posted June 28, 2005 09:25 PM              

I just went home to have some lunch and I could hear Mr Virgo working on his sculpture...now i am having really really dirty thoughts about him...why does he have to be so gorgeous!!! Now i cant concentrate on work...not that i could before!!! Why do i have to be so afraid of letting people into my heart and life, why do i have to be so scorpio and intense, why oh why......now i have to take some asprin...I'm thinking so much i have a headache!!!!

kiwi x

posted June 28, 2005 10:44 PM            

I spent a wonderful two days on the lake with my family and my honey. My son's dad is trying (as always) to wreak havoc in our lives and I'm learning how to be a little less nice when need be. It's a hard lesson, but it feels good to take back some of the control I've carelessly given away in my naivete.

I'm thinking today of some of my friends here at Lindaland... some of you I talked to in the last day or two, and some of you I haven't heard from in a while.

Today is the end of my weekend, so it's back to work tomorrow. Right now this is a bad situation, but I'm trying to make it better.

And I had corn on the cob today for the first time this summer. Delicious!

Great thread idea! I can't believe I didn't see this before. I love reading everyone's entries.

VTT... Take care.

posted June 28, 2005 11:01 PM              

I was sitting here (again doing no work!) thinking how blessed i am by the people in my life...some i see or talk to all the time, some i only converse with over the internet, yet i have realised that it makes no difference to the quality of it all. Everyone comes into my life for a reason, season or a lifetime and whichever it is, I am blessed.

I have realised today that its not only men that think about sex every 2.5 seconds, i am setting a new record for thinking about it every 1.25 sexonds....oppps i meant seconds...when oh when will i get me some....lol

posted June 28, 2005 11:09 PM            

Tomorrow I will be suggestive and lewd and baudy and naughty.

And I will show my soul all the while.

posted June 29, 2005 12:04 AM              

I am pmsing and it sucks a$$. But I did pass my test so I am happy.

P.S - I like Dear Diary better

posted June 29, 2005 09:31 PM              

Today i am sooo tired and hungover...why do i have to go out and have such a good time and then totally feel so bad the next day. Guess i must be getting old eh.

The weather is so beautiful today, and the ocean just looks amazing. I am so blessed to live where i do.

Productivity is not a stong point today, however managing to stay awake thru till 5pm will be my one major acheivement today...and i will be thankful..he he

posted June 29, 2005 10:00 PM              

Well....still pmsing. I got a f*ckin migraine.

posted June 30, 2005 06:46 AM              

Dear kiwigirl,
Uh...I seem to be thinking abt. sex constantly too. There's no cure!

Dear Journal,

Cancer MIL has come to stay & I am generally keeping out of her way & not getting too chummy. She has this knack of weaving barbs into the conversation - last night over dinner she said to me, "You've been working on your book for QUITE A WHILE now, haven't you?" Whatever that was supposed to mean. Anyway - I just snapped back and said that that was the time the publisher had given me to do it, and that was how long some books took to write. Some people know nothing.

Apart from that - I'm more in love than ever before and thinking, in theory, this can't be real, but yes, it is real, and how is it that someone can do this to me?

Wow. Wow, wow, wow.

LOL

AT

posted July 01, 2005 03:03 PM              

FINISHED writing all the words to my latest batch of songs this afternoon, whilst MIL and hubby were out, it was nice and quiet and I managed to tune my brain in to a song whose words had eluded me for ages and ages and ages. (Excellent!!) Finding just the right words...feels SO good.
Going to a folk festival tomorrow, 10 mins' walk down the road from me, just a local thing. I've never been to anything similar so I don't know what it'll be like. It's a bring-your-own-guitar-kind-of-thing, I think. So I shall!! I need to play live more.

Then we have friends coming round in the evening - so 'twill be a busy day!

LOL

posted July 01, 2005 04:12 PM              

No more pms and still feeling like crap.

posted July 05, 2005 09:02 PM              

Well, Mr. Virgo and I aren't going out anymore. Everything hit the skids and the tires blew out today.

*sighs*

posted July 05, 2005 11:32 PM            

Hmmmm... a bit out of it. Too many things to think about and I'm restless while I should be sleeping. I just want to stay up all night and enjoy the silence. Write when I feel like it, read when I feel like it, and just drift about the house and think...

????????

posted April 19, 2006 07:15 PM              

~I sit here and pray. I pray for ** and ** grandma. I am doing my best to accept the will they chose. I hope they are surrounded by love, light, and hope. I miss my ** very much. ** brought in some red roses (his favorite) for me to place next to the vigil candle. I hope to someday see/know them again~

I love **. I always have. I always will. With mundande things, I forget sometimes. I want to appreciate and do the work necessary to not forget anymore. I wonder if this happens much to other couples?

posted April 19, 2006 09:12 PM            

What an interesting thread. I like it. Anywho...I got a hair cut today, and for the first time ever in the history of Katie hair cuts..I'm kinda cool with it. Curly hair is my curse *sigh*.

The little man Dyllon is here and has decided that as his godmother I'm supposed to read him blues clues 58 times a day. Literally. He has also decided nutri-grain bars and orange juice are the perfect meal at any time of day. Bless little ones eh?

Today was a refreshing change for me, it was beautiful outside as well as in and I took advantage of it. I met a friend of mines new boyfriend, he's a cancer sun/taurus rising..interesting fella. He's good for her.

I keep finding myself looking at KK's picture and thinking of how much I miss her and her father. I went to the store and sat in the childrens section looking at dresses that I would love to buy for her. However she is very much opposed to wearing anything but shorts so I looked at those too. But then I remembered I've been cut out of that picture.
Somehow I keep forgetting that part.
Then it bites me in the rear.
No one ever warns you about the missing them part. No one ever tells you it's harder than it sounds. And Greg is just one of those guys you don't forget. How do you forget?
Especially when he keeps calling, keeps talking, and asked me to be his birthday present. How exactly do you answer an question like that? It kinda scares me. I didn't answer him because that would mean I'd have to actually open my mouth and tell him everything and then listen to him say whatever he'll say. The really scary part is the idea that he'll actually say what I want to hear and that is that he misses me too =X I'm weird. I mean..really! Who wouldn't want to hear the man they love say "hey ya know I love you too and I meant every word I said before everything."
He's not any less weird than me but he's the sane one of this "friendship".
Is it normal that he gets mad if I don't talk to him??

I keep playing with my hair, they chopped 7 inches off and it feels like a 50 pound block was lifted off my head. I keep wanting to shake my head and have my hair be back haha. It don't work like that and I do like the cut.

I think I've run out of things to say.

Kt

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Live your life without regret, don't be someone they forget. Your heart is not yours to keep, it's yours to give...

posted April 20, 2006 01:33 PM              

TY for the sympathies (: Yes, my young cousin was taken from us in a car accident (drunk driver). It has been hard. Last night, I dreamt of him. His higher S-elf told me he chose to go and is happy. This brings me much, much comfort (:

posted April 20, 2006 02:04 PM              

Men are great for socializing and (whatever else) but I have come to realize that I am a total commitment-phobe. Anything that smacks too much of attachment or responsibility, I back away from. Like, the thought of seeing the same people on a very regular basis, too much attachment to one group of friends, having kids or animals etc. that I would have to look after...too scary.

Furthermore, I am almost too busy to date!! Altho' I am between jobs now and the way things have worked out, I will have the main part of next week off...time for catching up on some sleep (and people). Luxury!!

AT

posted April 20, 2006 11:13 PM              

I saw a kitten ran over while returning from work
Oh poor little thing was not fortunate enuf to get an instant death.
God I never knew, death is so fierce. poor thing was jumping and twisting like a paper in tornado.
I cried sitting in bus.
I dont have the courage to see death!

posted April 20, 2006 11:39 PM            

I'm so glad it's Thursday...by the time Friday rolls around, feels like it's already the weekend, as everyone is in weekend/disconnect mode at work...

The past two days I could see Mt. Hood (it's about 70 miles from Portland) very clearly from my window at work...truly a beautiful sight covered in snow...today, could barely see it and not as much sun.

If I saw a kitten run over, it would make me want to turn around and go home. Very sad to see a little life taken like that...my 'kitten' will be a year May 10...

I have a Sagittarius man expressing an interest in me...funny, I have never been involved with another Saggie before...another adventure