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Topic: Synastry and composite- different kind of anxiety this time around
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Pluviophile123
Newflake Posts: 6
From: Texas
Registered: Sep 2018
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posted January 05, 2020 11:14 PM
  
Hello knowflakes, I’m a new member but very long time lurker! (3 years or so now). I’ve learned what I do know and understand about astrology to this site and all your helpful experience and interpretations; with that said, coming here for relationship “insight” was a no brainer! As the title states, I’ve always been anxious in relationships, whether that’s due to astrological placements or upbringing, probably a combo of both. I’m posting the charts of a semi-new relationship (5 months in) that has caught me completely (mostly) off guard and inducing different feelings of anxiety than previous relationships before.He liked me on a dating app, I messaged him shortly after, and since then the rest has been history. Truthfully, the first few days, or week or so, I didn’t think we’d talk much longer just because my interest in him was just kinda waxing and waning, but that changed shortly afterward once we finally met and went on a date. We both had a great time on our date and even went back to my place and “did the deed” to seal off the night >.< and literally since then we’ve been as inseparable as we possibly can be. I say that because not only do I have a four year old daughter that I have a lot of the time and is still very much clingy to her mommy, but he also lives a good hour and fifteen minutes away. Not terribly far by any means, but also not close enough to just go and hang out with without making a day of it. (I’m fairly certain these might be our Saturn-related delays). Anyway, the anxiety I’m feeling isn’t because he’s hot and cold, in and then out, etc., etc. Its because he is so steadfast and in my opinion trustworthy. I’m not used to this in a boyfriend honestly. If I ever lost what we have at this point I don’t know what I’d do ;’(((( That’s a gist of all the conflicting stuff going on inside me. With my near-moderate knowledge of reading charts I’ve also been able to pinpoint specific aspects and apply those to situations in our relationship, however, I’m more interested in painting the big picture. Like what exactly have we come together for and is this relationship actually healthy and beneficial for me (and him) in the long run, because truthfully it currently hurts like hell more days than I’d care for it to  I hope I didn’t ramble too much and in advance I appreciate any insight I may hopefully receive.
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Pluviophile123
Newflake Posts: 6
From: Texas
Registered: Sep 2018
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posted January 05, 2020 11:29 PM
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 121373
From: From a galaxy, far, far away...
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 09, 2020 02:23 PM
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Hikaru29
Knowflake Posts: 2380
From: Asia
Registered: Nov 2018
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posted January 10, 2020 02:00 AM
Why are you having anxiety about this relationship, again? You have a lot of squares in your Composite which shows a lot of challenges. The Composite Sun, which signifies the relationship itself, is also only receiving a square from Uranus. IP: Logged |
Pluviophile123
Newflake Posts: 6
From: Texas
Registered: Sep 2018
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posted January 11, 2020 10:47 PM
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Originally posted by Randall:
Welcome! You have to remove the "s" after http.
Oh my gosh, I don’t know why but I am just not getting it!! 😩 and thank you!
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Pluviophile123
Newflake Posts: 6
From: Texas
Registered: Sep 2018
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posted January 11, 2020 10:55 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Hikaru29:
Why are you having anxiety about this relationship, again? You have a lot of squares in your Composite which shows a lot of challenges. The Composite Sun, which signifies the relationship itself, is also only receiving a square from Uranus.
The anxiety I believe comes from the fact that this is the closest I’ve felt to “forever” with someone and despite how I once thought I would act/feel when I found my forever person, it has me scared s***less! One reason is because forever is a long time obviously lol. The second reason being that I’ve become so dependent on him (despite me knowing damn well better >,< ) that if I were to ever lose his presence in my life I know I would be a mess and that is the absolute last thing my little girl would need 😖 I’m not even sure why the second thought haunts me so frequently. He’s really done or said nothing but the opposite of that and that’s what makes me the most nervous?? Like it’s all too good to be true?? I’m sorry, I know it’s probably hard to really understand what my dilemma here is. I guess ultimately it’s just a case of me and a bunch of conflicting feelings. Does that type of “energy” show in the chart(s)? And yes, I definitely feel the uranian energy in our relationship. Not necessarily the GO AGAINST ALL SOCIETY AND WHAT THEY THINK way, but more so the “we’ve been here, done that, let’s just do it all our own way despite what others say”. But I definitely feel like Uranus has a major part in my relationship anxiety. Thank you for the reply btw 
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