posted June 14, 2023 05:42 PM            

We're from different countries, and we met each other almost 4 years ago... We were friends for 1.5 years, then she retreated from social media because she was affected by something very important I cannot mention, but it's impacting her now and will impact her in the years to come.

Then she contacted me in July 2022, because she remembered me when her then partner mentioned they were from the same country as me. I replied back in October, since I was busy with my college admission.

However, something weird happened. For a while, before she initially departed, she had a crush on me, but I never felt the need to reciprocate back then, because I felt like neither of us were ready for a relationship, but were kind of attracted to each other.

Now, after we reconnected, I feel numb, and I have no idea why, but I've developed a new type of love for her, and I'm not sure how authentic it is. I mean, I'm currently oscillating emotionally between this numbness, the love I previously had for her( which is undoubtedly what you'd name as "love"), and the love I have for her now. I feel almost like grieving. And things she said to me were hurting really bad.

"I used to have a crush on you, but now I have my partner". I snapped after that( which I never did before towards her), called me "entitled" and told me "to scale back", as well as telling me she loved me platonically. That was when she was in the relationship with the partner I've mentioned previously.

She eventually broke up with them, but still tells me she loves me platonically. She did some other stuff that makes me believe I bore her( examples: she went to do her skincare or told me a friend messaged her, while she was having a conversation with me!), and possibly additionally resenting me for having romantic feelings for her. I compare with how she used to be all the time.

Can you give me some help with the synastry and the composite, and possibly figure out what's going on?

https://imgur.com/a/SzaxEZA

Synastry is at the end, composites are the first two, and Davisons are the rest.

I don't like the oppositions in the synastry(especially Mercury opposite Mars, and apparently the composites + Davison show a kite and a T-square...

posted June 15, 2023 10:07 AM            

That's very possible... But she seems to get over crushes pretty fast.

Although she's developed a liking for boundaries between friends and lovers, as well as another type of boundary I cannot mention, but it's pretty important to the story.

She liked to tell people online that she is in a relationship, that only her partner could call her a "good girl", and when some other friends were joking with her "but I'm not single(with cute emojis)..." When she reconnected, she specifically said that I was the first true friend she's ever had, and that I showed her what friendship really is.

posted June 16, 2023 07:46 AM            

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Originally posted by Panther_Order:
@LilyIris07

That's very possible... But she seems to get over crushes pretty fast.

Although she's developed a liking for boundaries between friends and lovers, as well as another type of boundary I cannot mention, but it's pretty important to the story.

She liked to tell people online that she is in a relationship, that only her partner could call her a "good girl", and when some other friends were joking with her "but I'm not single(with cute emojis)..." When she reconnected, she specifically said that I was the first true friend she's ever had, and that I showed her what friendship really is.

It's like she loves keeping me at arm's length and gatekeeping me in general. But why?

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posted June 18, 2023 06:15 PM            

If you are the Cancer Moon, Aqua Venus, then your Venus is conjunct her Neptune, which could show that you might idealize her a bit too much which is why she asked you to "scale back", that you may not be seeing her clearly and it makes her uncomfortable to be put on a pedestal.

Though I have no idea who is actually who in the synastry.

In the composite, c.Mars in Scorpio is opposite the Moon/Venus conjunction, which shows.... a lot of hurtfulness, and as was pointed out, it's a t-square with Uranus/Jupiter, causing a lot of emotional turmoil, big emotions to boil over, and general instability.

Neptune is square the NN in the composite, so the foundation of this friendship/romance is just not what it seems, you could not be perceiving your dynamic with her accurately (or neither could she, but it seems with the Moon so stressed out in the natal chart, it will be hard for both of you to agree on this).

posted June 18, 2023 11:51 PM            

Yes, I'm the Cancer Moon, Aqua Venus. She is the Pisces Moon.

I see... It's a shame that composite Mars is so problematic... alongside Uranus, Neptune and Jupiter.

Yeah, from what I've seen in our interactions, and from what a tarot reading told me, she does to have volatile, vague, unpredictable emotions, even to herself.

Interestingly, the Neptune square NN has been brought up during a few tarot and horary readings, and I feel like it might be true.

It's terrible that we've reached this point, with a possible state of conflict.