posted April 10, 2016 08:41 AM            

Just first off, please don’t quote what I write as I’ll eventually be deleting my posts.

My situation has been weighing on my mind for quite a while. I sometimes wonder if I’m ever going to find someone or if I’m destined to be alone. It may sound strange, but for a long time I’ve always had this feeling like I was never going to find someone to spend the rest of my life with (maybe it's just my propensity to think negatively). I have nothing more than a strong desire to be a wife and mum, but I hate the fact that it’s extreeeeeeemely hard for me to develop feelings for someone. It’s come to the point where I’ve become rather frustrated and wish I could fall for guys as easily as my friends do. I was talking to a friend the other day about my frustrations, and she said “Try to give people a go, even if they fail like two important tests. Pick one you are attracted to” and when I said “That’s the thing though, I’m not even attracted to anyone” she was surprised and said “Now that’s interesting”. It’s hard for me to like someone, but the very few times I’ve fallen for a guy I was very tolerant and loyal to a fault (to my own detriment unfortunately). Oh god if I could even have the slightest feelings for someone I’d cheer and give it a chance, but I don’t even half THAT. Quite frankly, I miss the feeling of getting excited seeing my crush/love walk through the door.

I know my Venus in Virgo makes it hard, but something tells me there’s something else going on here, but I’m not good at reading charts, so I was wondering if someone could analyse my chart and tell me what the heck is going on. Before I post one up, is there anyone who can tell me if there are particular asteroids that I should add? And also am I to add a transit/progressed chart? And if so, which one do I pick on astrodienst?