posted November 13, 2004 02:09 AM         

I am leaving this site for a while and I will state my protests and objections as clearly as possible. This site’s presentation is in opposition to the Teaching of Linda Goodman (may her memory be sanctified). Some years ago my Teacher introduced me to Linda’s Teaching. It is a beautiful memory and I still remember the joy that I felt as I read Linda’s words. After I found this site I inquired about her further as I was confused by the contradictions to her teaching that this site presented. In response, my Teacher said that Linda is indeed a delicate soul and that she is opposed to all vulgar expressions and crude behavior. This was an important lesson for me, in that, a beautiful Teaching and the words of a lovely soul can be twisted within mere years of her passing.

In these years, and especially recently, my Teacher also taught me how to come to peace and reconciliation with myself in order to see beauty inside so that the beauty outside may be appreciated. The world may look ugly, but that is only because we project it that way. My teacher taught me how many traditions of the peoples of the world such as the Jews, Christians, Muslims, Buddhists, Daoists, Hindus, Native Americans, Celts, Confucians and Zoroastrians are all manifestations of the One Truth that is God. My Teacher speaks of how God manifested all Creation as an expression of His Love and Compassion. Finally, my Teacher tells me how violence and vulgarity destroy the fabric of peace and interrupt the Divine Music of Creation.

My other teacher is Shizuka (Loki for FK). She has always shared with me the beauty of Daoism and the subtlety of the writings of Lao Tzu. Once, just recently, she read a passage from another of her favorite Eastern Texts:

Wait until the Holy Truth
Is available to everyone
During the Great Salvation

Then all will come together
To seek the Real Master
And return to the Home in the Westland.

Not until now
Would Grandmother ever reveal
The sacred mysteries of the Kingdom
Or any mystic words.

Now is the time
Of the Great Harvest
And for all teachings
To return to One.

I have descended the Holy Truth
To save the Three Thousands.

And bestowed the name
The One All-Pervading
Upon it.

It brings salvation
To the Three Worlds
And the Four Seas.

Together
All will ascend
The Heavenly Ladder.

Grandmother urges everyone to recognize the real from the unreal. The unreal refers to our lives, our physical bodies and the surrounding. It seems so appalling that this world which seems so solid, so substantial, is nothing but an illusion after all.

A few days ago Shizuka walked through Linda Land with me as a companion. One might say that I walk through the flower garden and sometimes bend the stems as I pass by and contemplate beauty. Shizuka however, enjoys plucking the flowers and holding them close to her nose and eyes. And these are two manifestations of a single soul that is essentially One.

During these travels to Linda Land with my Teacher and my soul sister, it seems that the only interest here centers around an obsession with IP addresses, cults, and other less mentionable subjects. Indeed this place has become a home for racism, public sexual deviance and public displays of vulgarity and these are an affront to the decency that Linda Goodman represented. Who here has seen the beauty of the Teaching? Who here has enjoyed the fragrance of the flowers in passing or in plucking? Who has turned inward to contemplate the ugliness of the nafs (ego) and felt the longing to return to the true state of the soul which is light and purity? For those of us who pass by looking for the flowers, we found them. Seeshells, Juni, Tink, and Orchid put a light in my heart and a song in my soul. The small efforts to discern truth and genuine questions of those such as Fish Kitten, IamThat, and a few others were also sweet scents in a cesspool of nafs.

Over these years I learned of the difficulty of the path and its tests and trials. Most of the time I have failed, but the Most Merciful has accepted my return again and again. The Compassion of the Creator is indeed infinite. In this Compassion and Mercy I have always found the light of hope and joy.

More recently, I would turn to my teacher with questions. Why is the Teaching not offered to the masses? Why does my teacher not come and manifest himself so that others may come to faith and joy? Again and again, in answer, I would be reminded of my own testing and trials and my own failures. And still I did not understand. And still I asked and petitioned for the Teaching to be offered to all. These last few months I have had the questioning of many years answered. And I have had my own test outside of this forum and I have once again failed. You have had your tests here and you have failed. But my Lord is sufficient for me, His Mercy infinite and His Compassion a comfort. I have come to a new peace and a new joy, and once again I will turn my face to the Beloved waiting to be tested for the sake of Him. To be allowed the possibility of one day drawing nearer to His presence. And, perhaps one day, I shall be able to say, “And where ever I turn, there is His Face”.

Peace my brothers and sisters, only peace and the return to the One.

Meili

PS. For those that note Shizuka’s engagement with two others on this board and see a contradiction, note that two things can look identical on the outside and be quite different on the inside. Fish Kitten can elaborate for those who do not understand this.

posted November 13, 2004 03:41 AM         

I do not quote great minds. I do not spout lyrics from my fingers at every opportunity. But if someone is in need, I will fill that need with every fiber of my being that I can devote to this person/ situation in need. LIFE is my teacher. She comes in all forms, in sadness and gladness, and I define her as just that.

I need no approval from any master, as I have internal proof, with every breath I take, with every synchronistic opportunity to witness, I have depth andf love and breadth of wisdom in every fiber of this journey. I just have to listen beyond the laughter.

I am no fool. I see quite clearly. I choose to laugh, but that does not mean I do not listen.
I don't care what you think of me. I will continue to find joy in the smallest things, reven if I am a fool pointing and laughing at myself.. it is ME doing the laughing, and I think that is what ultimately matters.
I take my 'naf' and raise you a laugh.

posted November 13, 2004 10:45 AM         

Here's a quote:
Judge not, lest ye be judged.

quote:

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For those that note Shizuka’s engagement with two others on this board and see a contradiction, note that two things can look identical on the outside and be quite different on the inside. Fish Kitten can elaborate for those who do not understand this

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I have nothing but enormous respect and crazy love for FK, I don't think anyone would have any trouble interpreting or understanding Shizuka's message.

See you 'round the cesspool, Meili.

posted November 13, 2004 04:47 PM         

And a thank you to you too, my divine Aries Amazon!(as in strong, beautiful, self sufficient woman)

posted November 14, 2004 12:52 AM         

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Once, just recently, she read a passage from another of her favorite Eastern Texts:

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posted November 14, 2004 01:01 AM         

love, Saffron

posted November 14, 2004 03:03 AM         

"Use big words that you cant pronounce or dont understand."

Sorry, but this is what it sounds like to me. I think this can apply to paragraphs too.
Anyway, I hope you find what you're looking for.
Peace Out

posted November 21, 2004 01:53 AM         

Moderators cannot delete posts (nor do I think any Mod here would if they could.) Moderators can MOVE topics to different forums from their own. But we dont have a function that allows us to delete one post. Maybe you are thinking of one of the other threads? I highly doubt anyone would delete one of your posts even if they could anyway. That has never happened here before. I'm sorry but I think you are mistaken. Randall puts up with alot here, but none of it comes from you. He is strong in his belief in free expression. Are you sure you posted something here? I dont think Ive read one post by you that gives reason for deletion anyway. You are always pleasant here.

posted November 21, 2004 02:16 AM         

Sorry for jumping to conclusions....

Phew....

I have to ask you something though... which forum do you think is apt to discuss conscious development/awareness?

posted November 21, 2004 02:22 AM         

Hmmm.....I would say probably Universal Codes or maybe Oranges And Hyacinths. Either one would be fine but I'm leaning more towards Oranges and Hyacinths. Each forum has descriptions and suggestions for subject matter on it. Take a look and see which one feels right to you. Great topic BTW. I was going to post something along those lines tonight.

posted November 21, 2004 02:31 AM         

I only delete if it gets so bad that there's no other real alternative (like a very racist term being used).

Mods can delete--26t just hasn't read her Mod Squad Manual.