posted October 27, 2002 12:51 AM         

Example: My youngest sister was buried Sept. 10 2002. She entered hospital with fluid on her lungs but died for no particular reason.
then 911 happened the next day. I was in shock. My Wife of 14 years disappeared all night the day after 911. When she returned she asked me for a divorce because her lover was in the Reserve Unit being called up for emergency duty and she wanted her freedom to marry him. It seems that after seeing eachother in church functions for a year they realized they were in love with each other only a week before 911. I of course knew nothing.

One year later, I have changed jobs, moved into an apartment, been divorced for 3 months, and focused on my special interests (Astrology, History, Science) to give me focus.

My wife's lover dumped her two days after our divorce. She's already moved yet another new boyfriend into our house to live under the same roof as my 10 year old daughter and I am not happy about that arrangement. Frankly the divorce left me too broke to sue for custody--even if I thought being without her mother was a good idea for a young girl's development (which I dont).

Bottom line is, even though I have always tried to aid others--now I am asking for a little help. I'm doing fine now--but it would be appreciated if someone would LEXIGRAM my name. I have no talent for it.

Can someone do my name?

I am Laurance Pearsongreer

Pearson is my natural dad's surname
Greer is my adoptive Dad's. I have used both all my life.

posted October 31, 2002 06:41 PM         

AN EAGLE SOARS
N CAN SEE ANGELS -
A CLEAN SOUL CAN
ALSO SEE ANGELS -
CLEAN A SOUL N SOAR

OPEN EARS tO ANGELS'
SONG-S - NEAR AN OCEAN,
ONE CAN 'EAR ANGELS -
thE SEA CAN CLEANSE
A SOUL

ERRORS AROSE iN AN
OLE ERA - A PLAGUE wAS
CAUSEd - PEO-PLE RAN -
RAN tO thE SEA N
CLEANSEd NEAR thE SEA

thE OCEAN CAN SEEP
iNtO PORES N CLEANSE
thE SOUL

LEARN tO RELEASE the
EGO - EGO IS A PLAGUE
thAt SEEP-S tO thE
SOUL - CARE N RELEASE
thE EGO - OLE ERRORS
CAN bE CLEANSEd AS thE
SOUL'S CLEANSEd N SOARS

A PLACE Of PEACE CAN
COmE tO thE SOUL.

posted October 31, 2002 10:20 PM         

That lexigram spoke to me of a secret memory--nay a dread memory and fear.

I have always felt responsible for some great misuse of divinely given gifts in a time back before Atlantis fell

Astrologically, I have even found indications of a a profound power being foolishly and arrogantly abused and affecting many people--in my birth chart.

I have been blessed once again in this lifetime with a plethora of gifts--gifts of unusual power. I know that they are real, even though I fear using--then abusing them again.

Each time I have tried to really let go the results terrified me--I could see the old history repeating itself in the long run and so I would shut down the power. I have been like a reluctant giant--ashamed of my size because it had hurt people inadvertantly, fearful of standing up even to stretch for a minute, because I might knock over a mountain.

Now AT MY CURRENT AGE i AM LEARNING HOW TO HELP others with my gifts and I am happier than I have ever been. But the old fear troubles me everytime even a small wonder occurs when I stretch.

Thank you HOPEFUL--YOU GAVE ME SOMETHING I did not expect, but obviously needed.

posted November 01, 2002 10:37 AM         

As for your gifts, and I do view them as a gift, there are several persons on this site that have special gifts and may be able to help you work through some of the fear. I firmly believe these "gifts" are given to certain people for a specific plan, so try not to be afraid of it. Embrace the light and the darkness will fade.