posted November 01, 2002 09:21 PM           

Whilst standing there I perused the events that have been taking place in my life over the last few months. I litterally watched a slide-show of pictures from the past fly before my eyes of all these people whom I'd met, helped, fought with, thrown out of my life, or enclosed into that private bit of our emotions which we call 'heart'.

And I could not help but wonder how I had managed to get through so well.

The excitement, the challenge of my current life is so wholly different from the dullness of what went before that the change is almost incomprehendible.

But anyways, whilst bathing in the sunlight and enjoying the beauty of nature in pure awe, I searched for the thoughts that had kept me unto my two feet.
The philosophies I had mastered;
'Sine Labore Nihil' and,
'Laissez-faire'.
The love of my dear friends and family.
The extensive delving into who I might be, and who those around me are.

It is in digging that I discovered my true value, my true strength. It is in digging that I found the 'equipment' to handle what life threw at me as well as possible.
And for being the treasure that I found, I thank you all, I thank you for continuing in the spirit of Linda's writings, I thank you for being so supportive of one-another, I thank you for sharing your time and effort to help out someone else.

I thank you for doing what so little people do, what is so direly needed, I thank you for being who you are.

For, I shall never forget that momentous day I discovered Hopeful's lexi of my name. It moved me to tears.
And even now, when things get rough, it helps me. For, everytime I'm forced to shut somebody out of my life, or feel pressured into hurting someone's feelings just because there's no other way...
...it makes one hell of a lot of a difference, that someone out there, believes you're a good person - and appreciates you for it.

posted November 04, 2002 11:11 AM           

Hopeful