posted November 01, 2002 01:35 PM         

but, unfortunately, I don't see anything in those photos...maybe it's not enough of the picture, and your eyes are averted to somewhere else...

got any with your eyes looking forward and/or smiling?

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted November 01, 2002 02:48 PM           

I don't have any right here, but I'll see what I can do.

Corri

posted November 01, 2002 03:14 PM         

i'm giggling...i'm so glad it's Friday..my officemates think i've lost my mind..

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted November 01, 2002 03:18 PM           

???

Corri

posted November 01, 2002 11:48 PM         

here ya go Corri...and again, I apologize profusely if this is incorrect and I swear to you that I have no idea of your signs or anything like that, I haven't had any time to research anything like that...this is just from looking into your photograph..

here it comes...tingle tingle..fast now...

oh Corri..what a loner you have been...searched for your place in life...have you found it yet? such a quiet girl...not known as the troublemaker in school..not the class clown either..somewhat reserved...and highly misunderstood...you have many thoughts, they come fast but maybe have some trouble getting the message across? bet a pair of sweats and a tshirt is your favorite attire..or a good pair of Levi's...are books are your friend...bookworm? you are a serious type of person...you like a good joke of course, but you are a deep thinker and ponder life's mysteries to the fullest of your extent...this sounds like a very stupid question but are you particular about ketchup? like lots of ketchup?

Corri...what is it...what are you longing for? Something is screaming at me..through the silence of your photograph..but you're holding onto it..now, you called me out...there is something in there, inside you, that you are so longing for...searching searching searching.....

are you an activist in anything? because i sense you are pretty passionate about things, when you support something, you give it 110%..you don't mess around..you say what you mean and mean what you say...and if the next person doesn't understand you, well, that's their fault isn't it? because YOU know what you mean!!

what are you searching for Corri...what is not in your life, that you are longing for..?

I'm looking at you...I hear you..you are saying..see me..Im seeing you but you pull it back, and i can't see it..i think..i hope..you know what i am talking about..

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted November 02, 2002 10:38 PM           

Excellent. I'll write-out my reaction in detail so you can know just how much of a gift you have. I got goosebumps when I read what you had written.

oh Corri..what a loner you have been...searched for your place in life...have you found it yet? such a quiet girl...not known as the troublemaker in school..not the class clown either..somewhat reserved...and highly misunderstood...you have many thoughts, they come fast but maybe have some trouble getting the message across? bet a pair of sweats and a tshirt is your favorite attire..or a good pair of Levi's...are books are your friend...bookworm? you are a serious type of person...you like a good joke of course, but you are a deep thinker and ponder life's mysteries to the fullest of your extent...this sounds like a very stupid question but are you particular about ketchup? like lots of ketchup?

Yep, that sounds about right.
Except for perhaps the ketchup thing (although, thinking back, I did have a tendency to use half a bottle at once when I was younger...).
Actually, it sounds exactly right, even down to my clothing preferences. I stick to an easy shirt and jeans or cargos - I almost feel like I'm cross-dressing when I dress-up.
I've always enjoyed reading; when I was younger I always read several grades ahead of where I was "supposed" to be. I think that's why they tested me for the gifted and talented program, and a large part of why I passed that test.
In school I was quiet for the most part, except when on the stage or when around people I was very comfortable with (and those were/are few and far between), and thought a snob - which I wasn't, just a bit removed. I didn't feel at home with the other kids in FOCUS (the G & T program) b/c they were for the most part rich and full of themselves, but I never quite fit in with the other "dramies", either.
It's funny, though - all these years later all these people remember me, and I've no idea who they are.
The joke part's right, too. That's a part of me that's stayed a child. In some ways I think I'll remain one forever, and that's not a bad thing. The moment I quit finding unadulterated wonder in the world around me will be a sad one. Sometimes the beauty of the world and of existence itself nearly tears me apart with its force. I've honestly got to try not to dwell on it or I become completely useless with awe.
To get a little less heavy, I also just get a kick outta being goofy - I'm most at ease when being a nut.
And, you're right again - I often can't sleep because I can't settle my thoughts, but I can't share them (them, my real Thought, not the fluff that passes for it), either. Most people look at me like I'm deranged when I do (I tried explaining to a co-worker of mine how life knocks me flat because of the sheer beauty of it, and how, in my calmer moments, I Love each and every thing that is simply because it Is...thaaat didn't go over too well).
Going back, though, I've almost always felt alone, even in a mass of people (perhaps even more so in a crowd - there's no more separate feeling then that). Not all of me's necessarily minded, though. I think, perhaps, that's why my and Rick's break-up (of our "relationship and of our friendship) hit me so hard - he's the only person I can actually remember not feeling alone around.

Corri...what is it...what are you longing for? Something is screaming at me..through the silence of your photograph..but you're holding onto it..now, you called me out...there is something in there, inside you, that you are so longing for...searching searching searching.....
are you an activist in anything? because i sense you are pretty passionate about things, when you support something, you give it 110%..you don't mess around..you say what you mean and mean what you say...and if the next person doesn't understand you, well, that's their fault isn't it? because YOU know what you mean!!

And, yeah, I've pretty much constantly longed for something, I'm just not sure what; but I've heard that that's the fate of a Fish
I do get blindingly passionate about certain issues as well.
The part about 110% onward is especially salient, but I so seldom find something that I can really believe in, so much of the time I have an air of indifference. I get so excited, though, when someone gets what I'm saying, is actually on somewhat the same wavelength. I'm grateful more than anything else. But, again, how often does that happen? That's why I enjoy LL so much.

posted November 03, 2002 04:07 AM         

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi