posted October 02, 2019 06:47 PM            

It would be great if you can give some insights about this, and when will this “state” end, if we can keep things professional.

Since a week ago, I began to feel something I never experienced before. I began to feel a certain attraction/obsession (rather more physical?) towards a superior and yet I want to avoid it.
I took a look at the composite and transits and it seems NN transiting is forming an applying aspect to Sun square Eris/Eros and Psyche midpoint and Lust.

I started to think about him and fantasize often, but hopefully this is just one-sided and temporary and I want to maintain a professional relationship only.

Do you think we can keep things professional and this is just a temporary “state”? Will he notice anything as long as I keep everything professional? How long can this last?

Thank you!

The composite (his birth time is unknown): https://ibb.co/Mph8KHg
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posted October 03, 2019 05:14 PM            

I agree with some of your insights. eris is at 14aries20, lust is at 13libra45 and the sun is at 12cap41. the node will squared eris on sept 8, squared to lust on sept 30 and the south node will be conjunct the sun on oct 12th. you are feeling these transits as lust and eris are very sexual and wanton, so you seem to understand yourself and know these are just sexual impulses. but ceres is conjunct to eris and juno is conjunct to neatened so you do have,maybe, unconscious feeling for him of a deeper nature.
I would think that your feelings will get stronger as the south nod conjuncts the sun, but the node is traveling very fast so these feeling will be over by sept 20.

he is also probably feeling thee impulses but it not acting on them either. as this is a workplace environment as and as these feelings will pass, I don't think there is any danger as long as you don't act on these feelings. as I said eris and lust are very superficial and only sexually oriented, so chancing a brief affair when the impulses are no lasting would be unwise.

posted October 06, 2019 03:57 PM            

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Originally posted by AriesLilith:
Thank you again todd for your insights! This is just crazy, I never felt such way and it’s been hard to deal with it. It really took me by surprise, but knowing it will pass makes me feel better.

When you mentioned about unconscious feelings of a deeper nature, do you mean romantic or it can be something else? Is this one way, how does he feel about me as well (not necessarily romantic)?
I do find him interesting intellectually, maybe some admiration, and I wonder if he would feel similarly.

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do you mean romantic or it can be something else? Is this one way, how does he feel about me as well (not necessarily romantic)?

as I have mentioned, he will feel these energies also but as eris and lust are quite superficially, he is not acting on them as he probably realizes this.
he might be more responsive to you as the sept of 20 approaches, but it seems to me you have a miss guided hope that this will turn into something more than it is now.
I suggest you stop obsessing about him and keep your mind on your job while you have it.
todd

posted October 26, 2019 03:45 AM            

I don’t know about you but I’ve found that when I obsess over someone im not romantically involved with it sometimes is because my mind is looking for a distraction instead of healing the wounds it needs to.

Obviously I don’t mean to pry but it could be that?

It’s very hard when he is your boss though and you see him all the time.

posted October 26, 2019 07:00 AM            

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Originally posted by roseblue:
How are you feeling about the situation now?

I don’t know about you but I’ve found that when I obsess over someone im not romantically involved with it sometimes is because my mind is looking for a distraction instead of healing the wounds it needs to.

Obviously I don’t mean to pry but it could be that?

It’s very hard when he is your boss though and you see him all the time.

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Hi roseblue, I’m feeling much less intensity now, and am able to think clearly again. It seems the “state” was brief but finally passed.

I’ve asked my therapist about my state as this is the first time I’ve felt such intense, almost permanent libido. Initially I thought it was related to the meds I’m taking (rare side effect includes higher libido lol), but my therapist said it had to do with my repressed stuffs including sexuality being opened up and now it comes up intensely at first.
It is also as you said, looking for distraction. I’m finding out more about myself, that I want to live life with more intensity. The fantasies about someone else are the result of this, of wanting to live and experience more intensity and it just happened to be this person. I don’t really know him, it’s not more than fantasizing and superficial sexual attraction that has now calmed down.

Now I’m also feeling that I want to explore my own femininity, besides my sexuality and recovering the real me (who I forgot, that more intense side of me).