posted August 17, 2003 04:11 PM         

HE HAS WON... W*HORE CARES...NODES TARY WEST, AWAY TO HARD EROS...YES, WARNS of DEATH EARNS THORN WHEEL, TRY LOAD, WORN ERODE, ROTS ALONE...HERA CARES, WANT DENT TO ROAR DEAR STONE...CON WEEDS HATE, SHEER WANT...LOSE STAR...LEARN ART TO ELECT THOR...LEAR WANES OR HATE LOADS EROS...SHADY HORN TEARS NONE...NOT CANNON, NOR EON...HEEL COLD, TRY YET RODE LEO EAR...LOONEY HOARDS AWAY WANT, LEAN TEACH TO LEARN NORTH, WARY of SORE STEED...YES WHEAT LOST, TRY EARLY DEAR LORE WHO RODE LEO...HER WHEAT HATE WAR, COLD CAY TO ROT LOST WHEEL WORE EROS, HE WEANS HERA TO EON, SHE TORN CARES TOO HARD...

posted August 17, 2003 07:26 PM         

VAA - WOW! This one is sooo awesome!

It is quite possibly one of the strangest experiences I have had with a LEXI!
And, RRR, mine is very long!

Will be back to (start) posting in just a little while!

posted August 17, 2003 10:24 PM         

A DOOR LEADS TO A WORD THEY HATE
DENTAL CARE TODAY WON'T STEER THEM AWAY
A WON TON WENT TO WASTE
SHE/HE CAN SEE HATE
THE OLD HEART IS HONEST
DOCTORS CAN TEAR HEARTS TO DEATH
AN OLEANDER TO HEAL THE HEART
THEY SEE CROWS
SHE/HE SAW REAL HATE (in) THE HEART
AN HONEST BUT SAD AND TORN HEART
THE TORAH CAN SHOW HONESTY HERE
HE TOYS WITH HER HEART
SOON THEY SAW LOADS (of) HATE
A YEAR (of) HONESTY AND HATE
HE SHOT THEM
HE SHOT HER
SHE/HE TOLD A SAD STORY
SHE/HE HEALED THEM AND THEY ENTERED THE WORST DOOR
HE/SHE LED A HATE CLAN

posted August 17, 2003 10:41 PM           

VAA!! Cool stuff

posted August 18, 2003 01:59 AM           

HERE, EARNEST, HE ENTERS NEW TOWN
HE LEERS AN SWELTER
HE RESENT THE SON
WORST SEEN, WORST SHOWN
HE SHORTEN HE SON, HE LOSE. HE REST.
AN EARNEST REST, WHERE HE REST, HE REST NOWHERE.

LOST THEE TO A SON
A SON, A HERO, A CHARADE!
THERES NOWHERE RENOWN AS A SONNET ON SHEET
A SHEET, LOST TO THEE
THEE, who REST ON THRONE
THE EARNEST NEWLY CROWNED
THEREON A HERO
NOT LOST, SERENE AN SWEET
AN SHE SEEN THEE
AN SHE RE-WROTE A SONnET CHANELED from THE ETHERS AN gives
A REAL LEER, A REAL REST.

posted August 18, 2003 03:32 AM         

VAA - Your LEXI is wonderful! That is one to ponder for awhile.

Firey Leo - Excellent LEXI! If that is your first, I can't wait to see more!

RRR - What a beautiful LEXI!
"AN EARNEST REST, WHERE HE REST, HE REST NOWHERE."
That line made me feel sad.

Did anyone else notice that we all described this LEXI as "interesting", "strange", "bizarre" and "weird"?

I must admit that it has had a very unsettling affect on me. Not only is it extremely long, (Thanks for the complex, Ally! j/k), but it gave me a message that contains my LL username, my given name, my soul name and my email addy!
I don't know what to make of THAT!
Especially, since the message is not directed to me, but about me.

This LEXI also came to me almost as 'automatic' writing. I was not aware of all of it until I read it over! I actually entered a state of...lucid dreaming...vision...I don't know what to call it? But it was so real!

I have never, ever had an experience like this when doing a LEXI. And I will admit to finding it rather spooky.

Anyhoo, I'm trying to decide whether to post all of it or edit it. Which is why I'm rambling...

Who would have thought I would have a spiritual crisis over a LEXI?
Or maybe I'm just being melodramatic and it only affects ME this way? Bah!

posted August 18, 2003 04:56 AM         

After a short battle with myS-elf, I have decided that melodrama is not my style.

I think I just freaked a little because of the way this LEXI came to me.

So, here goes nothing...

AAA C D EEE H L NNNNN OO RR S T W Y

STAY AWAY?
NO! DON'T STAY AWAY.
HONOR THE NEAR STAR.
A NEAT STORY THERE.
ASET HAS A SEAT THERE, RA TOO.
SOON, ANYONE CAN SEE THE STAR CODE.
NO ONE HAS TO CHANCE WORRY.

ONCE, A HEART ACHED TO HEED THE STAR CODE.
THE HEART WAS ONE, ONCE.
NOW TWO HEARTS SHARE ONE STAR.
TWO HEADS AND TWO HEARTS,
SEARCH THE STAR CHARTS,
TO READ THE WAY TO EACH OTHER.

THE STAR CODES ARE WHAT THEY NEED.
WHERE CAN THEY SEE THE CODES?
HOW CAN TWO REACH THE END?
WHAT CAN THEY DO,
TO REACH ONE ANOTHER?

THEY CAN SEE THAT
THEY CARRY THE STARSEED AT HEART.
THEY CAN SHOW EACH OTHER THE WAY.
THEY CAN REACH TO ONE ANOTHER AND
READ THE STORY RA WROTE ON EACH HEART.
THE STAR CODE CHART SHOWS THE WAY.

RA WROTE THE STORY ON EACH HEART ON EARTH.
RA WAS HONORED TO SHARE THE CODE,
WHEN EARTH HAD THE NEED.
THE CODE WAS NOT A SECRET THEN.
ANY EYE SAW THE CODE.
THE EARTH HEARTS HONORED RA'S CODE.

to be cont'd... of course!

posted August 18, 2003 05:40 AM         

SOON, A SORRY DAY AROSE.
SET RE-WROTE RA'S STAR CODE
ON EARTH HEARTS.
NO ONE SAW THE CODE ON ANY DAY.

RA SAW TEARS ON EARTH.
WHY TEARS? RA WONDERS.
RA SENT WORD TO SET.
"SET, WHY ARE THERE TEARS?" RA ROARED.
SET WAS SCARED.
HE TOLD THE STORY TO RA.
SET TOLD HOW HE RE-WROTE THE STAR CODE!
THE STORY WAS RAW TO RA.

RA SHOWED SET THE DOORWAY TO EARTH.
RA SENT SET TO EARTH,
TO SHOW THE CODE TO ANY HEART SET SAW.

SET WAS SO SORRY!
HE WANTED TO HONOR RA.
HE STRODE THE EARTH TO SHOW THE WAY
TO THE STAR CODE.
NO ONE HEARD OR SAW.
SOON, THE SECRET STAR CODE WENT AWAY.
SET WAS SAD.

RA WAS SAD TOO.
HE HONED THE CODE.
RA WROTE A WHOLE NEW CODE.
HE SENT THE NEW STAR CODE TO SET ON EARTH.

THE NEW CODE WAS NEAR AND DEAR TO SET.
HE HAD NO WORRY,
THE NEW CODE WAS A WONDER!
OH! THE EARTH HEARTS CAN SEE
THE NEW STAR CODE!

ONCE, SET STRODE THE EARTH TO SHOW
A SECRET STAR CODE.
NOW, HE WENT TO SHOW ANOTHER.
but...
SET SCARED THE EARTH HEARTS,
THEY STAYED AWAY.
THEY SAW NOT THE NEW CODE.

SET WANDERS THE EARTH,
SO SORRY HE RE-WROTE THE STAR CODE.
SO SORRY THE EARTH HEARTS WON'T SEE
THE NEW STAR CODE RA SENT.
HE HAS TEARS TO SHOW THE SORROW.
CAN ANYONE SEE THE TEARS?

Yep, still more to come...later.

posted August 28, 2003 02:09 AM           

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~~Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves~~

posted August 31, 2003 05:25 PM         

Kat, does this have anything to do with Tony ?

posted September 01, 2003 10:23 AM         

Kat, your vibrational energy is so open, pure and intense, I can find you anywhere and you allow me to sense what you`re feeling. Tony is one lucky guy

posted September 14, 2003 10:00 PM           

Good Luck with it and let me know how it's all going

posted September 15, 2003 11:35 AM         

This is a large family composed of many adopted sibling groups and non-related individual children. We've know the whole family since July 1999. The sister I'm friends most with is not related to Tony by blood.

So, you see, Tony, and his older sibs, were in foster care really little (he was 2), and placed with his now-aoptive mom (and her husband who is now deceased) when he was almost 3 and his sibs were 6 and 9. He's still living at home at 16, older bio bro is 18, and out of home due to some abuse-related behaviors he manifested and oldest bio sis, 21, (not the one I know) is married with two little 3 year old girls not by her husband.

And the "sister" I'm friends with has only been with this family since she was 10.5 years old (she's now 17.5), and therefore never had the early sibling experiences with most of the older kids in the family.

The "sister" is a really sweet, but over-burdened (by her Leo adoptive mom) with home and child-caring responsibilities, Pisces w/Scorpio rising and Virgo moon. We are kindred souls and have bared many of our deepest depth thoughts with each other over the 4 years I've known her and their family. She is over-touchy to any form of teasing and his jokes can be a bit biting at times, but I've learned if I show that it hurt me, he appologizes. She reacts less visibly than I do and internalizes the offesne then broods over it.

She and one of the other girls there, back when we met them, were the people who told me that they thought Tony had a crush on me cause he was talking a lot to me and following me around, teaching me pool, and just hanging out (he was 12 at the time and I was 13.5). At that time, I was still obsessed with a Scorpio guy back home, so I sorta fluffed the idea off.
But over time, we have mutually deepened our connection, and through playful teasing, diescussions of music groups in common, and genuine mental/physical tangible interest, we both seem to acknowlegde the attraction/bond, but seem unsure how to go further.
I always get a strange vibe that I can see the vulnerable goodness in him like no one else can cause I feel he reveals a different side to me than he does the rest of the world, less tough, and I know he sees a different side of me than most others do as well.
Does that provide a more detailed picture of the situation, RRR?

posted September 16, 2003 03:02 AM           

I seems as if you want things to go further with this guy but are unsure how he feels. Have you ever openly expressed to him how you feel or is that not appropriate in this situation? Has he ever confided to anyone of his love interests? (if he is the type that would do that?).

I remeber the first guy I met that made me feel like you describe and I still think of him fondly.. he died 2 and half years ago. I never got to re-try things with him because I was with my current partner when he came back into my life. He will always be special to me and my current partner understands that.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, you will either find one or two or three guys who you connect with deeply or you may find just one. Either way, you are still young enough to take one day at a time and not rush things. I think the best romances are the one that start off slowly and develop over time. Do try to be patient and just enjoy the feelings you are having for Tony. If it is meant to be it will be (I know you prob already know that!!).

Every relationship you have will consist of people with negative and positive qualities. It's what you bring out in them that is important. My boyfriend is highly impatient, yet I calm him. I am fiery and fiesty, yet he tones me down. We also tend to make the positive qualities shine.. It's not perfect everyday but its never negative either.

I think that whatever happens with you and this guy, it will be a nice experience for you both. Thats the vibe I get.

posted September 16, 2003 12:10 PM         

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Over the years, it has always seemed like he was subletly, and sometimes not so subtley flirting with me whenever we visit, giving me little presents (you know how that affected my senimental Leo moon and Venus), and I ended up falling for him. Of course I didn't want to say anything cause it seemed a few times he had dropped very deliberate references to a "girlfriend" or girls that were chasing him, with a mischieveous glint in his eye that gave me the impression he was trying to get my reaction or jealousy fired up... One day during a visit in April of 2002, his brother asked me if I had a crush on his Gemini brother cause the Gemini thought I did, and I said no. Then regretting my little lie of omission, I wrote the brother and admitted I had been dishonest about how I felt. That got back to the Gemini, and he wrote me a letter asking if it was true that I liked him, cause if I did that was ok cause he thought I was cool.

When we visited over this past New Years, the Gemini again asked me, this time to my face, and I said yes. He was really sweet to me after that, taking all the traditonal courtesies. Then in April 2003, when we visited, he paid alot of attention to be, finding excuses for interaction and contact with me, yet still coyly mentioning a girlfriend, who he said later was unhappy with their relationship. The final thing that made me really begin to wonder if his feelings, long-term, were changing toward me in the romantic sense, was the last day of our stay, he asked if I would come downstairs cause he important that he needed to talk to me, then when I came down, and asked what he wanted, he turned on a CD in his stereo, and the song that he played was "Butterfly" by Crazy Town, you know, the one where the lyrics are:
"Come my lady
Come, come my lady
You're my butterfly
Sugar baby

Come my lady
Come, come my lady
You're my butterfly
Sugar baby..."

So do you think this means he's into me? He has a Pisces(or Aries) moon, Mercury and Mars in Cancer, and Venus in Gemini, so I have trouble reading him sometimes...

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