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leo_on_fire
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posted March 10, 2007 12:34 AM
 
And I am missing the living h$ll out of him.
He's only 10 months younger than me and for 2 months out of the year we are the same age, and along with that we have an attachment usually seen only with twins. So we refer to ourselves as twins.
Tuesday, he left for basic training in Ft. knox. Monday night, we cried all over each other because it's the first time in our entire lives that we've been this far apart.
EVER! He's the exact opposite of me in appearance, where I'm short and fair, he's tall and dark. He recently proposed to his girlfriend and she said yes, so they're planning to get married in 2 years. She's a sweet girl, really.
I just don't know why my heart hurts so badly at the idea of my brother doing something with his life that he's proud of.
That he feels is his duty.
Our lives were filled with things only seen in bad lifetime movies. The kind of bad that no one really believes is real.
I couldn't protect him then, but to know him now and the man he is, I'd say he turned out to be the best. You wouldn't think he'd ever spent a day of his life scared or hurt, he's that good.
I feel like something's missing with him being so far away. I'm worried for him naturally but it's more than that. I feel a hole in my heart and I wish more than anything he would have chosen any other occupation.
I think I feel that because I disagree with him on the issues that had him joining the army in the first place. Another first for us.
He spent time with his new nephew before he left and gave the month old child a speech on the proper way to care for his mother (me). It was so cute.
Then when we hugged and bid farewell he promised he'd take care of himself and we proceeded to both spring leaks. It seems so odd without him.
Strangely enough, it feels almost like he were never here and that makes it worse.
He'll miss helping me move with my new family.
I'll miss seeing him change but I'm not sure I want to see the change.
I want my baby brother back, not some military machine...
Don't think ill of me for not liking his chosen career. The knowledge of where his job will take him is almost too much to take...He's only 19 but he hasn't been a kid for a long time...
I'm so proud of him though, if you can understand that. He knows what he wants and he's doing something about it.
I don't have that courage...Bless him and his and keep him safe..------------------
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MysticMelody
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posted March 10, 2007 02:45 AM
If he's got to do it, this is probably the best time. He should be ok. You will be ok too.  How sweet. You are lucky to have such a close relationship with someone you love. After my daughter, my favorite people in the world are my brother and sister.
My little buddy from across the street is home from Iraq for a while so I will get to check out how "military machine" he has become and I will get back to you on that!   Hang in there. Pray that this experience helps him grow and helps him feel a sense of power that will contribute to his well-being. Everything will be ok.
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