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Topic: I feel lonely...why?
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Yang
Knowflake Posts: 2296
From: A temporary home
Registered: May 2004
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posted December 24, 2004 06:44 AM
 
Even though it is Christmas and I am with family I feel lonely. Let me tell you what is causing it.The other day I got an email from my friend saying that he is going away for a week over Christmas( and I know it's not to be with his family). At first I didn't mind as it is his life and he can do what he wants, but now I feel an empty space deep inside of me now he has gone.
This person is years older than me but I admire him greatly and he amazes me. HE IS MY MENTOR!
So why am I feeling this way?
Is it because deep inside I am scared something might happen to him,or I can't speak with him until he comes back? What is it?
Please help someone! IP: Logged |
Jazzebel
Knowflake Posts: 343
From: Georgia
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted December 24, 2004 04:34 PM
hey Yang,
relax!
whatever happens - happens for a reason. If you keep thinking netagive- negative situations you are most likely to attract. I hope all will turn out good for you, and soon!
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virgotaurustaurus
Knowflake Posts: 2474
From: upstate NY, USA
Registered: Oct 2004
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posted December 24, 2004 06:45 PM
I like what Jazzebel said...but you might simply be missing him too, I'm going through a similiar situation except my friend is doing something more permanent *sigh*. My older mentor friend is moving away!  I feel really lonely too. But yeah I think you may just be missing him (not being able to speak with him until he comes back), I'm sure he'll be fine though!  Don't worry! IP: Logged |
Yang
Knowflake Posts: 2296
From: A temporary home
Registered: May 2004
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posted December 26, 2004 06:33 AM
Thank you guys for making me feel better, but it still doesn't deny the fact that I miss him still.Especially yesterday (Christmas day)as I had no way to contact him to wish him a merry Christmas!When I woke up yesterday morning, I quietly wished him a merry Christmas.O while only a few more days then he will be back! ------------------
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pixelpixie
Knowflake Posts: 5301
From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted December 26, 2004 02:50 PM
Does he know that you love and admire him so?IP: Logged |
Yang
Knowflake Posts: 2296
From: A temporary home
Registered: May 2004
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posted December 26, 2004 03:43 PM
Hi PixelpixieI wrote a poem about him and I sent it to him via email just for him to critique it (and also to see if he can figure it out it was him)but i didn't tell him it was about him.
He didn't want to critigue it as he believes it would be unfair and unreasonable to do it.
But I think he knows it is about him-I am abit scared to tell him. ------------------
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pixelpixie
Knowflake Posts: 5301
From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted December 26, 2004 04:43 PM
You have been writing about him here for some time and I can see that you have nothing but glowing reviews and I would say a touch of hero-worship. Is he gay, do you know? Is he receptive to that, or is it as simple as that. I know nothing is..... Do you have it figured out in your mind.. is he someone you would like to emulate? Someone you would like to become, or someone you would like to love?
I am just curious. I'd love to read your poem.IP: Logged |
Yang
Knowflake Posts: 2296
From: A temporary home
Registered: May 2004
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posted December 27, 2004 03:40 AM
I am not in love with him it is just that I can't get enough of him.
He is not gay as he is divorced but he has 2 children.
I would LOVE to be as clever as him as I kinda envy his cleverness.
I am going back on my word now but I would like to get to know him better than I do at the moment even if it means getting involved with him.About my poem- I don't want to post it here on this site as it is too personal, but PIXELPIXIE, I can email it to you, what is your email? SOmehow I feel I shouldn't be telling you guys this as I feel that if he ever find out about me telling you guys about him, it will ruin our relationship! ------------------
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DeepIYM
Knowflake Posts: 355
From: Colorful Colorado
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted December 28, 2004 12:51 AM
Love/like is such a a hard thing. I find that to live is to love weather that love be to long or to love itself. Good luck Yang, and may humanity be with you.RIII IP: Logged |
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