posted November 12, 2006 01:25 AM         

I work mostly evenings, and only part time.
My kids are at school during the day.
Daytime is my time for the most part.

How's my philosophical and startling blue man?

posted November 12, 2006 01:39 AM         

Things are good, the leaves have mostly fallen off the trees in New England, and winters bite is soon to follow, bringing in the coats and earmuffs, the snow, the cold crisp days.

With pluto beginning to transit my sun I'm learning lessons of power. (something you scorps probably know intuitively) Where to apply power, where to not, when to realize you are powerless, and when to apply yourself fully. Working with mentally ill adolescents I find the greatest power of all is sublimation, to give in completely to the moment and ride the currents of reality, always projecting out the greatest peace from your soul, and turning away fear and anger with compassion. In my job I am exposed to an incredible amount of fear, anger, violence, and I find that it all stems from confusion, from looking for security outside of the self rather than from within.

It seems sometimes that life is a big joke, a cherade, but then at other times it's so real that time just freezes and the moment lives forever. And although we are always the same person we really aren't, every situation finds us playing a different part, a different role, for me often a student or counselor, but not always. For you perhaps a nurturer, a soothsayer, a priestess even. But always I believe by channeling our souls essence through these roles we are truly doing justice to our lives, by being CONSCIOUS in ever moment and acting from the best part of ourselves.

Thanks for the message you posted on my myspace. It's nice to feel appreciated, also I found it interesting that you said "if only it were so easy to follow your advice." I sometimes forget that people may carry much heavier karmic burdens than I. As a sagittarius I have the ability to detach from reality as I like, and other people simply aren't able to do this. I see how scorpios, capricorns, pisceans suffer, and I empathize, but I dont' think I'll ever be able to grasp what that karmic weight, that heaviness of soul must feel like.

posted November 12, 2006 01:56 AM         

I loved your words.
I'm having a hard time shutting off tonight and letting myself want to sleep..... so your last post sort of cascaded all around me and left me bouyant.

My mask from here doesn't fit me as well as it did before.. I'm finding new uses for it. Is it as valid, now that it's more layered?

Sleep well.

posted November 12, 2006 02:05 AM         

I think the best mask is no mask, but I suppose this isn't always possible.

Can you peel off layers and put layers back on?

Can you put the mask on the nightstand once in a while?

posted November 12, 2006 04:04 PM         

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The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

posted November 13, 2006 01:02 AM         

BR, what type of mental illness do you work with? psychiatric or something else?

posted November 13, 2006 11:12 AM         

Or being asked to run morning errands to Government buildings/other businesses. Which sometimes causes me to have to wait until around 9:00 – 9:30 to be able to speak directly with the specific individual that I’m needing.

Or trying to use up my 66 hours of remaining vacation time before the year ends by leaving a little early one day or coming in a little later…. I’ll still never use it all… I’m always losing about 15 hours a year by not taking the time off.

Not much goofing around going on really… even though it may appear that way.

posted November 13, 2006 02:33 PM         

So, that's why I'm here now!

posted November 13, 2006 02:47 PM         

Lovely, I work with all kinds of mental illness, from mental retardation to schizophrenia to depression. What do you do Lovely?

posted November 13, 2006 04:00 PM         

Sun Virgo, Moon Gemini with a Capricorn rising.
So you probably have tons of "crazy" patients that fit my profile

Just kidding, there's no such thing as crazy, right?

posted November 13, 2006 05:09 PM         

"I find sometimes the most mentally ill are the most sane."

BlueRoamer

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The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

posted November 13, 2006 11:23 PM         

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I find sometimes the most mentally ill are the most sane.

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posted November 14, 2006 03:32 PM         

Well I used to, but I can’t at this job *sobs*

posted November 17, 2006 02:17 AM         

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The happiest people I've ever met were mentally retarted.

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I agree. As a 12 year old I worked in a private facility my BFF's mom owned & operated.

It was not a mental institution by any means and they were, absolutely some of the most memorable folks.

It was a very goofy, enlightening experience.

The only sad part was most folks in there didn't have many family visitors. That was a painful reality check.

BUT.. you could comfort yourself in knowing that most clients knew no different.

BR, do you enjoy what you do>

posted November 18, 2006 04:20 AM         

I like reading about you.