posted September 24, 2019 04:25 PM            

Well based on the composite I can see why you're really taken with this connection. It is beautiful. The Sun/Venus/Mercury conjunction cannot be overstated enough re: how wonderful and supported you feel in this dynamic. It is joy embodied. Better yet, it's supported by the composite Pluto, so this is a mutually transformative relationship. It's also supported by Neptune, which could be why there is so much flowing, esoteric language in your post about her. The Mars opposition could certainly bring a lot of erotic heat as well.

Uranus will be opposite the composite Moon/Pluto conjunction for a while.. so I feel like I understand why this connection has had such an impact, and why it arrived as such a timely moment in your life.

It's interesting because as I was reading your post I thought "I bet this is an age gap relationship" and lo and behold, it is!

Are you sure of her birthtime? As she can either be a Scorpio or a Sagittarius Moon depending on this. I may not have caught this mention in your post.

It makes sense that you are the Capricorn Sun here as her Neptune is loosely conjunct your sun and your post is rife with projections towards her, her inner life, her romantic choices, and her spiritual destiny that you yourself are narrating in a rather elaborate and presumptive way

Your Neptune conjunct her Jupiter is an interesting aspect, as it seems that you both benefit from this spiritual connection. It seems that your North Nodes are sextile? If yours is at 0 degrees Virgo. So you are both on similar/complementary paths.

Your Saturns are opposite though, and your Jupiters are square. So you both may not necessarily align when it comes to personal philosophies, how you go about your general responsibilities, your careers may be different.. it can be hard to reconcile these things.

There is a t-square in the synastry with your Neptune at the apex, also involving your Mars and her Venus/Saturn conjunction.

I would say that it is very easy to idealize her since you have Neptune square Mars natally. Here she adds a "completion" with her Venus/Saturn, making her seem like a dreamgirl.

Also your Venus is mostly unaspected in this synastry. She's not really Uranian, and only has Uranus in Aquarius, nor does she have anything in her 11th house. I think your Neptune is just being particularly activated right now, but you may not be seeing her and your actual romantic compatibility with her clearly.

But Uranus rules your DSC, and your natal Uranus is trine her Venus/Saturn, so of course the allure is enduring. Maybe she also has Moon in Scorpio, so she is seemingly a good match. Sort of resonates with what your 7th house needs.

Jupiter is the ruler of your 5th house, and it is also unaspected. She doesn't have anything in Virgo with the exception of her Chiron, which mades a veryyyy wide conjunction with your 5th house ruler.

But your 8th house ruler, Neptune, of course is involved in that murky t-square I mentioned earlier.

So I would really caution you to be mindful of the fact that the outer planet energy of Neptune is really dominant for you in this connection.

Her Sun and Mercury don't really have any major aspects going on in this synastry, with the exception of her Mercury on your South Node. So some kind of ennui would eventually set in for the both of you at some point.

Given the Uranus is currently on your South Node right now, it does seem that this is a fated, karmic connection for you, but as I said earlier try and stay grounded into your physical body and your own energetic field when dealing with such majorly Neptunian synastry, or you could lose yourself in this

Also this:

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Longer story shorter, she eventually messaged [me] back and said do not ever contact [her] again.

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She responded saying she was not interested in the connection and that she had to go her own way.

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After the initial separation, it was revealed to [me] by [my] guidance that she was [my] Twin Soul. [I was not] particularly happy about finding this out, as it made it more painful.

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Because [we] had such a strong and conscious psychic connection, including telepathy, [I] figured that if [I] kept in communication with her that way, that it would be enough. [I] was deeply, deeply wrong about that. She felt bereaved, and in her pain, grief, and anger, shut [me] out.

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Obviously this interpersonal dynamic was meant to come into your life as a lesson. It seems that with her Jupiter on your 8th house ruler Neptune, she was meant to teach you something about your inner life.

Perhaps she did not feel as you really understood her core identity at the end of the day (unaspected Sun) and did not see the point in continuing the connection any longer?

posted September 24, 2019 04:28 PM            

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Originally posted by athenaia:
I see.

Well based on the composite I can see why you're really taken with this connection. It is beautiful. The Sun/Venus/Mercury conjunction cannot be overstated enough re: how wonderful and supported you feel in this dynamic. It is joy embodied. Better yet, it's supported by the composite Pluto, so this is a mutually transformative relationship. It's also supported by Neptune, which could be why there is so much flowing, esoteric language in your post about her. The Mars opposition could certainly bring a lot of erotic heat as well.

Uranus will be opposite the composite Moon/Pluto conjunction for a while.. so I feel like I understand why this connection has had such an impact, and why it arrived as such a timely moment in your life.

It's interesting because as I was reading your post I thought "I bet this is an age gap relationship" and lo and behold, it is!

Are you sure of her birthtime? As she can either be a Scorpio or a Sagittarius Moon depending on this. I may not have caught this mention in your post.

It makes sense that you are the Capricorn Sun here as your Neptune is loosely conjunct it and your post is rife with projections towards her, her inner life, her romantic choices, and her spiritual destiny.

Your Neptune conjunct her Jupiter is an interesting aspect, as it seems that you both benefit from this spiritual connection. It seems that your North Nodes are sextile? If yours is at 0 degrees Virgo. So you are both on similar/complementary paths.

Your Saturns are opposite though, and your Jupiters are square. So you both may not necessarily align when it comes to personal philosophies, how you go about your general responsibilities, your careers may be different.. it can be hard to reconcile these things.

There is a t-square in the synastry with your Neptune at the apex, also involving your Mars and her Venus/Saturn conjunction.

I would say that it is very easy to idealize her since you have Neptune square Mars natally. Here she adds a "completion" with her Venus/Saturn, making her seem like a dreamgirl.

Also your Venus is mostly unaspected in this synastry. She's not really Uranian, and only has Uranus in Aquarius, nor does she have anything in her 11th house. I think your Neptune is just being particularly activated right now, but you may not be seeing her and your actual romantic compatibility with her clearly.

But Uranus rules your DSC, and your natal Uranus is trine her Venus/Saturn, so of course the allure is enduring. Maybe she also has Moon in Scorpio, so she is seemingly a good match. Sort of resonates with what your 7th house needs.

Jupiter is the ruler of your 5th house, and it is also unaspected. She doesn't have anything in Virgo with the exception of her Chiron, which mades a veryyyy wide conjunction with your 5th house ruler.

But your 8th house ruler, Neptune, of course is involved in that murky t-square I mentioned earlier.

So I would really caution you to be mindful of the fact that the outer planet energy of Neptune is really dominant for you in this connection.

Her Sun and Mercury don't really have any major aspects going on in this synastry, with the exception of her Mercury on your South Node. So some kind of ennui would eventually set in for the both of you at some point.

Given the Uranus is currently on your South Node right now, it does seem that this is a fated, karmic connection for you, but as I said earlier try and stay grounded into your physical body and your own energetic field when dealing with such majorly Neptunian synastry, or you could lose yourself in this

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posted September 24, 2019 06:10 PM            

what intrigued me was the transference of psychic energy between you. this is partially clarified as the Neptune/Uranus midpoint is square to the nodal axis. this would explain your meditations affecting her so directly.

on the face of the chart as there is so much attracti0n ,is not clear why the pushing away and separation.

adding some ore symbols,this dynamic is clearer as orcus is square to pluto and the midpoint of this square is conjunct to nessus with nessus square to Saturn.
this is clearly the: "lot of unresolved wounds and uncompleted shadow work particularly in relation to sexuality and romantic relationships."
this implies she was involved with a very abusive relationship, one that might have been emotionally and physically abusive.in fact all the symbols of abuse are in thisi pattern which makes me think her real emotional stasis involved her father. it might be his abusive imprint that makes her inclined to fall in with evil fellows of the same sort.
as you light was shunned I have to assume that these dynamics are deeply repressed and for now inaccessible. so when your light started to affect her,she had to push you away to avoid a deep subconscious pain she has.
this seems coherent as the moon/mercury midpoint is conjunct the Uranus/Neptune midpoint and square the node. so what you assumes was just normal affectiojnate supportive mental/emotional concern was pushing on her point of repression. so the more you sent love the more she had to push you away for self personality coherence/survival.

I also notice that the moon is septile to Saturn and the midpoint is square to the ascendant. so you sense of higher meaning or destiny is well founded.

eris is square to chiron and the midpoint is square to mars which implies the sexual aura of the relationship threatened her as I have to assume that sexual abuse was a major factor in her repressed experiences... so this would indicate she had to move away when the energies she felt physical instead of spiritual.

I think though you channeled higher tantric energies toward her, you did not realize how much her desire body enchants you. this unconscious attraction set off her unconscious flight cascade.

eris is at 16 aries 1 and chiron is at 15cancer 1. the transiting node went across this square

posted September 24, 2019 06:31 PM            

I had this really strong connection to someone, and even though it wasn't just on my end, it didn't go anywhere, and I don't think it was supposed to. I don't know - I look back, and I wonder what got into me, because we are so different. I still have stupidly strong feelings for him (we reconnected earlier in the year), but my head is taking the lead this time. He thought I might be "the one" and I panicked. I'm an Aries, but I'm not that impulsive when it comes to relationships - Taurus has me beaten there, at least with the men I've known well. I also don't like feeling pressured, or people making assumptions about me, so athenaia is right there.

posted September 24, 2019 07:56 PM            

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I'm sorry, that kind of feeling/relationship that ends up going nowhere (for whatever reason) can really mess with you.

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posted September 24, 2019 11:48 PM            

I will say that is one of the most beautiful composites I've ever seen, with nary a harsh aspect.