posted July 13, 2019 08:32 AM            

Sun is opposite mars which I never like to see. Shows conflict, competitiveness and irritation. Lack of harmony/power struggles.

posted July 13, 2019 02:15 PM            

this composite shows a rather painful emotional dynamic.
on one hand the sun/venus midpoint conjunct to Uranus shows a intense ,electric ,emotional , sexual and psychic attraction. Uranus can how that you have dreams of each other and might even communicate through dreams. this shows a sudden and immediate attraction.

but the moon is square to Saturn and pluto which is just bout the exact opposite. this shows a deep despondency caused by cold and distant emotional responses after very strong feelings of attraction and love. this composite is bipolar,that is you are either over you head in love or depressed and despondent because of a lack of love. very often one of the partners has the upper hand emotionally and makes the other partner "jump through hoops" to keep first partner interested.
this composite shows such emotional extremes that a normal or committed relationship is impossible. the relationship is either heaven or hell... there is not middle ground. there are no stable feelings. everything is on the extremes and no serious relationship can build from this type of bipolar conditioning.

with the mars/chiron midpoint opposed to the sun,he is always criticizing you. his purpose is to mold your behavior so he can control you. this is not love ,it is manipulation.

in addition the Uranus/Jupiter midpoint is conjunct the sun to, so if this is some sort of relationship, he uses the threat of breaking up to make you act as he wants you to act. but in the end he will never commit and he will ultimately break it off when he tires of playing with your mind and love.

the venus/mars midpoint is square to Uranus which accentuated the sexual/emotional attraction but also marks the relationship impossibility unstable. unfortunately, though he may profess love for you, he is only interested sexually and as I said controlling you. as soon as you start acting the way he wants you to act,he will change his mind and what you to be different.
this is in the end extremely emotionally destructive because he is demeaning the nature of love and you might find it difficult to trust any one after this is relationship is over.

posted July 14, 2019 03:55 PM            

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Originally posted by luna_s0l:
Thank you both for taking time to look at it. It has been 3 years since I’ve met him he was already in a relationship at the time now married.. the attraction was ever present and it led to us spending two nights together on two separate occasions.. I needed some clarification as my rose coloured glasses had me looking at the yods thinking it was fated and more to it than just a sexual attraction..
Todd would you care to take a look at my natal chart as I have moon rahu asc conjunction?
Thank you again for your time

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posted July 15, 2019 04:25 PM            

you natal chart,as the composite, has aspects of great awareness and aspects that are rather despondent.

the node on the ascendant is one of the strongest aspects of psychic abilities.it also gives intelligence and usually a clear perspective of the world.but orcus is conjunct the ascendant/node with shows you also have unconscious mental dynamics affecting you.
in addition your moon is conjunct to nessus and the node which also gives emotional issues that may be repressed or blocked. but I will get back to these aspects after first continuing with your psychic aspects.

you have your sun sextile to Uranus and these form trine/sextile to the node. this pattern is extremely creative,aware and gives access to the astral plane.this pattern increases psychic abilities and gives you prophetic dreams. you can have vivid/flying dreams. you dreams can give you insights that transcend time and space.

with this pattern one would expect you to be able to see the truth in relationships, but the emotional aspects surrounding the node/moon/orcus/nessus can be very destructive.
these symbols are often associated with abusive experiences in childhood.though you moon gives you very strong intuitions, Nessus and orcus can repress you memories of painful childhood experiences.
the moon position suggest that you mother was not a open emotional person. this dose not preclude a strong co0nnection with your mother,but it does indicate that she did not clarify any emotional turbulence you had as a child. this tends to show her as selfish, though protective. these characteristics are part of you and give you a unconscious selfish side to your personality. You likley also have difficulty expressing your inner feelings.

so you have a built in paradox.
the node/sun/Uranus patterns is extremely clear and far sighted but these abilities are tempered or blocked because of your abusive childhood experiences.

you have juno conjunct to juno which shows that you deeply want a committed relationship/marriage. in the composite Jupiter is opposed to your Lilith/juno which might be why you felt the hookup was something greater than a simple sexual liaison.
I think the insecurities exemplified by the moon/nessus/orcus pattern clouded you vision of what was really before you.

in addition you are extremely passionate. your mars is square to juno and venus. this tends to show that sexual relationships for you are a part of committed feelings.
this is intensified as the mars/venus midpoint is conjunct to ceres and the sun.this again shows that sexuality and commitment are intertwined in you personality. you also have a eros/psyche square which again characterizes you as romantic and idealistic in relationships.
in addition eris is at midheaven opposed to Jupiter on the nadir, which again is extremely sexual and ambitious.so you inherently strive for a committed relationship and don't look for "stop" signs.

the sun/Uranus midpoint is conjunct to mercury which again sharpens your psychic abilities but mercury is also square to the moo/nessus conjunction. This is specifically a aspect of repressed or blocked memories.
what might be happening is ,that if you have blocked abusive memories,then you don't see similar tendencies in the others. so here you thought there was a greater depth to the relationship, but he turned out to be a player because you have repressed the ability to see these motives.

your Pluto/Saturn midpoint is conjunct to Jupiter and opposed to eris which can be abusive aspect relating to your father.it might be his influence in your emotional development has given you a emotional block about the nature of some men.your satrun/chiron and Saturn/eros midpoints are conjunct you node also. this indicates that your father was extremely abusive and it might be that your repression his actions that have caused you lack of insight.

I have to emphasize that you have very strong mental/psychic/astral abilities, so it would have taken very destructive abusive actions on your father part to block you self understanding of his destructive nature.