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T O P I C R E V I E WbeccathelionSo, I'm in a little bit of tail spin panic. I apparently did not get hired at the college that I've been attending (when someone on the hiring committee said I was...) and now all my plans are pretty screwed. I have no idea what I'm doing or what to do... Can some just do a reading for me. I can trade when I'm a little more calm. I mean, this is bad, bad, bad, bad news. beccathelionI will trade a Celtic Cross?andstuffHi becca, I would have done it yesterday but my decks are not on me T_T Will still take 10-12 hours till I have them. Keep well, I know the feeling, it's rubbish xbeccathelionthanks, andstuff!! i am very happy to trade either a celtic cross... or a sort of bumbling 5 card lenormand (i'm still learning.) and yeah, it's hard. demoralizing even. everything was lined up, damn near aces, and then... everything happens for a reason i guess. i just need some extra help. i'd read myself, but that's never worked out so well hahaandstuffHey I thought a CC calls for a CC Ace of cups crossed by the page of cupsKnight of pents above2 wands below9swords on the left10 pents on the right7 wands - king of pents - wheel - hanged manAll I can feel is god did this to you out of extreme love he feels for you. It's almost like a divine interference. You're feeling left to your own devices and extremely scared of uncertainty and being literally thrown about by all sorts of waves like a tiny boat. This has indeed been keeping you awake at night, or maybe it's what you feel even when you sleep, you know the kinda dreams in which you can't forget your current fears (like dreaming you missed a train the night before catching it, know what I mean, this restlessness). You might require support on the part of people who care about you. Maybe you could stay somewhere without paying rent due to someone's gesture of good will or maybe someone will arrange for you to get paid for something you're good at (might be related to writing, but most prob not this publishing/ editing industry). Your progress is going to be slow. But with the knight of pents it's also going to be promising. You have your degree, you have your skills and your talents. You're on a good track. Just let things work themselves out. Kinda passive aggressive. "it's in your reach, concentrate" (c) Something good enough will turn up. Not right away, but it will. I hope it might have been of some use or other. Wishing you every bit of luck, you do have the power to drag yourself through this. I can see no humiliation, no hopelessness, none of this. I can't put my finger on timing but the knight of pents is Virgo, so maybe things will brighten up towards September or thereabouts. beccathelion quote:Originally posted by andstuff:Hey I thought a CC calls for a CC Ace of cups crossed by the page of cupsKnight of pents above2 wands below9swords on the left10 pents on the right7 wands - king of pents - wheel - hanged manAll I can feel is god did this to you out of extreme love he feels for you. It's almost like a divine interference. You're feeling left to your own devices and extremely scared of uncertainty and being literally thrown about by all sorts of waves like a tiny boat. This has indeed been keeping you awake at night, or maybe it's what you feel even when you sleep, you know the kinda dreams in which you can't forget your current fears (like dreaming you missed a train the night before catching it, know what I mean, this restlessness). You might require support on the part of people who care about you. Maybe you could stay somewhere without paying rent due to someone's gesture of good will or maybe someone will arrange for you to get paid for something you're good at (might be related to writing, but most prob not this publishing/ editing industry). Your progress is going to be slow. But with the knight of pents it's also going to be promising. You have your degree, you have your skills and your talents. You're on a good track. Just let things work themselves out. Kinda passive aggressive. "it's in your reach, concentrate" (c) Something good enough will turn up. Not right away, but it will. I hope it might have been of some use or other. Wishing you every bit of luck, you do have the power to drag yourself through this. I can see no humiliation, no hopelessness, none of this. I can't put my finger on timing but the knight of pents is Virgo, so maybe things will brighten up towards September or thereabouts. This was really amazing, thank you. Honestly. I've been wrestling with grief and not being upset, because it did feel like divine intervention. I mean, I was on an approved hire list, and then... bam. They changed the system overnight and farmed jobs out to TA's instead. It was unreal. But this is promising; I wish it were sooner rather than later. I really need to get financially solvent and on my feet again. I WANT to be those things again, which I was before graduate school. And fun fact? I went to grad school for Creative Writing You're right though. Faith, faith, and just surrender. Thank you, and I mean that. This was just... the shot in the arm I needed to know the Big Man was behind me. I had a suspicion, but sometimes doubt creeps in and drowns out most sounds. What can I read for you? andstuffHey cheers for the feedback!! I hope everything falls into place for you. To be honest I was a little bit like ace of cups? WHAAAAAAT?? Was a bit unexpected in the first position and with that kind of questionYou mentioned you did creative writing previously btw. I wonder if I have a question... Can you see anyone blowing my mind enough so I fall in love soonish? Just whenever you've got the time beccathelionsure thing! i'll get to it as soon as i get home tonight, if that's okay?andstuff quote:Originally posted by beccathelion:sure thing! i'll get to it as soon as i get home tonight, if that's okay?ah, that would be awesome thanks xbeccatheliontada!andstuffHey thanks... Could you delete this, I have it saved? don't want any idiots reading it and feeling superior to meAlso not American, but happy 4th to you will post feedback in a bit andstuffSomeone still loves me, that's why. And I can't go back to him under the circumstances. All I do is feel sad I can't have it like it was with him. And all I see is worthless losers going after me, because everyone seems so random and alienWhy did you say cold and weird, btw? I don't want anything cold beccathelion quote:Originally posted by andstuff:Someone still loves me, that's why. And I can't go back to him under the circumstances. All I do is feel sad I can't have it like it was with him. And all I see is worthless losers going after me, because everyone seems so random and alienWhy did you say cold and weird, btw? I don't want anything cold Well, I think there's definitely where the change and growth is going to come in. We always rate our new mates by our ex's... or at least I have. Especially when it ends in a way that wasn't our idea. I didn't mean cold and weird in a bad way. When I tried to focus and ask about a time, I got the same feeling I personally get around the holidays. I lived in a really cold region growing up, and I worked holidays in retail for the longest time... so that's why I got that feeling. You can have something more. The Magician alone says so, as does the Ace of Cups acting as your desire. I think it boils down to letting yourself grieve, really feeling all the emotions that you psychological self needs to feel in order to heal... and then begin again. I'm really sorry for you though. Those situations are extremely hard. andstuffAh you meant weather etc, I didn't understand I've had enough of this healing work, honestly. Messed up people get good things too, surely I'm not that special to be different And beginning is just not something im good at, besides begin what? People who look for love are pitiable, never been like that. Anyway, thanks for taking your time to look at this for mebeccathelionno problem. hopefully it helped some. if it makes you feel better, beginnings suck... but they do get better. i say this having had to start a f*****g million of them in my life haha
Can some just do a reading for me. I can trade when I'm a little more calm. I mean, this is bad, bad, bad, bad news.
Will still take 10-12 hours till I have them.
Keep well, I know the feeling, it's rubbish x
and yeah, it's hard. demoralizing even. everything was lined up, damn near aces, and then... everything happens for a reason i guess. i just need some extra help. i'd read myself, but that's never worked out so well haha
Ace of cups crossed by the page of cupsKnight of pents above2 wands below9swords on the left10 pents on the right7 wands - king of pents - wheel - hanged man
All I can feel is god did this to you out of extreme love he feels for you. It's almost like a divine interference. You're feeling left to your own devices and extremely scared of uncertainty and being literally thrown about by all sorts of waves like a tiny boat. This has indeed been keeping you awake at night, or maybe it's what you feel even when you sleep, you know the kinda dreams in which you can't forget your current fears (like dreaming you missed a train the night before catching it, know what I mean, this restlessness). You might require support on the part of people who care about you. Maybe you could stay somewhere without paying rent due to someone's gesture of good will or maybe someone will arrange for you to get paid for something you're good at (might be related to writing, but most prob not this publishing/ editing industry). Your progress is going to be slow. But with the knight of pents it's also going to be promising. You have your degree, you have your skills and your talents. You're on a good track. Just let things work themselves out. Kinda passive aggressive. "it's in your reach, concentrate" (c) Something good enough will turn up. Not right away, but it will.
I hope it might have been of some use or other. Wishing you every bit of luck, you do have the power to drag yourself through this. I can see no humiliation, no hopelessness, none of this. I can't put my finger on timing but the knight of pents is Virgo, so maybe things will brighten up towards September or thereabouts.
quote:Originally posted by andstuff:Hey I thought a CC calls for a CC Ace of cups crossed by the page of cupsKnight of pents above2 wands below9swords on the left10 pents on the right7 wands - king of pents - wheel - hanged manAll I can feel is god did this to you out of extreme love he feels for you. It's almost like a divine interference. You're feeling left to your own devices and extremely scared of uncertainty and being literally thrown about by all sorts of waves like a tiny boat. This has indeed been keeping you awake at night, or maybe it's what you feel even when you sleep, you know the kinda dreams in which you can't forget your current fears (like dreaming you missed a train the night before catching it, know what I mean, this restlessness). You might require support on the part of people who care about you. Maybe you could stay somewhere without paying rent due to someone's gesture of good will or maybe someone will arrange for you to get paid for something you're good at (might be related to writing, but most prob not this publishing/ editing industry). Your progress is going to be slow. But with the knight of pents it's also going to be promising. You have your degree, you have your skills and your talents. You're on a good track. Just let things work themselves out. Kinda passive aggressive. "it's in your reach, concentrate" (c) Something good enough will turn up. Not right away, but it will. I hope it might have been of some use or other. Wishing you every bit of luck, you do have the power to drag yourself through this. I can see no humiliation, no hopelessness, none of this. I can't put my finger on timing but the knight of pents is Virgo, so maybe things will brighten up towards September or thereabouts.
This was really amazing, thank you. Honestly. I've been wrestling with grief and not being upset, because it did feel like divine intervention. I mean, I was on an approved hire list, and then... bam. They changed the system overnight and farmed jobs out to TA's instead. It was unreal.
But this is promising; I wish it were sooner rather than later. I really need to get financially solvent and on my feet again. I WANT to be those things again, which I was before graduate school. And fun fact? I went to grad school for Creative Writing You're right though. Faith, faith, and just surrender. Thank you, and I mean that. This was just... the shot in the arm I needed to know the Big Man was behind me. I had a suspicion, but sometimes doubt creeps in and drowns out most sounds.
What can I read for you?
You mentioned you did creative writing previously btw.
I wonder if I have a question... Can you see anyone blowing my mind enough so I fall in love soonish?
Just whenever you've got the time
quote:Originally posted by beccathelion:sure thing! i'll get to it as soon as i get home tonight, if that's okay?
ah, that would be awesome thanks x
Also not American, but happy 4th to you will post feedback in a bit
Why did you say cold and weird, btw? I don't want anything cold
quote:Originally posted by andstuff:Someone still loves me, that's why. And I can't go back to him under the circumstances. All I do is feel sad I can't have it like it was with him. And all I see is worthless losers going after me, because everyone seems so random and alienWhy did you say cold and weird, btw? I don't want anything cold
Well, I think there's definitely where the change and growth is going to come in. We always rate our new mates by our ex's... or at least I have. Especially when it ends in a way that wasn't our idea. I didn't mean cold and weird in a bad way. When I tried to focus and ask about a time, I got the same feeling I personally get around the holidays. I lived in a really cold region growing up, and I worked holidays in retail for the longest time... so that's why I got that feeling.
You can have something more. The Magician alone says so, as does the Ace of Cups acting as your desire. I think it boils down to letting yourself grieve, really feeling all the emotions that you psychological self needs to feel in order to heal... and then begin again. I'm really sorry for you though. Those situations are extremely hard.
I've had enough of this healing work, honestly. Messed up people get good things too, surely I'm not that special to be different And beginning is just not something im good at, besides begin what? People who look for love are pitiable, never been like that. Anyway, thanks for taking your time to look at this for me
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