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Topic: DEAR DIARY!!
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jehovah81
Knowflake Posts: 102
From: auckland, new zealand
Registered: May 2006
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posted November 25, 2007 07:54 AM
 
mon 26/11/07 1.38am
auck.nzdear diary,
ok i sit here at this ghastly hour trying to get some sleep its been hours since i've tried 2 sleep so im still up, got loads on my mind and needed a place to store my thoughts, can here the stupid neighbours dog howling as i type this 2 ARGH.. stupid mutt.
Well its 4/4.5 weeks until xmas then the new year, and i just realised wht the hell has happened over the year - loads of break ups, and a couple of soul mate unions So i thought? lol apparently not!! haha 2 funny not really liking my 20's one bit the bloody damned of it all makes me nervous and angry, wht the hell for? cos it feels like wasted time and i dnt get it back i s'pose which has me biting my finger nails at times.
And im stuck wif 2 thoughts moving overseas or trying 2 patch things up wif an old lover, hmm funny. Here as i think 2 myself how come? im left 2 ponder this for awhile until i can make of it. BUTTERFLY KISSES AND BIG BEAR HUGS 2 ME
J81 XOXOX just a note 2 the reader,
f by ne chance u have taken the time 2 read this by all means do so, but i will not b answering question nor will indulge in helping solve issues. tho feel free 2 add a piece and n doing so may it bring some closure or wht ever 2 wea ever u want 2 go!
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Xodian
Moderator Posts: 1699
From: Canada
Registered: Dec 2006
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posted November 25, 2007 08:13 AM
A perfect idea  .Well actually, I am not looking for closure to anything BUT; Here is one of my Blog entries that should answer that elusvice question everyone is possibly thinking about LOL! *Yes ppl, its just a joke entry. I just couldn't help going all egotistical on this one; The buggas wouldn't stop bothering me over it LOL!) quote:
Quite recently I have taken a lot of heat from my ever loyal fan-club as to why I only choose to show you all just one side of my oh so glorious face. It seems that the fanbase is quite upset since they never get to see the complete portrit of perfection. Well I could always just discard the lot and replace them from my of so infinately replenishable source of loyal subjects who would know better then to question my benevolency and my decisions. But... I am a compassionate god-like being and as such I shall reveal to you all as to why the other side of me remains an enigma. And the reason is: . . . . . I am the reincarnation of Dorian Gray:  Its true... I am but half perfect; Just as my Sun Sign dictates I should be... being the balance of awesomeness and corruption. For if I were created totally perfect, it shall have been a travesty for my lesser male counterparts. It took a Scorpio female looked behind my imperfections as saw the true awesomeness of my heart. Ah love can do such wonderous things.  So now you know... I was reluctant to reveal the true nature of my being since it would deprive you fans from worshipping me completely and thus not being able to complete the very thing you were made to do... But I am sure you can cope with my imperfections. The Ancient Greeks certainly managed to look beyond the flaws of their deities; I am sure you can as well. And thus I shall always remain the enigma that is Dorian Grey.
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jehovah81
Knowflake Posts: 102
From: auckland, new zealand
Registered: May 2006
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posted December 05, 2007 05:55 AM
well back here again random thoughts going on n my head thinking about the weeks tht have passed, xmas nearing, and wht gifts 2 get how much will i spend(?), haha not sure i wanna this year,the rain has started and theres xmas n the park happening this weekend might go depending on the weather? if it rains then nah not going.
met up wif a woman i love, working things ova,taking things slow. im happy today.j81.
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Battle of Evermore
Knowflake Posts: 1145
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Registered: Sep 2004
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posted December 06, 2007 02:47 PM
These past few weeks I've been so full of anger and uneasiness. I know the source of the problem, but why it's bothering me so much I seem to be keeping hidden from myself like so many other things. When an emotion appears weak to me I always seem to put it aside and let it fester in the back of my mind because it's silly. Sometimes it goes away... sometimes it's a constant, nagging, torturous feeling that eventually starts ripping me apart from the inside, which was the case this time. But for the past two days I have, for the first time in weeks, been at ease and at peace with myself. It was kind of unexpected. Of all places, this feeling of peace came from a book, which is not completely unusual for me considering the fact that a book is passing on the wisdom of others and can be very insightful. Now I'm left thinking "What does it all matter? It doesn't. I should feel at peace because anger is good for nothing but destruction." IP: Logged |
jehovah81
Knowflake Posts: 102
From: auckland, new zealand
Registered: May 2006
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posted February 13, 2008 08:49 AM
hmm..ok back on here again and well just AND!! really i lay awake at night thinking about some1...ne1 nope not ne1 some1??we take it slow we speed it up we take it slow speed it aeyayi...IDK.. my brain cant keep up wif the emotions or mayb its the other way around which ever it is som'n has gotta give...*CONFUSED*...give myself a day or 2 should've sorted itself out by then f not ooh woody blell... IP: Logged | |
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