posted February 05, 2021 04:02 PM
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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
He’s Mars in Venus domicile so the straight answer is ‘yes’.
He’s in your 12H so he could be hiding his feelings.Your Scorpio Moon in his turned 12th shows your hidden complex emotions. you may be showing conflicting feelings to him that’s against how you truly feel inside because Moon is applying an opposition to Mars and square Sun.
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WoW, thanks Hikaru that was amazing.
You could be onto something there!
I think you’ve summarised something I was experiencing with much frustration and couldn’t define.
I am in a situation where he triggers me, macho jokes,
criticism, winding up. I have to be on the defensive to protect my pride and also I feel inferior as he is too indulgent with his child like letting it boss him about which irritates me. He is both a tv addict and community lover . Add the kid in hi that and it leaves no time for us.
At the start he wouldn’t even hug me in front of the child so I had to retract my feelings and change my natural way around them. It went on for so long..
His current actions don’t prove he loves me either (the reason I asked horary) although he says he does and his friends confirm.
I am irritated I live in a synthetic situation but which feels real. A day with the emperor child feels like a whole year in stress and is continuous noise and we have it every other week.
While the horary « yes » answer sounds promising, it is very difficult to live love in the shadows. But apparently he’s happy with that or his hands are tied not wanting to change anything.
Maybe I need to formulate a different question like why is he hiding feelings?
He has done so since we moved in together. Before I «changed» as he is the triggering reason. And I couldn’t integrate because his ex didn’t want it and controlled what she still could.
I’m just living day to day and all my hopes are on my course to keep my options open for jobs that will make me independent.