posted July 25, 2006 02:00 AM         

i felt something tonight
something i hadnt felt in forever
maybe never

i felt relaxed

do you know what that is?
because i didnt
i needed the sanctuary of a woman
do you know what that is?
because i didnt

"have you ever been experienced?"
(dont take that for granted)

have you ever felt safe?
have you ever let go?
relaxed,
and felt the soul rise up to meet your feet?

I know you
we have talked in doctors' offices
outside the city
spoken softly in quiet corners
we have shared such things
but i never held your hand

and why?

"is this okay?
is THIS?"

those hours in the bath
with a book of peaceful insights
and lavender waters...

i emerged feeling something sacred
touched it once and i was restless again
because I had to write it down

was i still feeling it?
it didnt matter,
i had dragged something up
it needed to be said
so here i am
again
for the first time

but then she called me up
she could see where i was
still, i tried to tell her
tried to speak from this wisdom
like a fool

she said, "you are safe"
she pulled sighs from my depths
and i felt it all over again
it hadnt left me
we spoke of what it was

"you are safe" she said
in that impossible voice of hers

what is this feeling?
and what is a good woman?

I thought to myself "sanctuary"

yes, that was the word
that's what it was...

it takes you by the body
leads you beside the still waters
and lays you down in green pastures
like an invisible mother

so you let it
even though the fears drift by
still somewhere in the corners of your eyes

posted July 25, 2006 02:08 AM         

Suzanne takes you down to her place near the river
You can hear the boats go by
You can spend the night beside her
And you know that she's half crazy
But that's why you want to be there
And she feeds you tea and oranges
That come all the way from China
And just when you mean to tell her
That you have no love to give her
Then she gets you on her wavelength
And she lets the river answer
That you've always been her lover
And you want to travel with her
And you want to travel blind
And you know that she will trust you
For you've touched her perfect body with your mind.
And Jesus was a sailor
When he walked upon the water
And he spent a long time watching
From his lonely wooden tower
And when he knew for certain
Only drowning men could see him
He said "All men will be sailors then
Until the sea shall free them"
But he himself was broken
Long before the sky would open
Forsaken, almost human
He sank beneath your wisdom like a stone
And you want to travel with him
And you want to travel blind
And you think maybe you'll trust him
For he's touched your perfect body with his mind.

posted July 25, 2006 03:44 PM         

And thank you, Sunshine. Yes, I wrote it, and, indeed, there's plenty where that came from, lol, and, certainly, I share it with her ALL the time and she is in 7th heaven. No worries. Candlelight sounds lovely, but, with or without the candles, we make our own light.

Stephen

ps. I've always felt very Piscean, in some ways, and not at all in others. Besides the fact that Neptune is transitting my 1st house... Pisces touches my 1st house, and my SNode is in Pisces... My stellium (sun/venusrx/mc/uranus) is in the Pisces decan of Scorpio, and there's a lot to suggest that decans are more important than most astrologers give them credit for... My 1st house moon is in hard aspect to my neptune singleton; its "only" a semi-square, but I've read that close semi-squares are just as powerful as wide squares, and mine is less than a degree from exact.

Neptune is also the closest aspect (a sextile) to my sun-sign ruler (Pluto), which squares my ascendant. I have also read that, when a planet makes a soft aspect to a planet that makes a hard aspect, a lot of the tension from the hard aspect get channeled into that soft aspecting planet (i.e. neptune). All of which makes practical sense. I think so many astrologers seek to "simplify" chart interpretation in ways that deny very essential "details". There are exceptions to every rule, and those exceptions can radically change the rules of the game.

"Everything should be made as simple as possible,
but not simpler." - Albert Einstein

pps. Your Pisces guy sounds (even more) wonderful.