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posted June 02, 2008 11:32 AM         

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i'm going to bail on you right now actually. can we continue this tomorrow or if you leave any comments or questions and i'll get back to you. it's 1.30am here right now and i've promised to make pancakes for the kids in the morning (see even with super powers i still have to do the mundane - lol). and honestly, i'm just plain tired.

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posted June 02, 2008 11:38 AM         

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Lol,your kids have a very special mum

I need to think about some of what you've written,and bear in mind this is a public forum.But thanks for taking the time xx

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posted June 02, 2008 01:16 PM         

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PA, you are quite good at this -- what a talent you have!!

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i would just say in terms of relationships for you that what you are seeking is a very spiritual union - it's just not coming up. and there is this push-pull thing within you as well. you want someone to inhabit you and at the same time you want your freedom. so you kind of need someone who is really spiritual and that will freely invite you into their soul and share themselves wholely with you but that will give you the space to grow as an individual fully so that you bring that into the relationship and give of yourself from that place.

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Can you put me on the list for one of these too??

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posted June 02, 2008 01:39 PM         

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posted June 02, 2008 08:53 PM         

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hey aquad

omg - thank you so much for the comment about my kids. wow!

i wanted to ask you about the public forum thing actually - now that you've read it would you like me to delete the information from public view. its funny - i'm quite naive in that i just automatically think because the thread has your name on it that it will remain between us - but not the case. that's where the aries shines with me. funny with so much aries people expect me to be a real egomaniac but i'm pretty childlike like that. people always think i'm a libran anyway. did you see the anti-librans thread on the astrology forum. lol.

the capi stuff. my hubby is capi sun with loads of aquarius. there's the saturn & uranus pull always happening. own worst enemy thing. think of a really great reason to do something and then a zillion as to why not to do it. i met a girl with heavy saturn influence and explained it to her like this. there is the innate desire to get up on the table and dance and feel free and then telling yourself that you really shouldn't. it's this desire to be free enough in yourself vs the self-criticism judgement thing.

as for feeling nude and exposed. we just did that for me. this entire conversation and me revealing all that i am - that's mine. so this was a challenge and a learning one for me. there's that superman song again. lol.

hey zala

thanks. yeah - you know - i think we could all use of those. sometimes it comes in different form that you think too. as for being good at it - i'd like to be. there is always that aquarian fear of being wrong. hope you are feeling better today.

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posted June 02, 2008 08:55 PM         

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i often wonder if this is what i'm supposed to be doing with myself - if this is a way to help people and contribute to the world.

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posted June 02, 2008 09:00 PM         

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i often wonder if this is what i'm supposed to be doing with myself - if this is a way to help people and contribute to the world.

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My vote is: **YES!!**

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posted June 02, 2008 09:05 PM         

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thank you zala

i think you are an

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posted June 03, 2008 06:25 AM         

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Hi PA,i had to have an early night last night,feeling really drained.

The public forum thing...well i'm not that bothered tbh,it's just there is certain bitchiness here from a few people that kinda irks me and doesnt really wanna make me feel comfortable about expressing really personal stuff,probably best done on IM.
But it's been fun.
I can see your Aries naivete,and i think it's a lovely quality.The thing you said about lighsabres really made laugh,cuz i've done the sam thing with my son

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posted June 03, 2008 06:31 AM         

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hi ad

thanks.

yes, i have noticed the bitchiness. i made comment about it in one of the threads. that's why i switched over from the astrology forum to here but it's still an issue. but i feel out of the way in llc. if someone has a problem - that's about them. everyone has equal right to be here and say their piece, whether its agreed, appreciated, not, whatever. ah - that's my piece on that.

if you do want me to ever delete the stuff - just say. i would understand - it's very personal.

why drained?

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posted June 03, 2008 06:36 AM         

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Yea,you could delete that stuff.

I think i'm feeling drained because of the weather,it's really stifling atm. and is zapping my energy.

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posted June 03, 2008 06:49 AM         

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all deleted.

this is so funny - i walked away from the computer after sending the last message to you and said out load - as i tend to do - merc in aries!! lol - "i wonder what the weather is like in bristol today?". and when i've come back you're drained because of the weather. it's pouring here. we've just hit winter so opposite to you. i keep complaining that it's freezing - which is laughable - what's freezing here is nothing compared to freezing there. lol.

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posted June 03, 2008 06:55 AM         

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Lol PA,well as you know it's summer here,but it's been really stormy on and off with an uncomfortable heat last night,it's better today though,just a little rain now and again.
Which part of Oz is Campsie?,north,south, etc.?

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posted June 03, 2008 07:02 AM         

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campsie is where i was born - it's a suburb of sydney. actually, i was born in canterbury hospital - which is in campsie. it sounds quite posh - but it's not, trust me. lol .we actually live in a country town which is much quieter than sydney. sydney's great great place - but happy to be out of the city in general. now we live quite close to queensland and so it's quite humid here. so i can empathise with you. when it's hot - it's stinking hot and storms only bring the most dreadful humidity afterwards. it's like a thick sheet of mugginess on your skin and face. so i understand that the weather itself can make you feel drained. but i suppose some people are more susceptible to external influences than others.

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posted June 03, 2008 07:07 AM         

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I'd love to visit Sydney one day,i just don't think i could handle the 20 hour flight
Funnily enough my cousin is married to a chap from Melbourne.

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posted June 03, 2008 07:15 AM         

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sydney people make fun of melbourne people and vice versa. there is this strange competitiveness between the two cities. i think it's bs personally but hey, whatever. sydney is such a great place. if you do get the chance - even with the 20 hour flight
- it's worthwhile. it's such a great place. i worked in the city for a few years - it's so much fun - great people. aussies, in general, are pretty friendly. sydney city at night - with all the lights, etc - is just spectacular. one of my favourite visions.

have you always lived in bristol? where is that - north, south, etc?

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posted June 03, 2008 07:20 AM         

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Yea,i think Sydney would be a great place to visit.
Yea i've lived here all my life,it's quite an interesting place with a lot of history.
It's in the South west of England,if you find London on a map and go all the way to the west coast thats roughly where i am.

Well i gotta go get ready,i got a busy day ahead of me.Will talk with you later.

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posted June 03, 2008 07:21 AM         

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i know what i want to ask you - i've been meaning to for a couple of days now just haven't got round to it. lol - when you consider the depth of things we've discussed. what time is it there now? i think we're about ten hours ahead here (although the town we live in is probably around 20 years behind the rest of the world - lol). it's 9.20pm here right now.

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posted June 03, 2008 07:22 AM         

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It's 12:20

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posted June 03, 2008 07:23 AM         

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okay - enjoy your busy day . a joy talking with you as always.

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posted June 03, 2008 07:24 AM         

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Ditto.

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posted June 03, 2008 08:16 AM         

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zala i hope you get this - i need you to send me an email.

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i managed to get in and create new topic. yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh, silly me. lol.

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posted June 03, 2008 09:13 AM         

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YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my computer is up and running. woohooooooooooo.
i have my music back - i haven't even been able to charge my ipod.
aghhhhh! the computer i've been on all week is an old one and while i'm grateful to have had it i am relieved and delighted to have mine operating again.
yes, yes, yes! (i'll have what she's having).

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posted June 03, 2008 10:38 AM         

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hi ad

here's something for you - may interest you.
http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/M_blue_se_night.html

it's your mayan astrology sign - blue self-existing night. you may want to double check that i've put the right information in. i found mine to be really interesting and useful - actually, a lot more than my tropical chart. the information is so good.

i didn't read it - let me know how it fits with you. it took me a couple of reads to adapt to it - even now - i will read mine and something will jump out that i've just overlooked for whatever reason before.

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posted June 03, 2008 11:56 AM         

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Hi PA,thanx for the mayan astro links,i like a lot of the stuff that had to say

The thing that REALLY caught my attention
was the link on that page to the purify and cleanse stuff,OMG the parasite cleanse forum has people mentioning some pretty grim stuff,but very useful and eye opening at the same time,i'm gonna look further into this.

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