posted September 09, 2001 08:40 PM           

you are such a wonderful person , but you have to relise that this life is like a rainbow , it has alot of colours to it , ya know? , the secret is to find the harmonios point where the red of love turn into the darker shade of red of passion and the light of yellow (giving) turns into brown (reciveing) and to simply 'navigate' your light throw it , those colours are the same to the situetions such as this one , i'd say it was hope and love (purple/pink) and turned into a bit of a darker shade of itself , don't let it hurt you sweeti just try to 'go with the flow' and be in harmony within your own choices of how you interpet those colours :P

wow , that was deep , berpppppppppp lol

posted September 09, 2001 11:17 PM           

You're going to find that a lot of things are going to 'bug' you for no reason. Hold on to your hat, gal..
it gets worse before it gets better.
You are releasing lifetimes of negative energy..so of course as it passes away from you, you re-experience it a tad. Now I understand..I see.

Excuse the image here, but it is like when you are de-toxing and up-chuck your ever loving guts. It's much worse coming up than going down...you are de-toxing negative experiences from all your lives. Remember your LEXI..this is the one where you start to put things in order. Your choice.

I went through it, Randall went through it..any one who decided to walk the enlightened path goes through it. So folks...bear with her for a while...just remember how it was with you

Snowpea....I understand and I will be here when you need to '***** ' at someone. And you will. I'll just remind you of the 'up-chuck' image and that should put the de-tox in its place

AND...just imagine how nice it is going to be once you have passed through this stage...

Something interesting I found. Now when I start to get really negative, I find I do one of two things. I either get very sleepy or I get so energized I have to do something extremely physical. Hey...I like the physical as it manifests in a cleaning craze

Snowpea....I you girlfriend.
You hang in there...it took you several lifetimes just to gather the courage to even attempt the BIG DE-TOX so pat yoursELF on the back for doing that much..

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