posted October 31, 2002 11:14 AM         

I'm impressed about something that you said

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"gift" is also a "curse."

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I wrote almost the same sentence,maybe a month ago when I was having a discussion with Ra,about something that he said to me...

By the way,nice to meet you

posted October 31, 2002 12:41 PM         

(it's directly tied to me because she was looking at a photo of me and someone else and suddenly realized that she was reading him!)

posted October 31, 2002 12:58 PM         

Bernadette. When I asked about your sun sign I wanted to know what sign the sun was in when you were born. It was Sagittarius, fun loving, adventerous spirit, optimistic, good sense of humor.

yes, that is definately how I am..most of the time

That would be the least likely sign, in my estimation, to allow a thing like that to cause you such disturbance.

apparently not.

That would be enough to cause you to see your therapist about more things than your marriage. Get a handle on it girl!

Get a handle on it? You don't know me at all, you have no idea what my life has been like nor do you know the things going on in my marriage. I resent this statement because if it were so easy to just get a handle on it, I would have done so years and years ago.

moving on..

You say your mother and grandmother had this ability. Did they also become greatly disburbed by things that they saw?

Yes. Very much so. My mother at least, since she is still living and I can recall incidences with her better than my grandmother.

If you were aware of their "gifts" you must have forsaw that you'd probably be gifted too.

No..I did not. I had no idea really, I thought this was just how I was. I never paid attention to that kind of thing, if it is the norm in your home, how could you notice anything different? And actually, it was just a few months ago, that I told my mother about this, and she confessed to me that she is the same way. I have had suspicions over the past year, but didn't know how to ask her about it..

And you say you think your children have this gift too. How are you able to tell? Are they very young children?

Yes. Because of things they have displayed, seen and things they have said to me about other people. Yes.

Sybil Leek was a well known witch, who says that her powers were also inherited, as well as taught. Sybil was from England. I take it your mother and grandmother are from around the Virginia area.

I have never heard of this witch, and I am not a witch, nor is anyone else in my family. My ancestors on my father's side came from Sandwich, England in the 1600's and settled in the Americas, but other than that bloodline I am not from England, and have never been there.

I'm just being terribly nosy, aren't I?

somewhat, feel like I am on trial, but am certain there is a purpose in this, so will oblige and answer your many questions, so maybe they can be of use in whatever the purpose is.

I've never actually known anyone who was psychic.

I am not psychic. I cannot read the future. I have no ablities to do that.

You say you've only noticed that you've had the gift for only a short time. How short?

Since a dream I had, which I have already mentioned, posted in Ra's forum. About seeing a cross in the sky and the words of God. Please seek it out. It was after this dream that I saw the photograph of Kian and someone else and began to "See" him

I really dislike being so ignorant on this subject, but you say you have a gift of "aura" reading. Do you mean you see auras? The colors surrounding a person? I take it, that is what you mean, and also that you can "read" what the colors mean? Is that it?

No, that is not it. Amber coined that phrase to me "aura" but it is more of seeing a persons personality. I am not involved in colors or anything.

I just hope to learn something of a metaphysical nature here, from a fellow Knowflake.

then you understand my own reason for coming here, enduring here and staying here.

Okay, you say you've been told that you do this well. do you have clients? Do you just do it for friends?

No clients. Friends only. I am not paid for this at all, how could I take money from people for something so simple as telling them what another person's personality is like? Furthermore, how could I take money, when I am not always 100% right, that would be stealing.

Now to satisfy more of my curiosity; you say you read a person that your friend was involved with. Did you see him in person or just a picture of him?

I have seen him in person one time, but it was from a distance. The time I was referring to was in a photograph.

Or can you "distance read" someone without ever having seen them or their picture?

no.

If I'm getting too nosy just tell me and I won't ask any more questions. This is something that I know little about except the psychics I've seen on TV.

again, I am not a psychic. And half of what is on television is baloney. And not Oscar Meyer either.

I do feel badly that you think your "gift" is also a "curse." That has got to be a hard one to deal with. Keep us posted, Bernadette. I'll say prayers for you (if you believe in them).

Thank you, and yes I believe in prayer.

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted October 31, 2002 03:17 PM         

and how I love you Kian...

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted October 31, 2002 08:51 PM         

Since this is a site for sharing and learning, I assumed it be alright for me to ask questions about something I had an interest in..

May I vindicate myself???

Didn't mean to get you rattled by telling you to get a handle on it. I was trying to offer what I thought would be good adivce for a Sagittarian type person, who generally doesn't reach the depths of gloom that say a Capricorn or Scorpio might. I was hoping you might probably say to yourself, "yeah, she's right. I CAN get a handle on this." See? It was meant in a most good natured spirit.

And you're right Bernadette, I have no idea at all what is going on in your life. I didn't assume to. I was merely referring to that particular aspsect of your life that is disturbing you, which you already referred to.

And for goodness sake, I certainly meant no offense by bringing up Sybil Leek. She was a very fameous witch from England who wrote many books (two of which I've read), made many appearances on American TV, and also had columns in several astrology magazines. She was an astrologer too. I was only noting the parallels in your lives- remembering what she said about certain "powers" being handed down in certain families. And being a witch isn't so bad, is it? I thought your two friends, Amber and Snow White were witches. No?

Bernadette, we also both seem to have some misunderstanding about that word "psychic."
You seem to feel that you are not "psychic" because you cannot read the furture, but it's my understanding that "psychic abilities" cover many differne areas, and you're honing it down into just one....seeing into the future. I believe it encompasses a whole lot more than that.

Anyway dear, again let me say I'm sorry you felt you were on trial. I merely was trying to engage in conversation with you because you did, after all, discuss these things on a very public forum.

You hang in there now, and try to use your gift in nothing but positve ways. I belive you possess the power to eliminate the negative. Good luck.

In love and light,
Freedom

posted October 31, 2002 09:14 PM         

Bernadette -- I hope that you can eventually come to terms with this gift/curse of yours. To either be able to control it or somehow make it less upsetting for you. The pain you were in was so obvious - I wish there was some way I could help you ease it.

posted October 31, 2002 09:23 PM         

When I think of you, and the posts you've written, I think of Bernadette, the girl who was gifted with spiritual visions, from the South of France, who was depicted in the old classic film, "Song Of Bernadette" which, by the way, is the area my ancestor's are from.
In fact, not too far away from the grotto where Bernadette actually SAW the Virgin Mary.
I do understand what you go through. I cannot only see certain personality traits in people, I sense their presence around me, smell unexplained scents, hear complete words or sentences when they are not physically present. They can be living or deceased. Typically it's people I know or know OF. The rare one's are from people I know nothing of, but come through occasionally to either give ME a message, or use me to give a message to someone else. It always serves a purpose. It can be difficult when your trying to date or possibly date someone, cause you can see right through to their intentions, which makes for some pretty lonely nights. lol It can come at any time, and most definitely, unexpectedly and knock your socks off! My family had this gift also. After my Mom passed, I used to have nightmares from the stress of her not being present in my life. Every single time I'd awake from them, I would see three or four HUGE Angels standing at my bedside near my closet. It scared me to the point where I'd cover my head with my covers at night because of this gift of sight! Eventually, the Angels would seem to float very gradually into infinity and slowly dissolve into their ascension. Very scary for me at 10 years old.
I saw Jesus standing with his arms outward to me when I was 12 years old. I was watching a comedy show back in junior high school for a class assignment. When the commercial came on, I looked away from the TV for a split second, only to discover him standing several feet away between two chairs in my Living room. I rubbed my eyes, turned away and looked again and he was still there. I froze, looked away again in pure terror, and he finally disappeared. I couldn't sleep for months after that, praying to him not to show up so visually again. I didn't ASK, I BEGGED! I couldn't handle it!
Back to your dilemma, I completely understand.

posted October 31, 2002 09:52 PM         

as for my friends Amber and Kian, they are pagans..witches..er..well..I assume they consider themselves pagans, and I guess witches too...all I know is I love them..no matter what they practice--and I love them for the friends they have been to me, and how I see them in this life, I don't love them out of obligation to my faith, like many people do..I'm not one to say "Oh, I love that woman, because I'm a Christian" ...who passes out those "Love others" cards anyway? Love people for them, don't love someone because something tells you to, is it sincere to love in that fashion? Me? I'm a practicing Christian, I belong to a Southern Baptist church, but for ages have jokingly called myself the "Rebel Baptist" or the James Dean of the Southern Baptist Conventions...due to my want to know about all sorts of religions and faiths...

and I am a friendly person, therefore I have friends from all walks of life...I doubt that there is a patron saint standing at the gates of Heaven, who is going to open the Book of Life one day and say to me, as I stand before him and God, and say "Amanda! Explain your friendships and love and support that you shared with those who were not Baptist's like YOU!" *shakes head* no...I don't believe I will be questioned for that..

Venus! How it saddens me to know that seeing Jesus frightened you!!! Jesus is not a frightening character..He is love. If He appears to you again, ask Him what His intention is..embrace Him for He is love.

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted November 02, 2002 08:07 PM         

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted November 02, 2002 08:18 PM         

-I don't know much, I was just curious! Not very smart of me. Sorry