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Topic: im not bitter, no.
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monad
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posted May 16, 2005 07:08 AM
 
Work + money = Wife. So whats the point? I believe there is a conspiracy to keep lovers apart. Why am I here? Why did I come here? To find happiness in solitude? I wish I had someone that loved Me for Me!
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Saturn's Child
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posted May 16, 2005 11:30 PM
  Hope you feel better soon. IP: Logged |
DayDreamer
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posted May 17, 2005 12:04 AM
Awwwwww monad.Brighten up!! There is so much more to life then a girl!
There's  too ...just kidding!
Just open your eyes and look around you. Smile and be grateful for the land you live on, the air you breath, the sun that shines on you, and the water you need...just a few basics. Pay attention to the smaller things in life for now, and who knows out of somewhere you may find yo biatch! 
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monad
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posted May 17, 2005 05:41 AM
I wish someone could tell me who I am.Although I feel I already know who I am. No more self doubt and cynicism. I need to believe that there is always someone here for Me.
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monad
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posted May 17, 2005 05:44 AM
Labour Of Love? LoLIP: Logged |
pixelpixie
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posted May 17, 2005 09:03 PM
Is this a pity party?
Are you simply telling us the things you believe you aren't, rather than trying to find whys and ways which you ARE?Go for it.
I'll listen... you want to bask in sad for a while?
Go to it.
Then come on back and we'll talk about ways to make you feel that something you need.
I know though... it is something.
but if you didn't realize there was something missing, then you wouldn't know there was a something in the first place...
my point is..
there MUST be a something, or else how would you know you didn't have it right now? That's hope right there.
Maybe you are going about it the wrong way, and that is the Universe's way of telling you to snap out of it and see it from a different perspective.
There is a lot of wisdom in that, in my experience.... IP: Logged |
monad
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posted May 17, 2005 10:50 PM
Paint, paint, paint, AH-HA !IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
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posted May 18, 2005 12:32 AM
Do you paint?IP: Logged |
jwhop
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posted May 18, 2005 12:44 AM
Pixie, if you aren't an original, you'll do until one comes along  DayDreamer, you're right, there are other things in life than a girl..or girls  Kittens, puppies, butterflies and goldfish.  Monad, you can stop attracting negatives into your life any time you chose to do so. Today's a good day because you feel Great. The sun's shining, the sky is blue, the grass is growing, bees are buzzing, birds are singing and flowers are blooming. It's the best of all possible worlds..if you wish it to be so. IP: Logged |
monad
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posted May 18, 2005 01:40 AM
Yes I do paint, and I couldn't think of anything more enjoyable.
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monad
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posted May 18, 2005 02:28 AM
I must realise now, that the only thing separating me from love is illusion.IP: Logged |
monad
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posted May 18, 2005 03:35 AM
I need to be reminded often of how much I am appreciated, otherwise there is a danger of Me assuming I am worthless.How do I break the cycle of singledom? I need to have to be given more, so what is the answer? How can I have when I have not? If people can be nice to me, talk to me and value my opinion, then I will feel loved, and capable of loving someone else. What I need is a pretend girlfriend. IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
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posted May 18, 2005 09:48 AM
Oh, is that all? That is all you need?
You're right.. llusion IS what is separating you from finding YOU.You know something? Life is a great big cycle. EVERYTHING is the way it should be, and if it isn't,(and it really is, on a level maybe we don't understand) you get reminders, and if you realy listen, you may be able to pick and prod until you identify.... You really think a girl, a wife, a soulmate, a golfish? will be what you need?
What will you tell her when she asked who the real you is?
You will say .. "I don't know, it was to find you, so now what?"
She won't have the answers.. she will bring you more questions.
Take it from someone who has loved beyond love and is married ( and you know what? Big whoop-de-doo) I know I can't tell you the way things are for you, but I DO know I feel the lack of things in my own life.. and I know that finding someone feels super great.
To love, to discover, to share, to be intimate, to have someone look at you with eyes you just know are pure and loving.....
It makes you doubt any insecurities that you have always felt.. it is a panacea, it is a great hugging bandage and a healing seal.
BUt C'mon......
I have some bandages from my own medicine cabinet right here, and if I apply them with respect for my nature, I can heal myself.. and then if someone asks me "What do you feel you need?"
I will not say "I need someone to help me, and to love me... to bring out this potential I feel."
Further.. not someone to ACTUALLY love me, but someone I can practice on, to get it right before she comes.... Because what can they do ? Can they show me my own perspective?
Maybe they can help me define what things mean in relation to the world... but you can teach someone understanding.. but not make them feel YOUR understanding. You need to focus on YOU, not some imaginary angel who will come in on a gossamyr cloud and touch you with a blessed wand and love you... if it happens, wow.. neat.. but I don't think it is going to happen exactly this way.
Focus on how you would feel and what you would do once she has blessed your life.....
What are the things that you would do?
Creative visualization, and be that person now.. feel her within. The questions never go away.. not in the face of love or aloneness... ( and by the way, we are always, ALWAYS, loved)
So go do it now, feel it inside and be that person.
Make the illusions work for you. are you just horny?
Jwhop~ Thanks.. I guess you'll do too.
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DayDreamer
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posted May 19, 2005 01:18 AM
some sage advice pixelpixie...and very cute jwhop monad you want me to take a look at your chart??? After all you did help me out before...  IP: Logged |
monad
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posted May 19, 2005 01:35 AM
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monad
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posted May 19, 2005 01:38 AM
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monad
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monad
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monad
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posted May 19, 2005 09:02 AM
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monad
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posted May 19, 2005 09:10 AM
What kind of job would I be suited to
where love for expression of emotion is needed?Cancer sun, Libra moon, Leo Ascendant. IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
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posted May 19, 2005 09:42 AM
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what kind of job woulkd i be suited to where love for expression of emotion is needed?
I should hope ANY job.. every job.
But that's me.....If you can't find the tools to find yourself, you will... just don't say 'can't'.
Haven't yet, it more accurate, and you know what? I'd be surprised if that was an accurate statement.. you probably do have them.
Yes, to see yourself reflected in others' eyes is gratifying.... BUT. half the time, it is a wrong perception.
Most of my poems talk about that.
You evolve along with people and experience.. shed the stuff that brings nothing to you, and blossom from the things that bring hope and understanding.
No one has answers for you.
It has to touch that place inside you where you scream to yourself "YES!!! This is it!!!"
You may find it through others.. but I really do think it is true when it comes from within.
Adapt.
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monad
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posted May 19, 2005 10:38 AM
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cancerrg
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posted May 19, 2005 12:03 PM
How do I prove myself when I dont get a chance, and how do I get a chance when I cant prove myself.
monad: me being a quite materialistic man , the most the practiacl one , why dont u simply start small , i dont now ur true situation but i feel thats the best way to prove yourself in any of the life's situation be it your home , gf , profession anything , i say anything . simply be positive . but thats just my perseption , i hope it helps .
good luck.
ah , and as for friends , i have lot of them , my policy is just be normal , courteous and honest , it works . believe me it works .
The Only thing separating me from love; is illusion
: may be its ur extra expectations too , it happens with me . IP: Logged |
DayDreamer
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posted May 19, 2005 05:22 PM
Hey monad...I'm going to take a quick look at your chart...then I gotta run to my next job...working is not fun!!! Do what you enjoy!!!
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DayDreamer
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posted May 19, 2005 05:31 PM
Shoot...well this is obvious...many things in your chart point to artistic endeavors!!! You already know that. I'll just verify that for you A career in something artistic goes like this...
MC in Taurus ruled by Venus
Venus and Mercury in the 10th True Node in 12th house (ruled by neptune)/cancer... water ~~~~~ emotive And oooooh soo many things happening within the sign of Libra another ruled by Venus...Wow!!
Love??
7th house cusp Aquarius
Juno Capricorn 5th house - sextile Jupiter in Scorpio
Venus Gemini 10th - trine mars in libra/2nd, and opposite uranus/4th When?? Check your transits and progresssion IP: Logged |
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