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Topic: I just keep screwing up...
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Motherkonfessor
Knowflake Posts: 1140
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Registered: Oct 2003
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posted February 22, 2008 02:38 AM
 
The past few months have been brutal.I can't seem to do anything right.
I have been written up at work twice just this week- 1 matter was rather petty, but the other is major. Next summer I am taking on a huge, huge project..but this winter I have made so many mistakes.
I feel as if I have "fallen off the pedestal" at work- when once upon a time, I was painstakingly perfect. At the same time, I feel as if I am being held accountable for errors made by other employees. I almost started a new relationship.. but that got all messed up too. I know that Saturn is totally afflicting me right now, all in my house of career. I am just so angry at myself, and I feel as if the Universe hates me. MK IP: Logged |
blue moon
Moderator Posts: 1169
From: U.K
Registered: Dec 2007
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posted February 22, 2008 05:12 AM
Oh dear, I do know what you mean.Sometimes I go over in my head silly things I have said and done, wrong decisions I have made, going back 20 years or so. But generally, it's not very helpful is it? I've also been accused of having high standards and expecting too much of myself in the work place. It's that Virgo Midheaven thing. It is very hard to do, but sometimes you have to cut yourself some slack and say it is O.K to mess up and make mistakes every now and then - lives haven't been lost (unless you work in healthcare?) If your personal life and professional life are going badly at the same time you are under a lot of stress. Is there anyway you find that helps to switch off and forget about everything? You may need it if you are going to get through the next few weeks. Good luck. IP: Logged |
wheelsofcheese
Knowflake Posts: 208
From: UK
Registered: Jan 2008
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posted February 22, 2008 07:21 AM
Oh dear love, that sounds horrible. Don't mug yourself though (Brit way of saying don't beat yourself up). I have had nights of bad sleep this week where all I've done is think about all the ways I've messed up dating from about 1977. Don't feel alone in thinking you're the only person that messes up and that the universe has it in for you. You know that Saturn's doing his thing with you, you've identified this yourself. Don't be the one to inflict violence upon yourself, forgive yourself eh? Sending a lot of good vibes your way.
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thirteen
Knowflake Posts: 1107
From: Rochester Hills, MI USA
Registered: May 2004
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posted February 22, 2008 08:07 AM
MKF: I was hoping by now that the work thing for you would have settled down. I have had those times in my life when work/career have been hellish. I have something to ask you and you may not like it. When you said that you are being held accountable for others mistakes at work i could relate to that. It happens and it has happened to me, and sometimes still does.But there is more:Is there anything that you need to take responsibility for. Have you contributed to the problem? The reason i ask is because if it is true and you can admit this to yourself it would end some of the mental trauma you are going thru.
Today im just not sure how this sounds but i am not trying to upset you as i can see that you already are. IP: Logged |
AcousticGod
Knowflake Posts: 11943
From: Pleasanton, CA, USA
Registered: May 2005
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posted February 22, 2008 12:53 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wtvjy3EiVCM IP: Logged |
BlueRoamer
Knowflake Posts: 3944
From: Calm Blue Ocean, Calm Blue Ocean
Registered: Jun 2003
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posted February 22, 2008 12:57 PM
All virgos and pisces are getting the combo of saturn plus a lunar eclipse, so don't worry things will get better!IP: Logged |
Motherkonfessor
Knowflake Posts: 1140
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Registered: Oct 2003
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posted February 23, 2008 01:31 PM
AG~
that clip is so cute!!Thanks for the kind words, everyone. I know there is so much astrological weight behind all the stuff I have been going through. It feels so all-encompassing- I can't avoid it, and I can't solve it- I just have to slog through it. Thirteen, your words don't upset me at all. I am the type of person who takes on TOO much responsibility most of the time.
What I don't like about this situation is that I feel as if I am being judged under the assumption that I will behave in the same manner as the former bosses- and I am NOT them. I have no issue with being held accountable for my own mistakes and my own poor choices. I don't feel it is fair to be held accountable for mistakes done in the past by other people. Does that make sense? MK IP: Logged |
wheelsofcheese
Knowflake Posts: 208
From: UK
Registered: Jan 2008
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posted February 27, 2008 06:02 AM
Hello! How are you feeling these days?
I think at difficult times like this there must be some sort of lesson to be learned in the experience. Perhaps it would help to think about what Saturn's trying to show you?And if that doesn't work, I'll come and punch them on the nose for you. 
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thirteen
Knowflake Posts: 1107
From: Rochester Hills, MI USA
Registered: May 2004
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posted February 27, 2008 08:43 AM
yeah that makes sense! Maybe then you just have to hold your own until people realize you are who you are and they are not going to change you into who was there before.Some people can be very stubbborn. I see this kind of thing here at work because we have a new guy who is definately not like the others and some can't handle it. Slowly acceptance is setting in.
Pls let us know when things stabilize. IP: Logged |
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