posted July 31, 2020 12:30 AM            

Truth is that we fell for each other through letters, and we haven't met "in real life", but we had regular and video calls, and he said that I meant a lot for him. Anyway, the situation had escalated quickly, but all of a sudden, he just disappeared. Stopped responding 4 days ago. Stopped using social media. I called once or twice these days and sent just one text daily during the last 3 days, I didn't want to be invasive, but I wanted to know if he was allright. He blocked me on Whatsapp today. This has obviously been very hurtful but I realized I had nothing to do with it. I just hope he doesn't end his life.

Everything seemed pretty normal until his disappearance, and the nature of the link made me realize that this situation goes beyond us. He is probably in his own inner world now. I contacted one of his friends, who lives in the same city, to see if he could go and check on him, just to know if everything is ok.

The whole point of the context is to ask anyone, if you could please give me any insight regarding his chart with current transits, to see if there is any "sign" of the situation.
Here's also our composite, I could appreciate any insight regarding it too. I feel very deeply for him. The only time I fell this hard for anybody was the first time I fell in love, 10 years ago.

https://imgur.com/a/0svcEVp

posted July 31, 2020 01:14 AM            

right away, he's having transiting nodes triggering natal Saturn-Uranus/Chiron opposition square MC/IC. This is mainly his natal aspect giving him a very dark and self-damaging depression, and unfortunately the nodes transit seem to be activating this currently... this doesnt necessarily mean that he's being suicidal, but he might certainly having a relapse of his darkest state of mind.
Transiting Neptune is conjunct his North Node and square to his Sun, and transiting Jupiter is trine to the node, so he might not be in control of his state of mind, it seems there's no clear direction in his plans and thoughts, so maybe he's not taking a radical decision at this moment (I wholeheartedly hope so)... Jupiter trine the node might signal a necessary karmic crisis through which gaining awareness. Transiting Venus is conjunct his Sun/Venus (square to the nodes), so I assume that your relationship triggered his deep lack of self-worth in relationship matters (and in general, tr Chiron is also square his ASC/DSC/Npetune), so this is why he might have ghosted you.
Transiting Mercury is trine to north node, so this might help him clear up his mind.
I cant see strong plutonian influences, so maybe (hopefully) he's not getting "at that", but honestly predicting such tragic event is not usually "allowed" (by the stars)....

posted July 31, 2020 05:56 PM            

As usual, thank you so much for your wisdom and insights, regarding the relationship itself and his birth chart and transits.

posted August 02, 2020 12:53 AM            

Thank you once again. Thank you very much, and for asking.

There's not much I can do, though his friend has his address now. I haven't received any news about their encounter, I don't know if it has happened already or not.

I'll wait, which is awful. Hate waiting in these situations. I wouldn't like to give up on him just because he's going through depression. He's an incredible person, but I don't even know what should I do.
Should I just wait until he gives me any sign? This short time that we've known each other, has been more in-depth and more transformative than virtually any other relationship I've had, so I see clearly everything you just said. Particularly one line resonated so clearly, "He maybe doesn't want to involve you in his struggle and feels impossible to share or a sense of rejection as if having a relationship with you means to share what he feels impossible to share (kind of...)."
He indeed told me that talking to me meant taking him "out of his own, inner world" maybe it was too intense, too fast, I don't know. I feel like a fool.

posted August 02, 2020 01:35 AM            

Transiting Venus/Nodes are currently square to Composite Sun and transiting Mercury is conjunct Vesta and trine to Sun... Transiting Chiron and Sun are both sextile to Composite Mars, so this would look like a favourable time for you to support him, even though transiting Mars is square to the Neptune/Lilith opposition (involving the comp. nodes), so I dont think he's going to open up or to be the one to make the first move... this is a dark transit looking like he might put a wall between you two. However, transiting Sun is approaching Composite Chiron opposite Moon/Saturn, so I think that your intervention would be positive, if not bringing solution in the immediate future, it might give him a start of relief.

posted August 20, 2020 03:40 PM            

I am writing just to give a little update. In the end, he's okay. He's alive. He "came back to life" in Twitter.

Around 1 week ago, he unblocked me from Whatsapp. This is all frustrating because he has not communicated with me. I think he may be scared of rejection or who knows what, just avoiding the situation, maybe feeling regretful. He will probably contact me eventually, given the signs. Or he may not. All I know is that my intuition tells me all of this was real, and somehow I feel that we care for each other, even if we're not talking now. But no idea, I'm not inside his (clustered) head.

I just wrote to update as I said I would do. I am happy he's alive though. Very happy for that.