posted October 18, 2005 08:06 PM         

I called in sick yesterday (because I was actually sick), and I heard from another employee there said the staffing nurse said I was "really nasty" to her over the phone when I called in. Yeah, well, you should have heard how her tone of voice changed from "Don't care" to "Now what's *your* problem" when I said I was calling in sick. I hate getting attitude from every direction like this, and especially when I'm not feeling well.

Tomorrow morning, after tonight's shift, I going to have a word with that staffing nurse. First I'm going to explain why I was the way I was to her on the phone, and then I going to explain to her that I don't care for being talked about behind my back. Lastly, I going to tell her she needs to cut back my hours or I'm quitting.

posted October 18, 2005 08:49 PM         

I also thought you may be having issues not getting along with others. It seems anyone with heavy virgo/gem are becoming somewhat explosive with pluto in sag. Two weeks ago when pluto was on my sun I was a nightmare. I yelled at the gardners and fired them on the spot, I sent a nasty letter to a neighbor, and told another neigbor's 10 year old she was no longer welcome in our home (she said "wazzup" when i answered the door and then proceeded later to berate my 4 year old)..

anyway, pluto in sag has turned me into something i've never seen before.

I would think your pluto/asc in virgo adds to the tension.

my other thing i thought may happen and this was more intuitive, is that you may develop some type of boil or cyst on the body, probably the face.. well.. you asked for wild ungrounded and far-flung.

as for those snippy bitchezz at the hospital, you must realise that at least half od this is your own doing/undoing. women by nature are competitive and you are an unusually bright individual and i bet your talented with whatever you do and know it too. stregnth is not respected, but usually scoffed at. it is very difficult to show your spine and also be perceived as a likeable person. thier bad, not yours.

you'll probably get a new job soon anyway.

on a side note, the clicks and social groups in schools are one major reason i insist my daughter is educated privately. intelligence in public school is often ridiculed. you are labled nerd or geek. not so in private school. there are less popularity contests and higher expectations to succeed.

posted October 20, 2005 11:03 AM         

Fortunately I was too tired to get that angry, but this doctor is behaving like this in front of her patients as well as the staff. Good thing I was too tired to care, orI would have used my ingenius intellect to point out to the doctor that her Axis I diagnosis for the patient she was b*tching about was beyond inane (she diagnosed him with "grief" - I sh*t you not - *grief* as a mental illness, when itw was obvious to me the second I saw him he has PTSD). I have essentially no control over this apparently ongiong situation save for the fact I strongly object to watching other people abused by someone with a massive power trip. I mean, I could have stay out of it, but no, I wasn't going to and I didn't.

Anyhow, working there is like watching a building collaspe around you. There's so many things going wrong peripherially, that it's only a matter of time the ceiling over your own head in going to come crashing down too. I need to get out. I am job hunting right now, adn have lead on a possible job, so who knows.

But me personally, I don't think I've been b*tchier than my normal self. If anything I'm more cautious because I just feel more vulnerable and more aware of just how thinned skinned I really am right now. I feel to the need to defend myself more vigilantly and be very precise and to the point in my communications to avoid any misunderstandings that would come back and bite me int he a**, which is *very* typical on my Virgo Pluto.

And as far as getting along iwth others - well it's either people are being treachous or mean, or they're rallying behind me (I;ve unwittingly gained several allies at this job, which surprises me - nromally when I'm in this much conflict, I am gettign ostracized). That's people reacting to my Pluto rising - either they disturst or are suspicious of me, or they see me has being an honest, strong person with integrity. That kind of weird dichotomy with little middle ground is very Plutonian.

I suspect that Sag Pluto squaring my Virgo Pluto is emphasizing my Plutonian 1st house, for better or worse. While there's a lot of conlfict and frustration over things I know I can't control, I feel oddly empowered to see myself through this, even if I'm grriping a lot along the way.

As for the cysts - got those. Some under my scalp (it's a ongoing condition that I've had since I was a teen) and my ovarian cysts have been acting up too. I should be ovulating around the 26th, so my ovarian cysts should be really making my life real fun by then.

Well here's to getting a new job!

PS glad that you have your kid ina priovate school. Public school "culture" is so unhealthy for kids. I know cause I sub teacher too. D*mn I need to start getting such sucky jobs....

posted October 21, 2005 09:56 AM         

I have to agree with lovely.

"stregnth is not respected, but usually scoffed at. it is very difficult to show your spine and also be perceived as a likeable person. thier bad, not yours."

Perfect

I know what you're going through. Last summer I bartended at nights. There were waitresses in there that were very much into "their thing"... that's fine. I wasn't.

I seperated myself. I wouldn't conform to "their way". I was talked about... etc., etc., yawn.

I'm all for compromise... don't get me wrong. However, it works both ways.. and I won't completely change myself.

posted October 26, 2005 01:07 PM         

I've no advice for you, but glad to see you stepped in here are shared a bit of yourself, because i do sense you are vulnerable and protective of those feelings. You are oddly cancerian to me as a matter of fact. You're reactive, moody (for lack of better words), protective. Even the ovarian cysts are totally Cancerian. Are you a 3rd degree Gem?

posted October 27, 2005 03:25 PM         

GN, tell us how you fared yesterday (the 26th). Any changes to speak of?