posted May 17, 2022 02:26 PM            

69 also looks like the symbol for the Sign of Cancer some. With the combo of 6 and Cancer, could symbolize that something important in latter June may happen (i.e. the 6th month, but in the Sign of Cancer)?

posted May 17, 2022 11:17 PM            

I've seen you mention on other threads that you have a pretty low drive in that area. Men tend to be more active with a higher drive, and more attached to that area, especially as compared to a low drive female (not always, but speaking on average).

Is it possible that guidance is saying that sexual energy, or the lack thereof, had something to do with the break up? That maybe he wanted/needed more sex and felt sexually frustrated?

posted May 20, 2022 12:08 PM            

The thing is that with him my drive was quite high, actually to my claims of being on the asexual side he laughed and said I was in the top 3 of his most sexual partners. He said it was one of a kind chemistry for him, he only experienced something similar once before in some brief encounter, and he had a lot of flings.

Yeah the chemistry was nothing to complain about, already at the level of kisses and touches, not just for me but for him as well, that's actually the reason I suspect some Twin Flameness or something of the kind since it was on energy level. I even told him that even if he were completely impotent we would have had perfect sex anyway.

And the weirdest thing happened when we got intimate for the first time. A song was playing out of loudspeakers but some technical glitch happened and an extract from some Quran-related spiritual text started playing on top of it. The guy is like anti-religious so this is the last thing that could start playing in his playlist. He had to stop to turn it off LOL. And the technical glitch was just too weird, it was playing on top of the song and exactly at that moment.

My Isis-Osiris conjunction is conjunct his Moon, Isis and loosely Osiris. We also have Moon-Vesta double-whammy. My Asc loosely on his Pluto, my Lilith tightly on his Dsc. I guess these correspond to the chemistry.

Do you think the chemistry would make a man want to get back? He surrendered to fears and to logical thinking. The chemistry was there and he said he had feelings and that it was his most significant relationship that he enjoyed more than other previous ones. It's not like he broke up cleanly, he was saying first that he didn't want to break up but then he mentioned the age difference and it spiralled downwards with my offences and insecurities.

I am trying hard not to reach out.

posted May 20, 2022 02:33 PM            

But actually, it makes sense. I think women, generally speaking (especially as compared to men), tend to need more of an emotional, energetic, and/or spiritual connection with a partner before they can get very revved up and turned on. It is often more about the intimacy, but then gets translated to the sexual/physical part. This is especially often true of women with strong Scorpio, Capricorn, Pisces, and/or Aquarius in their charts.

In some ways, I'm actually closer to a woman in that area than a man, especially now that my testosterone levels are lowering. But generally, it is more the intimacy/merging than the actual sex itself, that I crave. But the sex/physical part of it comes along for the ride (puns intended).

With that said, I've also met women that were just as "horny" as guys, and didn't particularly need or even care for deeper emotional intimacy, etc.

To answer your question(s) about chemistry etc. I think it really depends on the individual guy in question. There seems to be deeper issues here for him, so that can override the intense chemistry, attraction, etc.

Do you remember that woman I've talked about and our chart comparison at all? That's a good example. Crazy, off the charts level of sexual/chemistry type attraction indicators (mutual Mars Asc conjunctions [where Mars rules her 8th, Sun, and co-rules her Moon], two Venus Mars oppositions, her Venus in my 8th, the ruler of my 5th and co-ruler of my 8th very closely conjunct her Asc, etc) but fears, belief systems, career goals/ambitions, etc got in the way.

posted May 21, 2022 06:47 PM            

Are you in touch with her now? Do you have some numbers and synchronicities in regards with her?

posted May 30, 2022 03:20 PM            

No, we are not in touch now and haven't been on speaking terms for nearly 2.5 years. Yes, there were some numbers and sychronicities. After she initially cut me off and ghosted me for 7 months, I knew very strongly that she would try to reconnect with me because of dreams and synchronicities. After she did, it was then me who cut her off, and I did so because at the time I felt like I was being used and wasn't cared about.

Now I am at the point of trying not to care anymore what happens or doesn't happen. I'm just back to using the hypnosis again (but somewhat modified from what I shared here earlier) to erase her from my memory and heart. It takes awhile to start to kick in.

My twin soul partner and I never were really separated though we had some fights and said things like, "I'm leaving" and the like. For awhile, I thought my partner and the above woman were from the same Expanded self. Now, am not so sure, and more over, don't want to care or think about it anymore. Whatever the case, she clearly doesn't care about me and never really did. And yet, it was I, and the month of meditation and sending her love and healing energy every day, that catalyzed some major changes and opening in her heart (she asked for my help in healing her. Told her true healing came from her connection to Source and Love, but that I would try to help facilitate some changes as well).

"No good deed goes unpunished" is what I have learned from the experience.