posted November 17, 2005 03:26 PM         

Everynight, someone talks down to me, over looks me and or Judges me.

Everynight, I put more than my best effort into something and still manage to get nothing out of it.

Everynight, I feel like i waste my time, and my life. It's only when i come home and see my children that I realize that i really do work for something, even if it drains me to my core, and Even if I hate it sometimes.

I tend to feel useless lately, not as a person, but just un-motivated only because for some reason, everyone understestimates me, and looks over me. It's like something they can't get over about me, or maybe my work ethic.

I work hard every night, I help other employees, I refuse to kiss a**, I know my job just as well as most everyone else, and I've proven that Im an excellent scheduler. I keep telling myself, (for my pride's sake) that they just arn't ready for me to step into a leadership role.

I come home in the morning from a long day of work, and just wonder what more I must do in order to Prove myself, to just push myself over that Hump that they can't seem to look over to see me. I see my wife and Kids, and know that they deserve more from me, than i may possibly be able to give. But even if it kills me I've got to try.

Someday I'll get what i work for, someday ill feel that im really working for something.