posted March 06, 2006 02:39 PM         

God's hand to guide me

For an angel to whisk me away to heaven

For all the pain to cease

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Very moving question AG and one close to my at times troubled heart.....

posted March 06, 2006 07:54 PM         

To be loved and completely understood

For people to see my intentions and acknowledge it

For people to see me as I really am

posted March 08, 2006 06:29 PM         

2) To find the strength to admit I was in an abusive relationship and then just that much more strength to get out.

3) To have hope when I lost my grandmother - who was such a force and love in my life that when she departed this world I felt as though more than half of me left with her.

BUT... I found that my heart misses her, yet I have become more like her in accepting the horrible things that happen. I feel her with me everyday in ways I never felt when she was in her physical state.

Sometimes losing a bad job is GOOD... the time in between allows us to understand what we value most. I was also able to purge the anger / hate from my heart over what my ex did to me.

Strength is always present - we just have to not be afraid to use it because once it gets going we have to ride it out. It is much easier to leave an abusive situation than to stay and wait for the next outburst.

posted March 09, 2006 04:31 AM         

But retrospectively, now I've realized the Saturn Opposition was actually very useful to me. In short, I grew up, I made much better friends and I'm generally more happier now. I was stupid to think it was really bad (ok probably human but it helped me a lot). I want more Saturn oppositions now (which I wont get till I'm like 42). So that realization that tragedies and stuff makes you stronger always helps me in hard or difficult situations, it makes me accept it easily . It makes you stronger, and normally changes your life for the better even though it seems at that point of time like life is a disaster.

posted March 09, 2006 06:44 AM         

So I wish I could be myself for everyone.

posted March 09, 2006 06:45 AM         

So I wish I could be myself for everyone.

posted March 09, 2006 03:04 PM         

I think that you won't be able to contain your true nature forever. Someday, you're going to have to detach from these people and stand on your own two feet. Practice expressing what you need. Start small. People sometimes actually appreciate knowing what they can do to make you feel more comfortable, but they won't know it until you say something.

posted March 09, 2006 05:17 PM         

And to understand. Simply that I think - just to understand.

posted March 09, 2006 11:04 PM         

Sorry!

edited by Rainbow

posted March 10, 2006 10:13 AM         

Umm.... well, there's always that one that's a given- wishing the thing that made you sad had never happened. Like "I wish this had never happened in the first place!" I'm pretty sure most people have said that. Another thing is, despite not being religious, I'll sometimes go "Please God!!!" This is usually when I'm in some kind of excrutiating pain or in need of a miracle. Or love, plain and simple. You want that person you adore to just walk through the door and take you away from it all. Never happens of course, but one can always hope. Haha

posted March 10, 2006 06:26 PM         

I've also had dreams of someone miraculously showing up and recognizing my potential, and knowing exactly how I need to be helped at the time. (No one like that has ever showed).

I've also desired to have a resource, like online or something, where people in situations similar to myself could go to learn how to turn their life around. This is kind of the answer I was expecting from people, so it's interesting to see that no one's really wanted that.