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weirdnez Knowflake Posts: 27 From: welland, ontario, canada Registered: Jun 2005
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posted June 08, 2005 06:16 PM
Some time ago I went through some life changing things. At that point in time I was planning on going to university or college like most people do when they finish high school. However, I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life. Now, everything is different and I don't want to have any part in this false world. I feel very strongly about the new age way of life and am frequently clouded with anger because I am unsure of what to do next with my life. Because I'm so angry, like I said I'm clouded, I get even more confused. Letting go of the anger is equally hard.I want to find something I'm passionate about, something I'd die without. But I'm a gemini and I find things bore me too easily. Almost like I have no focuse. I read something, BANG! I love it and suck in all the knowledge possible instantly and discard it quickly. I feel very lost right now and I'm looking for career advice. I'm at the point where I'm ready to learn something, anything new age and just go from there but then again I don't want to have to pay lots of money for something and bang! on to the next thing. I work a horrible job right now stocking shelves and it pays very little. More importantly I don't like it. I thought having a job of any kind would help but it's making things worse! Like mercury implies I do love communication. Beyond that, I'm lost. Help! What do I do and how do I learn to stop being so angry at the rest of the world for being so slow (in their transformation)! ------------------ Phoenix IP: Logged |
virgotaurustaurus Knowflake Posts: 2251 From: anywhere but LL Registered: Oct 2004
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posted June 08, 2005 06:42 PM
I wish I had actual advice but I can say you are definitely not alone with the way you feel right now! I waited on college, and have had a bunch of time in the "real world"...and can't stand it, and now I'm all pissy about it. I'm actually going back to college finally in the fall but am still stuck in a real world job and it just makes me not a happy camper. And we sound like we're on the same path jobhunt-wise (hmm..maybe it's partly because we're both ruled by Mercury?). Do you live near a college at all by any chance? That helped me start finding a path to take, I hunted out the career counselor at the community college by me, took a few tests, babbled to him about my interests, started deciding I wanted to work in the rather unpredictable field of animals...haven't even narrowed that down yet! My love of communication led me into radio/tv broadcasting for awhile, not bad! I know a Gemini from that who is loving it now, he found a media job. There's also this book that's helped me a little bit, called What Color Is Your Parachute...kind of have to skip through a lot of chapters to get to the actual career stuff, but I think it has some interesting little ways of looking at potential careers. Well, that's just some ideas, I really wish I could help! I do know what it is like being in an unfulfilling job, not being able to use your passion, and turning that disappointment into yourself. I am right here alongside you! IP: Logged |
weirdnez Knowflake Posts: 27 From: welland, ontario, canada Registered: Jun 2005
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posted June 08, 2005 07:21 PM
GRRR! Now I'm even more angry! I wrote out this whole thing and POOF! it dissapears!!!!!Anyway, it's good to know other people are in my boat too. We should start a website to help other people with this problem. New age aptitude tests, new age college finder. A site that links you to genuine places that love teaching and GET IT. I personally won't be able to go to a standard college. Just being there will make me sick. I have Taurus rising... And I just can't give in, not even that much. I did a retreat in April with David Wolfe and there I learned what I could have in terms of proper human relationships and co-habitation. There's no going back once you get a taste of daily divine. Anyway, I was thinking about reiki or hypnotherapy. Maybe even reserve speech therapy. When I'm calm enough I'll ordain the information to arise to my conscious mind. The only problem is that the anger that gets turned inward just busts your faith and hope and the ordaining is doomed to fail in such case. My compassion is my failure yet in truth it should be my most beneficial accomplishment! Thanks for sharing Virgo and I'll check that stuff out! ------------------ Phoenix IP: Logged |
Philbird Moderator Posts: 3103 From: Here, there and everywhere. Registered: Jun 2004
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posted June 08, 2005 10:47 PM
Try an art college, it's like Candyland!IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 22801 From: Columbus, GA USA Registered: Nov 2000
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posted June 09, 2005 01:12 PM
------------------ "There is no use trying," said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things." "I dare say you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." Lewis Carroll IP: Logged |
thirteen Knowflake Posts: 603 From: Rochester Hills, MI USA Registered: May 2004
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posted June 09, 2005 01:19 PM
i am ruled by merc. too. BOY CAN I RELATE! Sorry, no useful advice here. Your on the right path with all the questions and stuff.IP: Logged |
DayDreamer Knowflake Posts: 1394 From: Registered: Jul 2003
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posted June 09, 2005 03:49 PM
weirdnez, I can relate as well. I've been throwing myself into mundane jobs, but not lasting long in them. Main reason I keep doing this is because I need an income! I'm still trying to find something I really enjoy and am extremely passionate about...but at the same time something thats still provides a good income!How old are you? I've got a friend from Welland, and lots around St. Catherines. IP: Logged |
weirdnez Knowflake Posts: 27 From: welland, ontario, canada Registered: Jun 2005
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posted June 09, 2005 06:39 PM
HEHE!I discovered a solution to my problem! Ok not a solution but a path that will eventually send me to the solution. You see I'm reading a fable called The Alchemist. It's a story about following your dream, not your passion or whatever. So I began thinking. I thought for some time and realized I have no dreams and rather I'm desperately clinging to the present trying to buy more time. This hurt me deeply and I wondered where all my dreams had gone. I remembered that when I was a young child, still am! Ok when I was beginning my quest, I did have dreams and passions and things I loved oh so dearly. But you see when I grew up people told me to doubt them because hundreds of obsticles would almost surely be attracted to me if I even remotely tried. So these people taught me to fear Challenge (The Dragon) because no one had ever won over Challenge. I began to wonder where this "I need a job mentality" had come from. Surely it wasn't MY dream to have a job and just get by. So, I started dreaming and reading books from my childhood. I realized that the answer would be found in my dreams (not nocturnal ones). So all I have to do is let my imagination run wild and dream. Dreams, soul desires don't know the bonds of what we think we need. It is back in the land of the child that One's answer shall always be. Think about all the things you would do if you never had any obligations and do them, no questions asked and no answers desired. I'm 18 btw ------------------ Phoenix IP: Logged |
Philbird Moderator Posts: 3103 From: Here, there and everywhere. Registered: Jun 2004
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posted June 09, 2005 08:09 PM
Did you ever read "Jethro and Joel Were a Troll?" Love that book.IP: Logged |
DayDreamer Knowflake Posts: 1394 From: Registered: Jul 2003
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posted June 10, 2005 01:38 AM
Alchemist is supposed to be a good book. I tried reading in undergrad..around exam time. Never got to finishing it! I'm going to have to buy the book for myself. hhmmm...maybe it might help me out too! quote: Think about all the things you would do if you never had any obligations and do them, no questions asked and no answers desired
That I really would have to work on...wouldn't take it seriously if I did make a list of things that I would love to do. "Jethro and Joel Were a Troll", What's it about? IP: Logged |
Svetlana Knowflake Posts: 254 From: USA Registered: Jul 2005
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posted July 03, 2005 06:36 PM
"They" say there's just 2 truest feelings underneath that all: Love and fear.So I'll go on the limb and say that anger is born out of fear rather than Love. So maybe you could go within and see what you are so afraid of. Maybe that'll help with feeling angry all the time. And if you allow I'll send Light your way to help you deal with this.------------------ You can't lead a cavalry charge if you think you look funny on a horse. J. Peers IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 22801 From: Columbus, GA USA Registered: Nov 2000
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posted July 12, 2005 08:17 AM
------------------ "There is no use trying," said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things." "I dare say you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." Lewis Carroll IP: Logged |
batgirl Knowflake Posts: 323 From: rainsville,AL, north american atlantean nation Registered: Nov 2001
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posted December 03, 2005 04:37 PM
it took me exactly ten years to figure out what i want to do. it might take ten more to get the money to do it.IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 22801 From: Columbus, GA USA Registered: Nov 2000
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posted December 10, 2005 11:45 AM
Welcome to the club. ------------------ "There is no use trying," said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things." "I dare say you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." Lewis Carroll IP: Logged |