posted July 07, 2003 02:36 AM         

mostly because I've been worrying about Hunter going to school tomorrow. Tomorrow is his first day of summer school. Different school, different teachers, different students. So I can't let the bus pick him up because when he gets there the teachers won't know who he is. I'll drive him there and home and probably do that for a couple days at least.

I guess I'm paranoid because a few days ago Vin and I both dreamed on the same night that Hunter was kidnapped. I dream that pretty often and it's always disturbing but Vin almost never remembers his dreams and he remembered this one and it was on the same night I had one of mine.

Then... when I was talking to my mom last night and she said she had a weird feeling about his new school. When I told her later about the dreams we had she just got really creeped out.. which creeped me out further.

So I just put Hunter to bed and I can't sleep yet because I'm too busy worrying that someone's going to steal him or do something horrible to him. I even considered forgetting about summer school altogether and just letting him go back to school in September! But I know he loves school and it's 6 weeks of fun stuff for him to do for 2 hours every weekday. I don't want to be a freak over a couple dreams and some questionable feelings... but then I don't want to ignore intuition.

But IS it intuition or just overprotective paranoia?? And if it's just paranoia ... why would everyone be so paranoid? Me, mum, Vincent...

I mean.. I didn't feel this way when he started his other school. I was aprehensive and wanted him to do well and adjust okay but I didn't think someone was going to take him or that I wouldn't see him again.

being a mum is so difficult I'd look to my tarot or crystal ball for some guidance but it's very very difficult for me to read for myself.

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posted July 07, 2003 09:13 AM         

Yet, this is a very difficult decision for you, made all the more difficult because you love your child so much, and you genuinely want only the best.

Hmm, once a mechanic told me that I needed to replace an expensive part on my car ... it simply wasn't working properly. Oh, it was fine now, but it might leave me stranded on the side of the road some day. Unfortunately, he had no way of knowing exactly when. I chose to spend the money on what I believed were more important things at the time, and made sure to only drive the car for short distances. 20 miles tops. If it was a longer trip, I borrowed from a friend.

You can choose similar actions. You're in a situation where your car isn't top notch (dreams, visions and spidey-sense going crazy!), yet you really want to continue driving. I strongly reccomend you ship the little one off to summer shcool ... but don't ignore your gut, either.

Some things to try:
1- Ask the summer counselors what the agneda is for the week. Are they going anywhere special like the town pool? Know where your child will be.
2- Introduce yourself to everyone important. The counselor, the director in charge, the nurse. Have little business cards to hand out w. your critical contact information. And take time to interview. There's nothing wrong in saying you are a concerned parent!
3- Ask if they need any volunteers. This would be an opportunity for you to step in.
4- Talk to your child. The child will think you're showing an interest in all the fun you've had. But you're a master detective, reading between the lines to see if there are any concerns that need addressed!
5- Remember these words. There are a million reasons to not do something, but if something is truly important, we find a way. I think you can find a way to keep your loved ones safe and to give them every opportunity in life as well.

We do it because it simply is the greatest Labor of Love!!

posted July 09, 2003 11:21 AM         

I might add, that perhaps you could get in touch with a specialist in child security -- like Child Find, or another group, or even the police -- and ask them what else you can do. They deal in prevention, too.

I think it's important to pay attention to your, and everyone else's intuition -- especially if you're all feeling it, then something is up -- either in the past, or present -- maybe something once happened at that school.

I really feel for you -- that's a tough situation with a lot of anguish --I send you and your family some Light, kNOWing that you'll find a way to take the information of these intuitions and apply free will to find the best solution for all.

posted July 12, 2003 01:26 PM         

Hunter didn't like the school at ALL and screamed and cried the entire first day, refused to go into the classroom, etc.

posted July 12, 2003 11:47 PM         

Hey, no one needs the kind of dis-stress your family was going through on the intuitive level!!

Yay for Infinite Wisdom.