Me again....When does it end? They say happiness is a choice and I convince myself to be so...and then life throws me another curve ball.
Right now I'm waiting for news about my very ill dog Jenna
On Monday I go back to work and will encounter. My woman hating manager for whom I have lost all respect. I have applied for other jobs and will continue to do so but so far I was short listed for two without a successful outcome
I'm battling financially and when I socialize with people here I'm usually the one who pays because the friends I have here are worse off than me. And yes, sometimes they can and do take advantage
Been single for years and often joke that I have become the man I was supposed to marry. I guess I have become used to being alone .
Christmas and new year are lonely too my friends go out of state and my immediate family lives in another country. I can't and won't leave as I have to be home for my dog who because of her nature will pine if I board her in a kennel. I won't be able to enjoy myself knowing that she will be wondering why I have abandoned her
I don't know if I can manage any longer....or why I am being tested so much...more than I can write down here
I feel disconnected from everyone and everything
Any advice or reading that you can offer will be great. I can't offer anything except my eternal gratitude...