things will get better- these trips to this place are heaven and hell. A descent at times, a stressful one. I can choose my level of involvement but this seems to be a place for me to clear out attachments even if it is painful. on the other hand I can drive short distances and see and interact with wild dolphins and sea turtles and all that beautiful stuff.
it is a matter of co dependency issues maybe-
many darksider attacks- they detest the light around me. This is an area of the country steeped in brouha-ism's. Mostly I fear not even if a dead cat conga line led by a coven of brouhas meaning me the worst dances on the roof!!! hahaha
also folks on mind altering substances standing in agreement to curse others get aid I am sure by the not-so-good entities that now control them. Those things are defeated and can not prosper!
I used to try to rescue some from their fate.
being here reminds me where my portals are weakest which is in the emotional attachment to various grown children who have turned into not so good grown ups-I "see" them as the children they were and not who they have become.
this is a loving thing to do, of course, but seldom validated. it is one thing to give and show love and another to be dragged into the lower atmosphere they have chosen to dwell in. I cannot rescue them or be devoured.
Always life in extremes here- always learning... I love you, tuxedo meow
ps. I have accomplished three out of the seven major things I am here for and have only been here 3 days. need to get a move on! hahaha