my Progressed Moon was in Scorpio. Deep anger. Restless. Wanting depth and vulnerability. The fairytale is dead.

I am willing to put the real work in and dive in deep. But he has to want it too.

His Progressed Moon is in late Libra.... a few months away from changing into Scorpio...

I was wondering if he was honestly committed to me...