posted March 13, 2007 12:48 PM         

Last night I went out and did my stand up act for 5 minutes and it was a train wreck. I didn't run off the stage, I could actually stand there and work upon the things I wanted to say. It takes a lot of work doing what I do and I haven't given up.

I went up on stage and said that I am a recovering introvert (the Emcee did a nice intro.) I go on to say that if somebody told me a year ago what I'd be doing on stage, I wouldn't have believed it.

After the show last night I went to a music jam with a bunch of other comics - there was a guy there - who was just an audience member at the show. He said that he is a introverted and private kind of guy who wants to do what I'm doing - getting up on stage and performing. He told me that he is trying to work up the nerve to go on stage. I told him how I started going on stage and went on about my journey and processes. I hope I've inspired him more to follow his heart on stage and to overcome the reserve about opening up.

I feel very touched that I'm able to inspire people who are simular to me who want to do what I'm doing on stage - inspiring the quiet reserved introverted person. It means a lot to me to be able to inspire others and I find that people take notice of my courage and determination to do what I do. Even though I have taken center stage in my hobby, it feels like I am still giving of myself to others. (If that makes sense)...Just being who I am and sharing my message with others around me.

I know Leos like to take center stage but with Aquarius it's about individuality and helping out humanity. (NN in Aqua 10TH and SN in Leo 4TH) Maybe this is my nodal balance....ah who knows.....all that I know at this time is that I feel touched cause somebody found what I do inspiring....