posted October 27, 2002 09:46 AM         

No, you are definitely not missing anything without a TV.

My PC died a while ago. I would like a Mac just because I hear they're much better for graphics.

Right this second I'm using my mom's computer. I also use the computers at school. As far a software goes..."I'm not stupid, I just choose to be oblivious". I haven't checked it out.

I picked my major because I figured it was a way to get paid to play on the computer. I'm not sure if I have any talent in this area, but I'm creative. I'm always making crazy t-shirts. I think I have more talent with words and writing than drawing. I have to take some drawing classes. Then I'll know for sure. I do clip-art well!

I am already in debt. I don't like it! I lost my job in June. My "boyfriend" of two years moved out in July. (I say it that way because he said he still wanted to be with me and no one else, but he never returned any of my calls, so I figure he doesn't miss me. Maybe it was the condoms I found in his wallet?)(My bad, I shouldn't have done it.)

Well, anyway, to continue with the saga. My car died in August. I started school in September. Lost my apartment a week later. Happens when you can't pay the rent! I made the mistake of moving in with my ex-husband(taurus) for three weeks (long story). I then moved in with my mom October 1st. She's my mom. She's also a capricorn. (So was my first husband) They just think I'm immature and irresponsible. I'm not! I just do things differently than they would.

My first book should be "The Trials and Tragedies of Tammy"

So, now I'm looking for an apartment, and at least a part-time job on top of going to school full-time.

It's good to have something you enjoy doing even if you can't make money off of it yet. I think you will. Have you sent anything out? I'm not sure to where, but there has to be somewhere! Some place like a publisher, but for artwork.

It's like me with my beads and poetry. I know that they are a part of my labor of love. I would do them no matter what. It would be great if I could make money doing them. I have only sold a few pieces of beeding (small wall hanings, necklaces).

What kind of music do you play? I like all kinds. I don't like opera very much.
I used to play the flute. I still have it, just don't take the time I guess. I would like to learn how to play the guitar, because when I write my poetry I usually sing it. I have a small electronic keyboard that I play around with just for fun.

I don't know what my voice sounds like to other people, but to me I sound like I'm twelve. And I don't have any confidence in that area. Although, I have done the dreaded karioke(sp). People usually just tell me to sing louder.

The best place I ever visited? They all have their good points and bad points. but I'd have to say Missouri, because of the Tom Sawyer Caves. It felt very safe, and peaceful. I thought it was great. Some people were claustriphobic. I used to hide in closets, in boxes and under the bed when I was a kid. So, I didn't mind. There are caves in New York too. I enjoyed them, but I can't think of the name for some reason.

posted October 27, 2002 05:58 PM         

I have a G3 which is 4yrs, the college was using imacs this year and they used 7200's when I first went.
Would love to get the latest G4 with a gig operating speed.
I'll have to increase my hard drive, have only 3.25 gig remaining on my hard drive, alot has been taken up with music on itunes.

I was working at the Christchurch convention Centre in June doing security for NavCon 2002, which is a IT conference for teachers from primary to secondary schools as well as private training institutions and I saw Hugh Durham who was my tutor from the Graphics College. He is now in Admin and he said he wil kick my ass if I don't get a job in Graphics, I don't think he could reach.

Designed some t-shirts and sent them off to get printed, all with references to Latin dancing...people that don't do it wouldn't understand what they mean't.

As for music, played in a hard rock/alternative band in the early 90's, from Pearl Jam/Smashing Pumpkins/Fugazi/Rollins Band/Helmut to Neil Young. Played bass as there was an over abundance of guitarists. Have been thinking of vocals and maybe drums. Steve the drummer at the time said I sounded like Jimi Hendrix, considering we were jamming to Purple Haze it's no wonder!

As for what I would now play, maybe something along the lines of recent Eric Clapton/Sting/Roy Buchanan/Fleetwood Mac/Eagle Eye Cherry/Massive Attack throw it all together and see what resulted.

Not keen on karaoke, not to say I haven't done it. A guy from work sings on a regular basis, and performed at Sparks in the Park which is an annual event here. They wanted him to sing Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen but after doing the rehearsal he felt he couldn't perform the song the way it should be, and wouldn't be giving it justice. He said it was a real buzz performing in front of 100,000 people.

posted October 27, 2002 07:53 PM         

And I don't know what a moa is! It's not in my dictionary either. I suppose I could look for it on the web.

I always say you can never have too much space on a computer. It's soooo easy to fill! It will be a long while before I can even look at all the toys.

Let's see.. who do I sound like when I sing. Probably most like Mandy Moore.

I always thought that if you find the right style of music for a persons voice that most people can sing, at least a little. Some people just can't sing, though. My first husband and his brother had a christian/rock band(20 yrs ago). His brother was the talented one. My ex could not sing. Or play the saxaphone (sore spot). They used to "steal" my poetry and use it for their songs. But they would never let me join them. I wasn't rockin' enough for them, I guess. No biggie.

Right now I'm trying to rediscover what my talents actually are. It's not easy. I've spent too much time listening to everyone else for so long that I can't remember.

Time will tell.

What's your favorite part of Lindaland? I'm new so I really don't have a favorite, but I expend a lot of energy in the Lexigram Forum. Oh, and I post my poems in the Soul Unions Forum. Most of my poems have to do with past relationships and the relationship I wish I had.

Just in case. Don't feel obligated to being in this forum. I'm just curious, and I don't want to be annoying. You seem like a fascinating person. Lots of different interests. A lot of them are things I'm intersted in.

posted October 27, 2002 11:02 PM         

Black Flag was the original group that spawned Rollins Band, named after Henry Rollins. Apart from that don't know much about them.

Fugazi come from Seattle, saw them in '93 when they came over, a good high energy band, whose musical ability changes with each new recording, though I haven't bought any of their stuff for over 10 yrs.

There were several species of Moa, the tallest stood at over 6ft, these were all flightless birds and were here before the Maori came. The skeleton I saw was of a smaller variety, about 1m in height (38"). The last reported sighting was in the 1800's, in Fiordland. Some Japanese scientists came here in the 80's after they created a call that they thought would have sounded like a Moa. They went to Fiordland but didn't have any luck. But then again there are plenty of places down south and on the West Coast that could easily have species of Moa without anyone ever knowing about it.

As for Forums, Free For All, Health And Healing, Universal Codes, Pilgrims Progress, the others I have a look at from time to time but unless something interests me I don't bother replying.

As for Martial Arts, I like Aikido, train in Buikukai style. Originally trained in Fuji Ryu. I do it for the enjoyment of it not to get a black belt, I've seen peoples ego's get as big as houses once they have attained Sho Dan and it's not good. The idea is to respect the person you're training with, not to inflict pain.

I've also trained in Kenpo Karate which is a mixture of Kung Fu and Karate.
And Kempo Karate which was a mixture of Aikido and Karate.
I liked Kenpo best, it was really hard training. Got my ribs cracked once when I was training with Tom who was a Ni Dan Sempai, we were using Bo and I stopped him from attacking but I forgot about his legs and he did a Yoko Giri, (which is a side kick) to my rib cage. It wasn't hard about 50%, initially it was sore but the next day I found it difficult to get out of bed, couldn't take deep breaths, hurt like hell if I laughed, couldn't do any crunches. It took about 6wks for it to come right.

But apart from that the only injuries I have sustained have been through my own fault, not blocking blows to the face when I should have (fat lips), not doing Ukemis properly and the occasional scratch from Nage who hadn't cut their toenails.

posted October 28, 2002 07:20 PM         

Very interesting facts about the Moa. Thanks for sharing. I feel smarter already.

Ouch! I don't think I could handle getting my ribs cracked. Of course, I've had two children!

I wanted to be Bruce Lee when I was much younger. That did not go over well with my family. Sadly, my father was very predjudiced and narrow minded. I wasn't allowed to do any of those types of things. One - they were from another country, two - I was a girl. It's taken me years to get over the "you can't do that because you're a girl" syndrome.

Now I say my behind!

I have always been facinated with Kung Fu. There are a lot more Karate offerings than anything else around where I am. I'm sure if I looked hard enough I could find the right one for me.

I wish I could remember more, but I once saw a special on TV about different styles of martial arts. They talked about different animals: tiger, monkey, crane,and others. I was fascinated. It was very well done. If I had had a blank tape, I would have taped it. I just didn't have the heart to tape over "Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory"!

It takes much more discipline than I ever thought I was capable of, but if I want to do it badly enough I should be willing to put forth the effort. Right?

When I was a teenager I knew someone who was a brown belt in Karate. He found religion and gave it up. I'm not sure why, but I was disappointed. My step father was a third degree red? in something. Is there such a thing? It was too long ago for me to remember. I may have misunderstood.

Today in school, I joined the Swing Club! They teach all sorts of dancing: line, salsa, waltz, etc. They say name it, they can teach it. They went around the room and asked the new people what they wanted to learn the most. Of course, I had to say everything. I had sooooo much fun. I spent more time laughing than dancing, but once I get over the initial feeling like an idiot, I'll be great! I have always wanted to dance. The only "lessons" I had were Ballet at the age of eight. About three months worth. I feel like I'm in my second childhood, but I'm not quite sure I've gotten out of the first one yet!

posted October 28, 2002 08:55 PM         

Anyway enough of my bitching.

The style of Aikido I now train in doesn't have coloured belts, you are white from 6th kyu through to 1st kyu and then it's the Dan grades (black). It's not cheap either, $450 NZ for your Sho Dan and the price increases as you get higher. But whilst you're still a white it's alot cheaper, max being $50NZ.

I read an article in a Martial Arts mag, that stated there will be no one like Morihei Ueshiba, the founder of Aikido ever again. This is primarily because he spent every day training and teaching, as well as meditation, purification techniques and practising spirituality. He is officially recognised as Japans greatest martial artist of all time. The rest of us have jobs, family and other things to contend with, plus the amount of discipline involved would be enormous. There wouldn't be many women that could put up with that, and Western Civilization places alot of emphasis on social activities these days. If you did have the means to do it, not many of your friends would stick around.

Haven't tried ballet. A friend that I know through Latin Caribbean wanted to do it, to get posture correct, but we were both learning Jazz dancing and it incorporates classical arms and ballet footwork for exercises. He hasn't taken it up, now he concentrates on Latin American and Jazz. I had to stop after I was travelling to Queenstown every mid week for work and missed 6 classes, I earlier missed 1 class and found that I had a hard time catching up, 6 would have been an impossibility. Plus the fact that the women in our class had previous Jazz training whilst growing up and it was second nature to them. Being one of only two guys in the class, it was catered for the women.

posted October 29, 2002 09:13 AM         

I agree with you in that if you want to look good doing something you have to get the basics down first. I hate looking stupid in front of people, but for some reason it happens a lot.

The club is just for fun and it's free. Anything free right now is a very good thing. I need to start somewhere! I need to have fun. I get extremely depressed if I don't.

To be honest there aren't many "friends" hangin' around right now. Maybe I've made it that way on purpose. Too many bad things have happened to me lately. Keeping a journel is not enough. Sometimes you just have to talk to somone. I try not to complain, but if I keep it all in I just burst out crying. Regardless of where I am. It can be very embarrassing. That's why I'm trying to find things I'm interested in to bury myself in.

I tend to be a perfectionist, too. No, that's not it. I am a perfectionist. More with myself than with other people. The problem there is that, if I think there is any chance at failure, I don't bother trying. I can't figure out what my inner motivation is. It's the one and only reason I am where I am today. I would much rather be the kind of person who gives my every effort to doing something. I think I would be happier. I just haven't figured out how to change that aspect of my personality.

At 39, I am just learning to be independednt. I am just figuring out what I want and need from this life. I finally have the attitude that if someone doesn't like it they don't have to be around me. I guess no one likes it. My mother and my children don't have a choice.

Except Spike, my scene partner in acting class. He's a great girlfriend. He doesn't like girls. He likes boys. So I don't have to worry about him hitting on me. Which is a good thing. He says that he likes my carefree, smiley personality. And the fact that I don't cringe because he is gay. I told him my opinion. For me "parts is parts", I like boys. His choice is his choice and none of my business. It doesn't mean that we cant be friends.

Are the things you spend the most time at the things you love to do? What do you do to relax? Or don't you relax? What do you like to do for fun, just to mess around. I sometimes like to hang out with "crazy" people. It's a blast. It always get me out of a funk.

I like to go hiking and camping. I'm not really into sports, but I'll watch them with friends just for something to do. You're more likely to find me in the kitchen making food, than actually watching a game. I would rather be a participant than a spectator.

posted October 29, 2002 08:16 PM         

I've become a social leper due to the hours and days that I work, also dealing with drunks and idiots 90% of the time I don't feel like going out on my days off. The pub scene has grown very tired for me, and the dances are few and far between.

I can't play sport due to work restrictions, there would only be Archery, Target Shooting and Softball that take my interest, I get one weekend off in every 5. Try to go to Aikido when I'm working the graveyard shift, not always possible, I find I'm catching up on sleep for the first couple of days.

posted October 31, 2002 12:33 PM         

You sure are busy with work. That's got to be a bit rough. You need to go out, at least, so someone can harass you! I use to be that busy, but I'm taking a break. Just doing the full-time school thing right now. Thank goodness for grants and loans! I have too much emotional healing to do. If I don't take care of it now I know I'll crumble. I'm one of those people who absorbs to much of the energy around me. So, it takes a lot of down time for me to be at my most cheerful. I get very cranky, if all I'm allowed to do is work, work, work.

I have to agree about the bar scene. It does get lame. I don't drink very much alcohol anymore, if at all. I haven't had a drink in 5 months.

The only thing I like to do is go dancing. Bars are the only places around here that have the space for it, and the music. I don't like the cigarette smoke though.

What I mean by dancing is just basically moving what ever part of my body wants to at the time. Nothing technical. I haven't gotten there yet. But I still love moving around. There aren't many guys here that are willing to get up and dance. The ones that do get a gazillion points! I had a girlfriend once tell me that she didn't like the way I danced because it gets too much attention in her opinion. Don't ask me? I never could figure it out. It's not something that I'm good at. It's just domething I love to do. I haven't heard from her in years.

I remember once having a black girl nickname me "wiggles", she said that I was the first white girl she ever saw that could move her hips like a black girl. That's great, but I still can't figure out what to do with my arms!!!!!!

What's your dogs name. Purebred or mutt? I'm a dog person. I like other animals, but my mom has three cats and they drive me nuts. I like golden retrivers, but any dog will do. They love you no matter what!

When I was growing up we always had a dog and a cat. Plus any other animal I could convince my mother to let me keep.

When I was 14 I had a white mouse named Sabbath. I wanted a black one so I could name it Black Sabbeth, but the store didn't have any.

I wanted a snake once, but my mother said no way! I hate spiders. My father used to collect them in jars.

I was on the softball team at my last job for their first season. There were only two girls, so the next season the guys decided that they only wanted guys on the team. We couldn't find enough girls that wanted to be on a team so we dropped the idea. Which was okay with my boyfriend at the time because he didn't like the idea of me hanging out with a bunch of guys. That relationship didn't last for very long. I told him that if I was going to cheat on him I would break up with him first. He was married 3 months after we broke up.

Tonight I have rehersal. I started doing The Mystery Game. It's dinner mystery theatre. They do murder mysteries for hire. Tomorrow is my first show. I get extra credit for my acting class. I have an "A" already, but it can't hurt.