posted December 18, 2005 08:54 PM         

i suppose mine's not bad, but it tears me apart everyday. i want so much to tell a certain someone something, but am petrified that it most likely will change the dynamics of our relationship. i am in love with this person, but feel like such a b*tch because i love this person more than my bf, and it tears me apart, knowing that we can probably never be together....

posted December 18, 2005 09:49 PM         

If you love this person more than your bf
then you owe it to yourself and him
to find true Love and Happiness.

posted December 19, 2005 12:33 AM         

fear is a negative and will bring forth negative,
look at the world today, this is the way we live
we are taught to fear everything

darkness wins

Postive energy is needed to balance this
we are way off balance

The answers are within you
God MOther and Father are within US all
we are their children
gods and goddesses
all equal

Have you seen Willy Wonka? What an amazing enlightening movie, with seeds everywhere
It's all in how we see things... ...

posted December 20, 2005 04:03 AM         

Whether he feels the same way or not, I think you need to be solo first. Only then make up your mind about what it is you want and whether it's a good idea to tell him or not.

Even if he does feel the same way, I think it might put him in an awkward situation to tell him this, while you are still with your boyfriend. It would just complicate things for you and him. If you don't "love" your bf.. romantically, then try to brake that relationship amicably and remain friends. After you've done this, you'll probably be able to think this whole other situation through, with a clearer head.

Maybe your friend, will start acting more interested once you are single. That could be part of the reason he isn't showing as much interest as you'd like.

posted December 20, 2005 11:32 PM         

it's weird because my feelings sort of come and go, like one day i will feel really lovesick and others i don't pay any attention to it at all.

i think that i love my bf, but he completely rubs me the wrong way sometimes and he has *no* sense of humor. but he's fun to be around at times although i know i am prolonging what could potentially be a tough situation. i imagine us just being together and having fun, but he's very serious and is talking about wanting to be with me forever and it kind of scares me. i'm afraid he'll just blow up if i break up with him but i know the sooner the better.

posted December 20, 2005 11:58 PM         

If you don't reveal it, you'll still get to have her in your life, but you'll suffer. If you do reveal it, you may sever the relationship. You're kind of doomed if you do and doomed if you don't. Sucks.

Play it cool. Keep a low profile about it, and maybe you'll learn enough to know eventually. Or, get on with it, and risk losing that person. Can you live with the first option? That's the better one if you don't want to lose this person.

luv and stuff

posted December 21, 2005 12:18 AM         

i've been playing it cool for the longest time, cos it just seems like the right thing to do......and i don't want to mess things up. we've kind of joked about it which makes me wonder, but she's in relationship now, and i don't want to mess that up cos all i care about is that she's happy. we just "get" each other and it's a weird feeling whenever we're together, but friendship is most important to me. which is why i'm so confused because i've never had these kind of feelings before, i mean i'm heterosexual and such...it's just weird. i get paranoid thinking she will find out or by some strange twist of fate she will read this (am i overreacting?)

posted December 21, 2005 12:40 AM         

eh can't get the tables to display for composite and my comp keeps freezing up very irritating!

well here is birth info
me sept 6 1986 san antonio tx 7:04 am

posted December 21, 2005 06:23 AM         

Once I got out of my relationship with ex and could think clearly again, I could see that my crush on my boss was a symptom of my confusion. To this day, I am soooo glad I never said anything to my boss--it was on the tip of my tongue daily. I am sure this must be a common thing, don't know.