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Topic: Was he interested in me romantically
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stillatlarge
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From: TX
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posted August 25, 2023 05:19 AM
  
This man was very good to me. He had a lot of power at the college I was going to. He intervened for me when I was having memory problems when I was ill and made these two instructors give me passing grades. The thing is, I felt like I could ask him anything and he would give it to me. He seemed protective of me and like he would fight for me like noone I've ever met. He seemed to always have an open door and seemed happy to hear from me. I've never had anyone do for me what he did or seem to have my back like that. I couldn't tell if it was just because he was such a good man and pitied me or something or if it was personal. I tried not to bother him with all my problems (I had a lot) or wear out my welcome but I always got the sense that they was more there as far as his willingness to help me.
I don't know what he felt about my appearance because of my illness. All my life I've been ugly or pretty, nothing in between. People either laughed or fell at my feet since my appearance can change drastically just based on if I wear my hair down or not and I THINK he did see me with my hair down at some point and if so, he may have been attracted to me< IDK.
But I ran into to him one day getting on the elevator in the libray and he was with this woman. I don't know if they just happened to arrive at the same time and walked up together or she was a date, but we were all on the elevator and he acted like he didn't know who I was. I know he has to be careful with students because of his position. Things went on the same between us after this though. I could never figure out if he was repelled by me or it was just professional even though it certainly felt special the way he was so kind and patient. I've looked for a protector my whole life, somebody who would actually do for me. I had a horrible childhood and family and I was going thru a really hard time in so many ways.
I left school and hadn't seen or talked to him since until one night in 16 or 17 when I stopped at Bucee's. We had been in the SHNF and was in no shape to see anybody. It was urgent and I had actually accidently peed on my pants trying to use the bathroom because of the way the seat was made so you can see why I didn't want to see anybody. I hadn't gone to Buccee's but a time or two and I actually thought I wouldn't run into anybody I knew since it was late and I was gonna be in and out.Yeah, I know better now. Anyway, I had went to the restroom, grabbed a sandwich and was going to the counter when I turned to look at my friend and saw him. He had stopped and was staring intently at me, not trying to hide it. His eyes were burning into me. Needless to say, I was MORTIFIED. I pretended with everything in me not to see him and turned around to check out. I got out of there as fast as I could.
I feel terrible because I owed him better than that. Regardless of his feelings, he was one of the best people I've ever known, truly good, caring, and honorable.He does a lot for charity. I was just so embarrassed though. I've never called or written to thank him for everything he did for me and I want to do that now and make sure he knows I wasn't blowing him off or being ungrateful. I was checking some things out on Ancestry the other day and it occurred to me to check his birthday. I was stunned when I did the chart. I don't know his BIRTH TIME but I'm almost positive he was born in Cuba, but there is a slight possibility it could've been Puerto Rico.
Please tell me what he felt about me and how I should approach him. I feel he was dissappointed in my response, like maybe he expected me to be more effusive, but then again, I don't know what the relationship was to him, if anything, and I was always paranoid of looking like I was stalking him if I kept going to him about issues or got any more personal.
I'd just like to know if I need stay subdued or be a little more forward when I contact him or be candid about things and I need to know his feelings to do that. Any insight would be appreciated.
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mee_chryssa
Knowflake Posts: 1136
From: Romania
Registered: Jun 2020
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posted August 25, 2023 06:11 AM
he does have feelings for you….
the reason u are confused about this is because his mars is conjunct ur moon and he hasnt expressed it yet but you feel it and it drives u crazy that he keeps it to himself… your moons are conjunct which shows a deep understanding on emotional level, the thing is that is a mixed energy here with this and your moon square to his Sun… you might not get understood fully by him… plus the suns in square signs makes it difficult.
his Moon is also in a wide opposition to your Sun, depending on his time of birth and where he was born…there is an attachment, just that involves some difficulties also, its a mixed feeling. you are both born with harsh aspect between sun and moon either by degree or whole sign and this is not unusual to experience in ur relationships also IP: Logged |
stillatlarge
Knowflake Posts: 808
From: TX
Registered: Nov 2010
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posted August 26, 2023 06:39 AM
Thank you. I read that you had to have squares or it would stagnate. Are these too much to be over one by the good stuff?
I did find out he's Cuban looking on FB so this is correct except for timeIP: Logged |
mee_chryssa
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From: Romania
Registered: Jun 2020
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posted August 26, 2023 10:17 AM
since he was born with Sun square Moon, it's bound to have these type of interactions, unless he meets someone on his ASC/DC axis, but we don't know what ASC he has. I experienced this too, but it was too much for me. I don't know if this is too much, you have to figure this out on your own. The square between Sun and Moon show some fundamental differences between you two - race, status, belief system, age. It's something very different between the people involved that make the relationship taking more time to develop or not develop at all because there are obvious differences. There is a deep attachment, but it's an attachment based on not knowing, it's exciting, you feel drawn to the person. Maybe even a stubborness to be there even though there are a lot of reasons for not being there. IP: Logged |
Randall
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posted September 07, 2023 04:16 PM
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stillatlarge
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posted September 08, 2023 05:38 AM
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Randall
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posted September 27, 2023 07:28 PM
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Randall
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posted October 13, 2023 09:58 AM
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Randall
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posted October 28, 2023 10:04 AM
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