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T O P I C R E V I E Wlovely libraCould sombody help please and either do a chart for me or direct me to a sight that will(preferably for little or no cash since i am up to my eyeballs in debt) I have had a really stressfull life but recently everything i touch turns to poop. Relationship gone, kids stressed,jobless,possetions stollen, Car broke down. Falling behind in school. You name it it is going badly. Is there some planetary influence messing with me? and if so when will it quit. here is my info.Renee Spain9-26-72chicago- ill.3.44pmthank you------------------~Renee~indecision may or may not be my problemastro junkieHi fellow LovelyLibra -I gave it a quick shot. I'm learning about transits. But nothing really major ah-ha! stuck out. How long has this been going on?------------------it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness...lllogOvely Libra, I'd be happy to do your chart, send it to you, and do a transit reading. If interested email me at LLLOG@yahoo.com with your birthdata.Lannylovely libraIt's been about two years of pure hades. had five good years before that. but my child hood was a real pain in the backside too. Looking to get it all over with and do the happily ever after bit. I have been working alot this year on pulling my life together. anger management, phobia tolerence, distress tolerence. i took myself off my meds about 6 months ago. was on prozac,adderall,geodon(yikes!) and ambien. Feel better than i did learning alot how to manage myself but a bit tired of random bad things.------------------~Renee~indecision may or may not be my problemastro junkieI'm thinking it's the effects of your Saturn return, and you have a Saturn in Gemini in the 5th House of enjoyment, which Squares your Mars. So maybe you have a difficult time with your intention and investment in energy creating the long-term effects you seek.Have you been spending too much time with pleasure? Not serious enough? What a killjoy huh?The only other thing I see is that in this lifetime, you are here to learn about being more exacting and disciplined. This is a huge blind spot for you with NN in Capricorn in the 12th House. You need to apply yourself more to specific things.Have you been spreading yourself too thin?lovely libraA SAturn Return? Heard a bit about that but don't really understand it. I wouldn't say i have been spending a lot of time with pleasure but I'm definatly hiding out. Wen my Pices left me without warning I kinda droped out. (i thought he was my soal mate, left me for another woman, kinda destroyed all my beliefs about love and family)I am now starting to climb out of the hole but I am holding back. I definantly need to apply myself. Last 2 quarters i got 4.0 in school but really strugling this quarter. No energy(ongoing) Sleep all the time. have gained alot of weight. But like i said i am doing heavy duty soal searching and am recovering. I just lost my job in Oregon and had to move back to texas, my kids hate texas( i am not overly fond of it either)I moved in with my ex-in-laws from my first marriage.(they being more sane than my family) Then my 1st ex got out of jail and moved back home too(married him when i was 19 thought he would quit being a junky if he loved me he was a cappy)and he proceeded to steal 2,500$ worth of stuff from me.Now I am having problems in class and my car exploded I guess it could be worse i have a roof over my head and food in my belly,i am safe. so mabee i am just being a crybaby lol. ty for your help.Lanny your chart is beautifull ty so much------------------~Renee~indecision may or may not be my problemastro junkie NO! You're not spreading yourself too thin...------------------it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness...lovely libraNo not spread thin just sleep, sleep, read.(i average about 4 books a week + studying) Thinking sleeping may be a bad habit left over from geodon.(but I am ALWAYS TIRED)School job search kids. I used to do so much more. Work, spin, garden, bake all the bread and goodies, make the spagetti sauce and applesauce, keep the house spottless and the laundry done and put away. My energy was boundless, now i go grocery shoppin and need a nap.cleaning one room in the house is an ordeal.I get grouchy about dishes and avoid laundry like the plauge. Also not being social at all. Online sure lots of friends, but they are safe(they can't get to me for real)and then the bad luck is not helping. sorry I am whining againty for listening and offering help and support. nice to know i am not completly alone. This too shall pass(wel it better anyway)------------------~Renee~indecision may or may not be my problempixelpixieYou sound to me like you are a little depressed hon.. lots of changes, and it is hard to reconcile the need for growth and change, with your innate need for balance. It's okay, I think you have a handle on it, you recognize that it is natural.. You say you have gained weight, moved, you have kids and go to school, have less energy (for mundane things, yes...) than you used to. But before, there was a different purpose. If the kids are fed and are clean and happy, who cares about anything else, those other things are changeable anyway. I don't love laundry, but it must be done. I started to feel depressed, and sad that this winter I had gained 10 pds, so I inquired about gyms and programs, just for myself. I found Curves.. which is available in the U.S . and they're awesome, a workout at your own pace, motivated, constant change, so you or your muscle groups don't get bored. I have found new muscles in my legs. I haven't gone alot this last week, as I have been busy.. but you might find it is the thing you are looking for.. adressing several issues.... It is empowering, it is time away from chitlins.. albeit only half an hour ( which is good for busy people) It addresses both the energy and the weight issue. Just my two cents.Good luck.. talk away here, if you need anyone. lllogI sent your transit reading to you, did you get it?Lannylovely libraPixel Thank you i think diet and exercize are just what i need and not to sweat the little stuff. Thank you for taking the time to respond.Lanny yes i got the reading it was right on target. lots of cleaning out the old to bring in the new.I will make sure to do a thorough cleaning job so that my foundation to come is rock solid. Thank you very much.------------------~Renee~indecision may or may not be my problemlovely libraSo Be ItTo long have I sat cryingHuddled in my house While the storm outside rages on.To long have I mournedThe loss of people,Things,Innocence.To long have I foughtAgainst GodLike a child crying “No! Not the needle It’s only a little splinter.”To long have I watched My house crumblingBegging to be sparedOnly to be brought DownAnd downAnd down againYou say it is time To tear down the old And start again“Look you don’t really like that old house anyway,The wallpaper was ugly,The roof leaked,And the wind slipped in through the seams”You brook no argumentDo it or it will be done to youSo Be It(Sigh)(Digs in closet for steel toed stomping boots)(Goes next door to borrow a sledge hammer)Fine!Fine!Fine!Bring it on then(Extends arm and beacons with fingersCrooked smile and slanted eyes*“I’m your Huckleberry”Echoes of anime warriorsStronger after a long battleConfident of victory)Let’s do this Kick, stompHammer awayLeave nothing upright.Goodbye leaky roofGoodbye ugly wallpaperGoodbye .(Hand me that jack hammerI want to move the whole foundation3 feet to the left)Now I stand naked in the rainAmid the ruin of what used to beLaughing like a child in the chaosCalling the storm“Come lightning strike And burn away the oldCome wind and blow away the ash”I dance with joy in the swirling madnessDrunk on surrenderPierce me with Your needleTo the core of my soulAgain and againAnd root around till it is gone completelyThe splinter is festeringI am strong enough to take the painI stand before you an empty shellAt ground zeroMy life hanging in tattersScattered all aroundHaving willingly given allI am ready now to be filledWith truthWith lightWith loveRebuild my houseA strong foundation in a secure placeA watertight roofPainted with beautiful colorsFilled with beautiful thingsA thing of beauty and strengthWhile I was afraidYou loved meWhen I did not deserve itYou loved meWhen I ran away andWasted all the gifts you gave meYou loved meWhen I realized I loved you too And came homeYou rejoicedHugged meAnd threw me a party*Quote from tombstone------------------~Renee~indecision may or may not be my problem
------------------~Renee~indecision may or may not be my problem
I gave it a quick shot. I'm learning about transits. But nothing really major ah-ha! stuck out. How long has this been going on?
------------------it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness...
If interested email me at LLLOG@yahoo.com with your birthdata.
Lanny
Have you been spending too much time with pleasure? Not serious enough? What a killjoy huh?
The only other thing I see is that in this lifetime, you are here to learn about being more exacting and disciplined. This is a huge blind spot for you with NN in Capricorn in the 12th House. You need to apply yourself more to specific things.
Have you been spreading yourself too thin?
Lanny your chart is beautifull ty so much
NO! You're not spreading yourself too thin...
To long have I sat cryingHuddled in my house While the storm outside rages on.
To long have I mournedThe loss of people,Things,Innocence.
To long have I foughtAgainst GodLike a child crying “No! Not the needle It’s only a little splinter.”
To long have I watched My house crumblingBegging to be sparedOnly to be brought DownAnd downAnd down again
You say it is time To tear down the old And start again“Look you don’t really like that old house anyway,The wallpaper was ugly,The roof leaked,And the wind slipped in through the seams”You brook no argumentDo it or it will be done to you
So Be It
(Sigh)
(Digs in closet for steel toed stomping boots)(Goes next door to borrow a sledge hammer)Fine!Fine!Fine!Bring it on then(Extends arm and beacons with fingersCrooked smile and slanted eyes*“I’m your Huckleberry”Echoes of anime warriorsStronger after a long battleConfident of victory)
Let’s do this Kick, stompHammer awayLeave nothing upright.Goodbye leaky roofGoodbye ugly wallpaperGoodbye .(Hand me that jack hammerI want to move the whole foundation3 feet to the left)
Now I stand naked in the rainAmid the ruin of what used to beLaughing like a child in the chaosCalling the storm“Come lightning strike And burn away the oldCome wind and blow away the ash”I dance with joy in the swirling madnessDrunk on surrender
Pierce me with Your needleTo the core of my soulAgain and againAnd root around till it is gone completelyThe splinter is festeringI am strong enough to take the pain
I stand before you an empty shellAt ground zeroMy life hanging in tattersScattered all aroundHaving willingly given all
I am ready now to be filledWith truthWith lightWith love
Rebuild my houseA strong foundation in a secure placeA watertight roofPainted with beautiful colorsFilled with beautiful thingsA thing of beauty and strength
While I was afraidYou loved me
When I did not deserve itYou loved me
When I ran away andWasted all the gifts you gave meYou loved me
When I realized I loved you too And came homeYou rejoicedHugged meAnd threw me a party
*Quote from tombstone

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