hi Kimberlina210I agree with stoika's assessment for the most part, but I am a bit more pessimistic for the longterm between you.
I am particularly concerned about your comment:
"My life has kinda fallen apart like crazy lately and made me really flexible. I’m hoping that this rare chance for me to be able to flex to him will help get us some grounding like we need."
I am afraid this is a very self destructive attitude to have with this man. you are mistaking the intensity of the "other worldy" attraction to each other with a truly sincere earthly love.
the composite shows he is first most interested in the sexual connection and that the love/emotional intimacy is not a priority for him.
this is an affair and nothing more to him so for your to try to mold yourself to what he whats will leave you emotional barren in the future when he dumps you. I am sorry to have to be this blunt but you are like a moth drawn to a flame .
the stellium of venus/vertex and nessus is square to the stellium of the node/eros/Neptune/urnaus and eris forms a t square with these stelliums.
venus and urnaus gives the intense, immediate and electric physical. emotional and mental attraction.as stoika mentioned the node/vertex square gives a sense of destiny or fate to the relationship.
but Uranus/venus square is very unstable and it rarely leass to a commitment.. it is an aspect of an affair..painful if you think it shows a commitment is possible. this interpretation is further reinforced by Neptune square to venus. this is a very intense spiritual/sexual aspect but is also very unfaithful and which suggest that he has other love interest he is not mentioning to you.
in addition eris is square to venus. eris is extremely sexual but with almost no emotional content, that is eris wants sexual conquest but does not seek a loyal or devoted mate.
in addition eros and nessus are part of this t square which show he is using you . nessus particularly is an aspect of emotional coldness and is associate with abusive actions and feelings. there is no commitment here, there is only control and emotional subjugation.
this is why I am so concerned for you. you seem to want to mold to his wants about you but you do not realize how malicious his sexual desires are.
the Jupiter/juno midpoint, which can symbolize marriage, is square to the sun... so on the face of it,this might seem to shows a potential for a committed relationship or marriage and as mars is square to juno, he might even talk about a long term future with you.
but the venus/Uranus midpoint and the many other midpoints of the two stelliums are conjunct the sun and square to juno/Jupiter also.
so the feelings of a committed relationship are purely fiction. this entire relationship to him is simply to satisfy his sexual needs. he has no intention of a long term commitment not matter what he says .
so you re falling apart because you are mistaking these feelings of sexual attraction for feelings of devotion and commitment. you think he is the one ,but to him you are only one of many he wants to be with.
his extreme selfish orientation toward you is also show with the Saturn/Jupiter conjunction opposed to orcus and chiron. there is nothing here but selfishness and the need to control you emotionally. pallas forms a square to this opposition which exemplifies your attitude of being so enthralled with him that you will mold yourself to his desires.
you are way over your head and chance to lose your soul.
as you will ignore my words, at least do not throw yourself away on him....take this relationship as an affair, don't' let your heart jump to a conclusion for a month or so.(though I don't think this will last that long)
todd